*surprised*

for some reason, my new CD Writer drive sounds JUST like a vibrator.

SHUT UP! I HEARD THAT!

I am NOT using it to pleasure myself, damn you.
It's far too bulky, and has pointy corners!
THINK, next time!

I'm starting to get tense about this wedding. There's just a - lack of information. but, to be honest, all I have to do is show up, in the dress, ready to go. Everything else is just cake. Or death. I haven't decided.

Dude, that buzzing is FREAKY! (and it's ripping Danzig right now. Even freakier)

I have the window open and it smells damp and cold right now. My favorite. I love being warm, under the blankies, but not too warm, with it cold, but not too cold, outside them, so I can breath in freath air if I want to. I did however see a BIG ASS spider earlier. Even more reason to clean this room - I might not want to kill the spiders (which I do) but I at least want to ENCOURAGE THEM to live outside. Outside my window, fine, right as rain. Inside, cake or death and we're out of cake.

Plus, I want to smudge this place BAD. Except that might have to wait til The Unit moves out. IF I get the damn mortgage. Must. Get. Paperwork. In. Order. Oh and I'm SO getting rid of a storage unit. All I can think of is saving the cost of my units if I own this place. OK, drop, meet bucket, but still.

No evil vibrator sounds for this CD. It must have been the live version. My CD burner is a music slut.

One or two more emails, then to bed. DO have a client in the morning and I WANT to get up and do laundry *gasps*

*confused*

So getting up early and being Washer Woman has failed.
But, for a good (oh well, OK anyway) reason.
I went to bed late, prepared for about 5 hours sleep, which I was OK with due to the excessive amount of sleep I'd gotten the day before.
Get into bed, and Can't Sleep.
I'm thinking I dozed, but I felt awake for hours. it was about 3:30 when I laid down, it was almost 5 when I got up to shut my window. I'm not sure WHAT kept me up. I don't think it was the window per se. I liked having it open, but I kept thinking the Unit would be running in freaking out. Once I closed the window, I was able to sleep, but now we're talking about 3 hours, which is making me headachy and grumpy.

And, I have having "issues." I kept imagining my bad tooth was leaking into my nose and brain and causing problems throughout my body. I KNOW this isn't true! It simply isn't that bad. But sometimes when I lie down I feel wonky. One of my goals is to get taxes done, to take to the clinic, so I can get approval for a full workup. And get the teeth taken care of. Apparently, another thing you can get at BJ's is Health Insurance. I'm freaked out by this, but if it'll help with costs for my teeth, and let me get a doctor for the rare times I need one, might be a good selection. Mostly the teeth. I'm figuring the health clinic in Quincy would serve well enough, for when I'm sick, and the occasional paranoid delusion.

Another thing - my mother almost "walked in" on me last night. YOU know what I mean! *blushes* She OPENS MY DOOR without knocking, LOOKING AT ME for a good 10 seconds, then asking if I was OK because she'd heard something. I'm going to ask her tonight if she did, because I was asleep, then tell her I had my window open, and she probably heard a truck or something. She'll buy it. BUT I have to be super careful. I DON'T need that right now - she'll probably go very Christian on me and freak. one more reason for me to get my shit together and buy this place. I haven't been "caught" yet at any of the things I've done or had in my room *grins* but I'm past the point of "sneaking around."

Gah I'm late. I wanted to be leaving about now. I still need to shower.
More later, I have to send one more email before I can get out.

Argh

- lateish for client. S'ok I called, gives her time to have lunch now.
- Tummy is not pleased. I'm sure I'm over-sushi'd. It was the second order of tuna that did it. I also had Chicken Katsu, a first at this place, so maybe it's just "too much" Anyway, the word of the day is *merf*
- Really bummed about not doing laundry. Will be doing it tonight and tomorrow.
AND
this lovely on the front page of Boston dot Com
"do as we say or NO WAFERS FOR YOU!"
THIS is the exact reason the Church is alienating younger parishioners. They REFUSE to practice what they preach. Kerry's stand is "I don't like it, I oppose it personally, but I support _your_ right to an abortion." THAT'S what I effing want to hear "I, personally, don't like it, but the will of the people must be respected, and protected." No, he's not perfect, but he's just a man, in the end. And, I think, the country's best shot at reestablishing an equilibrium.

But I'm just amazed at the shortsightedness of the MEn in charge. And I'm surprised that I'm amazed. *shakes head* and they wonder why people are leaving in droves. because they refuse to have a herd mentality. This isn't the dark ages people, what the pope says simply isn't good enough. Give me reasons, WORK within your Church, educate, be caring, be empathetic. Don't just give me dictates and expect me to follow blindly.

Of course, I learned about the basis of MY religion in Catholic school That's what they get for teaching GREEK MYTHOLOGY. (Greek led me to Egyptian, which lead me to Celtic, which lead to paganism in general. 4th Grade, taught by Sister Mary Joseph.)

And it all comes crashing down.

I was planning on a whiny post on being required to work, and relief on not being in this company, where drama abounds. it ended with us getting drinks and the waitress dumping 4 drinks on one of our group. (She was wearing jeans and a tShirt she'll live. Oddly enough we just found out we're practically neighbors.)

Til I saw this on my Friends Friends list.

It's about a safety for the Arizona Cardinals, who joined the Army after 9/11. He was in the 75th Ranger Regiment, currently stationed in Afghanistan. Based at Fort Benning, Georgia. He was killed last week.

For those playing at home, that's Lou's current/soon to be former unit. He's in the division that just cycled back.

That could have been him.

I'm seriously shattered.
NOTHING is important anymore. Seriously, let him do what he wants, as long as he continues to come back safe.

And I'm DISGUSTED I can't find it on CNN. At least I know exactly where Lou is right now.