Damn

That's some friggin headache.
*ow*
No idea where this one came from. Could be a direct result of the Unit and my over thinking of the stressers. I certainly felt it starting to come on while she was starting. A trip to the Maul, where I at least returned the unwanted undie didn't make anything worse. But somehow, after making it to WalMart it started. Maybe it was at the desk while I was waiting for Ms White Trash worker to finish returning her stolen items with ms "What you mean I have to WORK now?" at the desk. Got the refund to my card, even got some more hangers, for which I paid cash. Maybe it was my phone ringing it's fool head off while in line. MAYBE it was the dirty look the cashier gave me. She did NOT want to be friendly, and she did NOT think my phone should be ringing and potentially wasting her time. So when I get ON the phone and it's someone drunk and/or stoned giving ME a hard time, especially over his laughable "This is costing me MONEY!" I think I just snapped.

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I've dozed off several times. my head is pounding, right above my right temple, my bad tooth feels "funny" I'm hoping it's not an inflammation that might jeopardize my very tentative hold on financial security. *sighs* I need to do some work and bill some hours, unfortunately. I was hoping to hold off, but not if I'm going to afford some things.

I need to go to bed, I'd like to work on room stuff tomorrow before unit gets home. The Nephew will be with her, so I think clearing out for ManRay early is a FINE idea. He's going with her to work on Thursday so he's staying overnight. Hmmm, long overdue laundry. but only if I get enough sleep. to get rid of this headache, I don't want to have to take a pill, although I'm very open to the idea.

I forgot my contact lens thing I was supposed to get tonight too. Poop.

Headaches do weird things to me

SO when I finally crawled into bed, since it took me forever to get the few things done I needed to do, especially after dozing off during InuYasha (adding insult to injury. The ONE THING I wanted to watch, I sleep through, mostly. it's the "season finale" of season too as well, I think. Although that means there should be more of Mr. Sesshomaru soon *drools*) weird things happened. It was brighter behind my eyes that in the room. Like theatre spotlight bright. I was watching SOMETHING go on. I wasn't dreaming, but I felt in a dream state of sorts. I think it was the reality setting in of the "evil plan" and it's expense, which would drain me financially far earlier than I need it to. I'm certain there was a message, I just have no idea what it was *grins* All I know is that I got out of the state, opened my eyes, tried to regroup, and when I closed my eyes again there was nothing but darkness (although not THE Darkness, since they make Baby Jesus cry) and I was able to sleep.

what I'm going to do is talk to the D tonight. I'm going to email her and maybe she'll have time to look at things at work. She's going to need to be up front with the payment. I'm going to have to pay her half now, half before. I'm pretty sure this is going to happen. More when it's confirmed.

I don't know what to do with today. I just woke up, given my headache I'm not willing to quibble. Fortunately I'm also less willing to lay around once I wake up. Yesterday I was able to get right up. I was at my client by 10, which since during the season I was getting there closer to 11, is great. I need to sit down with my schedule. I've had it with sitting around doing nothing - I need to put a plan into action.

Today I think brings Laundry and pulling out of all the crap I don't think needs to be in this room. I have plenty of plastic bags, I'm going to start loading them up for a trip to my storage unit. If my spare keys aren't available I'll be getting them from M and going tomorrow. I also have to call a couple of clients and schedule appointments, mostly so I can bill them. *grins* There's a couple of clients I haven't factored into the money game, and one of them, if I make it say, Friday, has the money to pay me for two visits. On Friday. Which will expand my buffer zone. I'm lucky I have good clients. Very good clients.

Tomorrow I think I need to find a Muffler place, with a sale, and get them to JUST PUT ON a muffler. I'm thinking a lot of my acceleration problems come from a shitty muffler (OK I'm willing to accept this may be wrong.)

I'm going to start by getting dressed. I'll shower before Manray, that way I can get all nasty sweaty. I think I'm going to stay home and watch Angel before I go. And there's still sandwich makings and soup.

I can do this, totally. I need to spend the weekend taking pictures of the stuff that can go now. I should also purge my closet again. There's plus size stuff in there I bought and never returned, that I'll never wear. Some of them still have tags! Although how to address that! Remove the price I suppose *grins*

Right. and....I'm off *grins*
(Metaphorically, I need to write an email first.)

Something's wrong

I decided lounging was a better way to spend my day than cleaning.
And until a bit ago, I was fine with it.
I think it's because the unit is due home soon.
I don't think it was Howie all of a sudden taking point on something he should have had done months ago.
I don't think it's to his revelation that EVERYONE BUT ME has talked to Lou.
And, although this is upsetting, I also don't think it's due to my realization that I DON'T want to see Lou. I don't really want to go out to Neubauten now. I don't want to ask him to come to Haven. I just want to smile and nod through the wedding, and leave it at that. I think I'm trying to break it off before he does. Our friendship. Just so the "friends" of Sprite's can tell her that's what I said (her words, not mine)
*shrugs*

Seriously, I think my mother's mood has sent me into a tailspin. That and the sheer amount of work I have to do on this room. I haven't an ounce of energy. I suppose, I should just go out to work.

off to finish my soup, and plot out my week, and next.

Whoa

My head is beginning to pound in the exact same spot as last night.
Oh NO you didn't!
One Aleve later, and I think I'm OK. I'm getting in the shower soon, and throwing on something clothes related, and getting the car out front, and digging out what I wore last week. Then I'm going to have Fashion Crisis, and I'm going OUT and I WILL enjoy it. I will especially enjoy the large toasted almond I'm going to have.

I think I'm also going to tackle the question of my filing. If I can get the desk cleaned off at least I'll have accomplished SOMETHING. Then I can go out and away from the crazy people. I had no idea what I was missing byt working all the time. Makes me want to work MORE.

*phonus interruptus* Lou just called. it's nice to hear from him. I'm not going to go into what it's doing to me, emotionally.
Drinkie drinkie drinkie

it's time I got up and did - something. Anything.