Feh

I should have been at work already, according to my inner schedule.
To bad for not waking up. Then first I'm hot, then I'm cold, then now, now cold again.
Can't win.

For interested parties - IF I show at ManRay tonight it will be late. I have LOTS to do, I'm tired, and I'm gone for the weekend. I have two clients, one of whom notoriously keeps me til 10pm. That's gonna stop, I'm NOT working for them on Wednesdays, it's not worth my sanity.

This week's and today's horoscope has some advice, I'm going to try and take.

Rob's pertinent point - "*all* of you Leos will experience a dramatic increase in your power to conquer irrational anxieties and superstitious fantasies. Stand up to your inner bully! Don't let that intimidating fear-monger push you around any more." very good advice actually, given my situation and how I've been thinking. That naysaying bitch in my head is owned this week.

Today's "Don't bend over backwards for people today, and expect exactly the same treatment in return, Tiamatlady. If you want to do something because you care, that's fine, but don't do something because you want to get something out of the person for whom you are doing the favor. Huge displays of drama and emotion are not apt to get you anywhere today, so don't even bother. Actions speak much louder than words. and this is the one directly responsible for my decision not to go out. People will miss me, maybe be disappointed, but I can't do for them, they probably won't do for me, and that's what I'm expecting. Watch me hustle to MR, and have NOONE show up. CB is more than likely a no show, since he's studying. And while I love everyone else, I NEED the night at home.

That said I also NEED a shower, and to get to my client. I'm hoping to make sure my invoices are in this week so I get a check next week, right in time to start paying next month's bills. Yay.

I need to buy my bus ticket. I'm starting to get scared of the weekend.

OK, I can do without the mood swings

At least it's an upswing. And I'm very susceptable to enviorment. THIS is why I need a houseboy. emarkienna? Are you listening? I require cooking, cleaning, picking up of my clothes, arrainging and organizing of things, and knowing where things are so when I want them, they are available. Also providing drinks of my choice, and occasionaly fanning and feet rubbing. *sighs* Someday I'll be able to import my houseboy, but not today.

So I was not happy leaving the house. Today is the guy I'm trying to eind down, I woke UP when I said I'd be here, and I just wasn't in the mood for a day like last week's. Plus if I work super late I have to hustle from here to Somerville, which is never fun. I was anticipating an attitude since I'd said I'd be here yesterday, and decided it wasn't worth it, and skipped. Plus driving fun last night; why is it that people SUCK beyond all ability to suck sometimes, while driving. On Route 1, I was stuck between someone who didn't know where they were going, driving 15 miles an hour, an SUV I couldn't see over, and a jerk in a beat up car crawled UP my ass, since I was ALSO doing 15 miles an hour. Every time I tried to go around the SUV I was shut down, and the one time I ALMOST made it, the guy in front of me stopped DEAD to make a right, and the jerk in back of me almost rear ended me, since HE wasn't watching. THEN it was MY fault, according to his hand gestures. *SIGHS* I hate getting all bitched up then trying to socialize.

Anyway, I wasn't looking forward to coming in. I was tired, I'm overwhelmed by the amount of work I have to do, and just wanted to stay home today and do it. I wasn't in the mood for the attitude I'd get.

Except I got none. No mention of yesterday, there isn't a heck of a lot to do. I should get out of there at a reasonable time, so I can stop at home, maybe make something to eat, and get to my other client. The boss is in a good mood and is taking it easy today himself. Which is strange. Given that the choke hold on my time has just eased, no wonder I'm in a better mood.

I'd also taken a quick minute earlier and bought my bus ticket. I wasn't getting any input from CB on the subject so I thought "Eff it." estimated time of arrival and when I'd have to leave, AND considering I scheduled my client for tomorrow morning instead of Friday I just went and booked it. I need to be on a bus at 11AM-ish to Braintree station. I should be at South Station by 11:50 or so, giving me plenty of time to get to the bus station area, get my will call ticket fromt he machine and find my bus to leave at 12:30.

I was evil last night and got lost in Target. BUT I did get a nice new pair of sleep pants, and the cutest sleep short set, for $4. the top is a bit big, but it's what I wanted. So now I have new sleep items, that didn't cost an arm and a leg. And they're soft. I got some other things, including a book I wanted when I went to England for the plane, and couldn't afford. It's a large softcover of The Other Bolyn Girl I love this kind of thing, and although it was expensive, not as bad as it could have been. I also wanted the Laurell Hamilton books I don't have, but I figure if I take Blue Moon to reread, and Obsidian Butterfly, I'll have MORE than enough. Yep, I lost interest in Obsidian Butterfly, But I think I want to set aside some time to reread everything. Then I can catch up, once I can get the hardcovers cheap. I've decided to replace the paperbacks with hardcovers, although I'm looking for volumes like I got from the Book Club, as to save space. Then I'll sell the others. I already have one coming, and I know there's a third.

So I have plenty to read but I need my CD player which is among the missing since the revamp. I have NO CLUE where it is, although I do know it's in the room. I also need to burn a new Cruxshadows CD to add the newer stuff, and other CDs. The player is CD/MP3 format, so one CD fits all my Cruxshadows stuff, and I hope to have an Ipod by mid tax season, so I don't need to buy anything else.

I should get to work. Is it any wonder I want to stay home tonight? I have stuff to find and do, packing to do, then take out, then REPack less. I'm going to make a list of what I think I'll need based on slacking, clubbing and excessive amounts of walking I'll be doing. I need at LEAST one change of shoes. And lots of socks.

PSA

I am apparantly, going out this evening after all.
I won't do JACK SQUAT if I stay home.
I'm at a client, I WILL be leaving at 9, I DO NOT care, and I will go home, change, get tarted up and go to my House. This is after I scrounge up something to eat, I'm having "issues"

i require:
- a drink
and after my mood settles
- a hug (or three)
and
- a hot boy to watch dance.
(Who is probably going to stay in and be good and study. Damn him. Doesn't he know I need entertaining?)

Anyway. That's it. Don't poke, taunt, or otherwise annoy me this evening, else there will be a reckoning.