*sigh*

[tiamatlady]

I finally removed from my friends list a train wreck of a LJ.
I know I was supposed to try, to retrieve what was lost.
but not when she's walked RIGHT back into a host of nastiness, with her eyes wide open. And wants to be friends. And had so much to say about how wrong she was, when she KNOWS she wasn't wrong. Amazing what happens when your mind is not your own. Oh, and when you're "rid' of the people who cared about you and made it "impossible" to be friends with these other people. Oh, and how odd it is that NOW I'm weak and insecure, when before I was strong and sure of myself. Weird how that happens.

OK, That's it. I'm through trying, and I'm through worrying about it. I'll grieve for my lost friend, but she's destroying herself, and has pretty much cast me out. At least, that's how I feel. I feel like I've betrayed her, but how can I continue to fight her, when she has so many rotten apples telling her how I suck? *shudder* I can't fathom walking into a den of vipers eyes wide open?

Comments

[rigel.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear your friend has gone to the dark side. *hug*

I hate to say it, but this is primarily why I failed to care about getting back into goth circles. I went to Manray a lot five years ago, and for a short time was a new, pretty thing. And then I got to know Bratling, and got embroiled in the whole Clusterfuck culture . . . at least, the culture that existed at the time . . . but after a while, it held little for me except for a few old friends who I hardly see anymore.

*nods* Sounds familiar

[tiamatlady]

That's why I like my circle, and I don't want to get involved in any of the "beautiful people" circles. This circle is one of them, well one of the old ones, and they simply can't stand that they have been replaced.
My problem stems from the fact that they dumped on these two, and have NOT changed, and they're walking right back in to be fucked over, while people like me, who have been loyal and honest are being called names and shunted to the side becuase we don't agree with their opinions, and will NOT take it anymore.
It's strange that I'm being called weak and a sheep. Do I LOOK like a sheep to you? *evil grin*

*hugs* thanks for the support. We still need to get together, and I'm sorry you couldn't make it out Friday, but it sounds like you had a time anyway.
*grin*

Re: *nods* Sounds familiar

[ex-kymberlya124.livejournal.com]

give me a break. if you are going to insult people on a public forum, than at least have the fucking balls to say who you are insulting and why, instead of hiding behind all of this childish bullshit. you, who claims to be an adult, but won't settle differences over a lame-ass years old petty argument. stop being so god-damned bitter and wake up. you're losing good friends over something rediculous.and all of this, "beautiful people" crap. give me a break. was that pulled out of tiger beat or what? i'm so tired of hearing about your internet bashing. it's old.

[ex-kymberlya124.livejournal.com]

the dark side? you shouldn't be sorry. she's happy, and if jen were a true friend, she'd be happy she has settled old differences.

[rigel.livejournal.com]

*shrug* The use of the term "the dark side" was more to imply her perception of it than any particular belief on my part. I don't know the situation.

I also won't get into a discussion about what true friends should or should not do.

I know that I have had my own difficulties in goth circles, as have a number of people in a number of circles. It doesn't say more or less than anything else anyone else professes about their personal experience.