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tiamatladyI finally removed from my friends list a train wreck of a LJ.
I know I was supposed to try, to retrieve what was lost.
but not when she's walked RIGHT back into a host of nastiness, with her eyes wide open. And wants to be friends. And had so much to say about how wrong she was, when she KNOWS she wasn't wrong. Amazing what happens when your mind is not your own. Oh, and when you're "rid' of the people who cared about you and made it "impossible" to be friends with these other people. Oh, and how odd it is that NOW I'm weak and insecure, when before I was strong and sure of myself. Weird how that happens.
OK, That's it. I'm through trying, and I'm through worrying about it. I'll grieve for my lost friend, but she's destroying herself, and has pretty much cast me out. At least, that's how I feel. I feel like I've betrayed her, but how can I continue to fight her, when she has so many rotten apples telling her how I suck? *shudder* I can't fathom walking into a den of vipers eyes wide open?
I know I was supposed to try, to retrieve what was lost.
but not when she's walked RIGHT back into a host of nastiness, with her eyes wide open. And wants to be friends. And had so much to say about how wrong she was, when she KNOWS she wasn't wrong. Amazing what happens when your mind is not your own. Oh, and when you're "rid' of the people who cared about you and made it "impossible" to be friends with these other people. Oh, and how odd it is that NOW I'm weak and insecure, when before I was strong and sure of myself. Weird how that happens.
OK, That's it. I'm through trying, and I'm through worrying about it. I'll grieve for my lost friend, but she's destroying herself, and has pretty much cast me out. At least, that's how I feel. I feel like I've betrayed her, but how can I continue to fight her, when she has so many rotten apples telling her how I suck? *shudder* I can't fathom walking into a den of vipers eyes wide open?
