A PSA - so to speak
Jul. 23rd, 2007 03:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyI'm not even sure why I'm throwing one out, and not everyone reads this but hey, at least it's there.
I'm on a slow simmer. This is actually THE WORST of my temper modes. The blowout everyone fears and comments on - that's easy. My temper blows, I get it out, kinda like lancing the poison, and it's gone. In fact, pretty much all but forgotten, after the heat of the moment. It sucks, and it makes me really TRY to be the best friend I can be, for those who weatehr through it.
The slow burn, on the other hand, is dangerous. It makes me think, makes me brood. The same mind that hatches plots festers over this. Rolls it round and round, until there are no edges, no cracks, just a ball of hate and pain and fury.
And there are SO MANY TARGETS. it's not just ONE thing or person, it's a lot. Of stuff. That I've been sitting on, not dealing with, because dealing with it - well it's not pretty.
Oh but I am now. And I wonder what will survive the aftermath?
I know I will. I'll do what I have to.
You know that "rant" and "tear" I go on, that people think I will NEVER drop - those are from slow burns. When I think I can't blaze any hotter - I do. Stuff melts in my wake.
And you wonder why part of my nickname is "Tiamat"?
I'm on a slow simmer. This is actually THE WORST of my temper modes. The blowout everyone fears and comments on - that's easy. My temper blows, I get it out, kinda like lancing the poison, and it's gone. In fact, pretty much all but forgotten, after the heat of the moment. It sucks, and it makes me really TRY to be the best friend I can be, for those who weatehr through it.
The slow burn, on the other hand, is dangerous. It makes me think, makes me brood. The same mind that hatches plots festers over this. Rolls it round and round, until there are no edges, no cracks, just a ball of hate and pain and fury.
And there are SO MANY TARGETS. it's not just ONE thing or person, it's a lot. Of stuff. That I've been sitting on, not dealing with, because dealing with it - well it's not pretty.
Oh but I am now. And I wonder what will survive the aftermath?
I know I will. I'll do what I have to.
You know that "rant" and "tear" I go on, that people think I will NEVER drop - those are from slow burns. When I think I can't blaze any hotter - I do. Stuff melts in my wake.
And you wonder why part of my nickname is "Tiamat"?
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