Wipeout

I think I just hit bottom.
I do NOT want to drive an hour to work. I really don't. I'd rather give up next Friday. I need to call her and tell her that. I have a lot to do, but I think it's all manageable in one day.

If I have a week like this in tax season it MIGHT just kill me.

I was determined to go last night. Insistent on it even. Teh Unit's BF wanted me to do a project of sorts, but I totally refused until Sunday. Now I'm not so sure. I'm just - done. Like stick a fork in me, aw shit it's overcooked done. And I'd rather not fall on my face tomorrow and be unable to do anything.

You know, I'm not going. I'm going to hop in the shower, then go over to deal with my recycling. I'm going to deal with my room, and maybe take some pictures of things for give away and sale. Without heading out to work I can eat at home instead, and I'm short on money, since being very good about bill paying.

*sighs* I hate this but If I went I'd end up goofing off and NOT doing what I'd need to do, and that wastes her time and mine.

OK Must check messages and hop in the shower! Why is it only on the weekends do I have time for this thing and to not feel overwhelmed? I have to figure out a solution.

List of stuff to do

if I'm not going to work I won't be a lump!

- recycling
- clean kitchen, research for painting.
Start looking for new hardware for kitchen.
research proper paint, ask questions
wash walls and cabinets (although cabinets are NOT on the bill for next weekend.)
- pictures of items already pulled out for sale
- write up descriptions
- Ebay research
- icon creation software

And MAYBE I head to Ikea for that desk I want. I'm not too comfortable at this table and I need to work at my desktop. I just don't know if that desk will work. Must do more measuring.

OK SERIOUSLY off this time.

Well

Apparantly I needed to sleep.

I went and took the recycling back. Also checked out the book dropoff. I can't really do that to a well loved book. Maybe the asshat books I've received, but I think I'd rather donate those to Morgan Memorial. I'm happy I got at least THAT much accomplished. I came home, made myself a lunch, and settled on the couch to eat and decide my next action. Which was to slowly drop down onto the couch, and nap for a while. I DO feel much better now, and ready to get going about the house. I don't do well in mid afternoon, if I've gotten up early. I do some furious activity in the morning, then nap, then more in the evening.

So I need to go back out to the car and get the box I put the recycling in, THEN, I'm going to clean out the fridge. probably not the freezer but the fridge is a total mess. SOMETHING spilled a long time ago and now that I've moved the washer, I can get the door lodged open and REALLY go at it. Yikes. I think then I will reward myself with a warm shower and a trip to Ikea, late, like 8:30 or so. Basically to go check out the desk again. I'll take the tape measure and see how it will work in the space I have.

I also have to talk to Teh Unit's bf about a business thingy. He won't be home til after 6 though. My sister got herself LOCKED OUT of the house, and will be insisting he come right home. After TAKING the keys Teh Unit insist I keep, she then got all huffy with me about it. Which even if I HAD keys, I'd have told her to eff off. (Well except she has my niece with her. Great parenting skillz, that one. I've never locked myself and a child out of the house.)

I might also stop by the bookstore for a reference book. Also an investment.

BUt none of that will happen if I don't get going. Quickly look at email then I'm diving into the fridge. Wish me luck - I think there's primitive life in there.

Slightly nauseated

Yeah, so the cleaning of the fridge process also included getting rid of anything old. WITHOUT exception.

My fridge is now quite empty. Pretty much all my salad dressing, which I thought I just bought and a look at the dates proves otherwise, and stuff Teh Unit left behind, which I "thought" she'd want. but since they were all quite old, I DON'T think so. The only thing of hers that survived was, surprisingly, a bottle of apple juice. It's been in there a while, but is still sealed, and the purchase by date isn't until next month. I'm going to take it to my sister for my niece and nephew, whom I'm certain it was purchased for in the first place.

There is something on the back of my fridge that ISN'T completely coming off. And I lost interest. Rather, got a very sore back, very annoyed and very lightheaded from the bleach solution. So I gave up. It was a nice surprise to find the shelf I thought was attached was NOT which made cleaning it a snap in the sink.

But seriously. Nasty. I can't believe I lived with it that long.

Now I need to empty my trash (which is full of old food) and see if I can take my now FULL again box of recycling somewhere else, so I don't have to find my way to the dump again this week. But first I need to make a call, and take that shower! It's going to feel SO GOOD I reek of bleach. I should have another go at my kitchen floor, since it's now just a bit icky from pulling stuff out of the fridge but you know, I think I can wait. It's not dirty, and it just needs a good sweeping.

Ow!

My back hurts.
It's weird that I'm JUST FIGURING out that maybe it's from the cleaning earlier. Dur.
I can't seem to get comfortable, but I'm sure once I hit the Love that is my soft sweet bed, I'll be fine. I'm thinking about popping an Aleve and chasing it with some bubble water. I'd like to watch an ep of CI and maybe stay up to see Evangelion, but I don't think I'm making it that far.

So I did traipse out to Ikea, but it wasn't as fun. Maybe because without someone to make fun of the idiots with, I'd rather it NOT be so damn crowded. I can't tell you how annoying it is to be stuck behind people who have no concept of other people. The whole idea is to browse, but dammit, be aware that there are OTHERS. ANd the damn KIDS! Running everywhere, running around pushing furniture and carts around. Sheeesh! I got to the end and decided against the meatballs, I didn't want to sit, but DID get the $3 deal. Hot dogs and a HUGE bag of chips. And more rude children and parents. *sighs* I managed not to kill anyone or run them over with their own carts but it was messy. A trip to the bookstore was more quiet but there were some creepy guys in there. I didn't find anything I wanted to buy for full price. Maybe tomorrow I'll order some things used from Half or Amazon.

I have to say the hot dogs and the chips were the highlight of my night *grins* I REALLY hate people.

Anyway, I'm looking to get some items out of the house into Teh Unit's tomorrow. Then I guess we'll see where that goes. I think everyone misses Teh Unit, since they call ME for the abuse I heap. It's obvious that at some point I will end up being the matriarch, of a sorts, that my mother is. I will end up summoning the family the way my grand and great grandmother used to. I don't think I like that though. For now I can stay Cool Auntie who takes the kids to the Star Wars and Harry Potter things. I can't wait til Narnia comes out. I'm going to encourage him to read them as soon as he's ready. IF they would STOP renumbering the damn things.

Does ANYONE think that a child should read The Magician's Nephew as book one? BEFORE THe Lion The Witch and The Wardrobe? Not in Anyone's lifetime! I mean WTF? Anyway, I can trace a lot of my confusion to this book - I didn't understand for years why such a fantasy book was required reading in a Catholic School. Again, I blame them for creating a good little pagan. First the Greek Mythology, then that. Yeah there was indeed a Christ Allegory in there, but I wanted a White Sleigh and castle, and talking animals. And Turkish Delight (Brits - I require trying some of this, please? thanks!)

Ok enough. My back hurts, I'm off to impliment Drug Intake 101. Then to bed.