Pretty not happy with myself
Jun. 9th, 2007 02:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyI'm not sure how I do this all the time.
It's the inability to get moving in the morning. My pet and I are NOTORIOUS for not getting moving for HOURS, but I'm the worst IMHO.
Because I didn't get here when I hoped, which would have allowed for me to goof a bit, eat lunch, and still get some stuff done, I already know (checks clock, at 2:30) that I will not be leaving at 5:30/6 like I'd wanted to. The items I chose to do first are taking longer than I'd hoped, especially this last one which is at least an hour long project, not the half hour I anticipated, and I KNOW the other project will take longer than 2 hours.
But because what I wanted to do afterwards (which I'm not willing to discuss) has a time limit, I won't be doing it. I didn't do to well yesterday either, IMHO.
I'm pretty cross. This isn't just a timing issue, although I'm beginning to think I need to look around for something with longer hours to meet MY needs. I feel like a big bukket of fail, because I can't get ME to meet THEM, when it comes to hours, planning, other people's schedules, etc.
I'd really like to be on MY schedule, OKTHNX. the questions are, how do I get there, and how do I stop beating myself up about it in the meantime?
Meh. I think this means I'm going to put Doctor Who (Eccelston Season) on for a while to keep me company. The radio is ALSO a big bukket of fail.
I keep reminding myself that being in the office today, and potentially tomorrow, WILL pay off, with money in this case, and tomorrow to get stuffs off my back that will lessen my stress, and make my joy-joy rise. (Demolition Man is a movie I actually LIKE despite it's suckiness. And I've picked up some stuff from there. I'm a loser, I know, but I'm also Macro-speaking. You must have known I'm a dork by now, if not, SURPRISE, buttsecks.)
It's the inability to get moving in the morning. My pet and I are NOTORIOUS for not getting moving for HOURS, but I'm the worst IMHO.
Because I didn't get here when I hoped, which would have allowed for me to goof a bit, eat lunch, and still get some stuff done, I already know (checks clock, at 2:30) that I will not be leaving at 5:30/6 like I'd wanted to. The items I chose to do first are taking longer than I'd hoped, especially this last one which is at least an hour long project, not the half hour I anticipated, and I KNOW the other project will take longer than 2 hours.
But because what I wanted to do afterwards (which I'm not willing to discuss) has a time limit, I won't be doing it. I didn't do to well yesterday either, IMHO.
I'm pretty cross. This isn't just a timing issue, although I'm beginning to think I need to look around for something with longer hours to meet MY needs. I feel like a big bukket of fail, because I can't get ME to meet THEM, when it comes to hours, planning, other people's schedules, etc.
I'd really like to be on MY schedule, OKTHNX. the questions are, how do I get there, and how do I stop beating myself up about it in the meantime?
Meh. I think this means I'm going to put Doctor Who (Eccelston Season) on for a while to keep me company. The radio is ALSO a big bukket of fail.
I keep reminding myself that being in the office today, and potentially tomorrow, WILL pay off, with money in this case, and tomorrow to get stuffs off my back that will lessen my stress, and make my joy-joy rise. (Demolition Man is a movie I actually LIKE despite it's suckiness. And I've picked up some stuff from there. I'm a loser, I know, but I'm also Macro-speaking. You must have known I'm a dork by now, if not, SURPRISE, buttsecks.)
