Meh

[tiamatlady]

I hate this. I'm really too sick to do anything besides sit here.
Which means most of my well time once I am well - will be spent Working.
I have a fucking problem with that.

I'm going to bed soon. I'm horrified by this. I'm just wiped out today though.

*grump grump grump*

Comments

[depotmode.livejournal.com]

Give yourself a break and time to get better. The world will not fall apart while you're taking a rest. Unfortunately, we're not indispensible. :/ If your clients truly have to get stuff done, someone else CAN do it. You bust your ass most of the time, I'm surprised you don't get sick more often. :P

Feel better, chica.

[tiamatlady]

See here's the thing - If I were Dead, yes someone else will pick up where I left off. IN fact just this past week a new look at a client by the new person working on the account is saving it from going down the tubes.

But I'm not dead. Several clients rely on me to get their stuff done, and unless I'm dead I'm expected to. I have noone that understands what I do, despite my best efforts to SHOW them, for just such this issue. I realize that's their problem, not mine.
At the day job, I'm NOT covered unless I ask in advance - and I've just used that for my taking time off. I'm Certain there will be comments about how I took "extra" days off, when I've been mostly catatonic, not able to process much mentally.

The only good thing is that I woke up early, and much improved this morning. I can breathe, I'm not coughing constantly, with fluid, and my head feels clear. My next step is to get my shit together, get some laundry done, and clean up after my sick self. I don't think I have a voice though, haven't tried yet.

I'm surprised I don't get more sick myself. I'm more prone certain times, and I think what I got before I left made me more sensative. April is going to be pretty bad this year, but I Have a plan to survive it.