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tiamatladysince I got three hot things off me today, and the others are just smoldering, I'm taking time for a post.
Happy belated birthday to my Journal, which turned 6 on Wednesday. Wow. Lots of stuff happened, lots of people annoyed.
I'm going to go back and make some things at least friends only, if not entirely private. While I do have no problem being honest, I'd hate for the crap element to go back to who I was 6 years ago, and use it as cannon fodder. ESPECIALLY when I read some of the cryptic entries and say "Who the fuck did I mean there again?" Frankly, that stuff is of no use, except as posterity for me. Not everything will go under, but I think a lot of the work rants will, if just to keep myself focused on the work here and now.
I really have to decide where things are going. I thought I knew, but the urge to have a change hasn't gone away. I don't want to be stuck in the cube for 5 years and wonder where it all went. but, I'm unwilling to give up my vacationing, and going the places and seeing the people I love.
A coworker was actually argueing with me about where my priorities laid. That I SHOULD be giving up everything in order to fit into a mold. UNTIL I told her that I go to England to see someone who is "somewhat serious" and then the tune CHANGED. Pretty much "Are you thinking about marraige and babies?" After I finished gagging, I pretty much extracted myself from the conversation. I really love how I'm "wasting" my life unless I'm thinking about having a family. THEN it's OK. thatline of logic disrepected me, it disrepects the wonderful parents I know, who bust tail to have their family and fulfilling work and their own lives, AND it disrepected everyone who chooses to NOT go that route, yet still be happy. it's really scary that opinion - that I'm worthless unless I'm in a relationship, whether to a man, or my career. (I don't even dare tell her it's a boi-chick *giggles*)
Next week I hit Vegas with Captain Punt Pirate, and there will be much slacking, and drinking.
Then it's firmly into tax season, where I get everything paid off. I want to NOT use credit for anything that I can't pay off immediately.
Which includes the hotel in Leipzig. Oh yeah, I AM going, at least am right now. I allow that things might change, hard. I seem to be eating my vacation rapidly, so I might just tack on a few days to this trip to mellow out in Cambridge afterwards. I have time set aside for Black Sun, and won't really have any left to enjoy a Whitby/visit properly.
Right now my goals include getting everything done that needs doing prior to leaving for Vegas, then making sure everyone is all set through the Season. To set aside and save enough money to not worry about costs for WGT, and enough to get hunkered down for fixing some errors that now need addressing.
on a lighter note, I am COMPLETELY ENTHRALLED with Torchwood, the Dr Who spinoff. The acting is over the top, but cute boys snogging other cute boys? Priceless! Plus there's Captain Jack, in his FABULOUS COAT! What is it with me and boys in coats!? Anyway he's teh hotness, depsite the actor being so very gay. I can live with that. I think I want to try and see Cardiff, where Torchwood is set. That could be a nice sidetrip for a vacation.
Anyway, I should get back to it. I'm working at CPA #1's tomorrow, and also Day Job on Sunday, it doesn't pay to take any time off, but I WILL have fun!
Happy belated birthday to my Journal, which turned 6 on Wednesday. Wow. Lots of stuff happened, lots of people annoyed.
I'm going to go back and make some things at least friends only, if not entirely private. While I do have no problem being honest, I'd hate for the crap element to go back to who I was 6 years ago, and use it as cannon fodder. ESPECIALLY when I read some of the cryptic entries and say "Who the fuck did I mean there again?" Frankly, that stuff is of no use, except as posterity for me. Not everything will go under, but I think a lot of the work rants will, if just to keep myself focused on the work here and now.
I really have to decide where things are going. I thought I knew, but the urge to have a change hasn't gone away. I don't want to be stuck in the cube for 5 years and wonder where it all went. but, I'm unwilling to give up my vacationing, and going the places and seeing the people I love.
A coworker was actually argueing with me about where my priorities laid. That I SHOULD be giving up everything in order to fit into a mold. UNTIL I told her that I go to England to see someone who is "somewhat serious" and then the tune CHANGED. Pretty much "Are you thinking about marraige and babies?" After I finished gagging, I pretty much extracted myself from the conversation. I really love how I'm "wasting" my life unless I'm thinking about having a family. THEN it's OK. thatline of logic disrepected me, it disrepects the wonderful parents I know, who bust tail to have their family and fulfilling work and their own lives, AND it disrepected everyone who chooses to NOT go that route, yet still be happy. it's really scary that opinion - that I'm worthless unless I'm in a relationship, whether to a man, or my career. (I don't even dare tell her it's a boi-chick *giggles*)
Next week I hit Vegas with Captain Punt Pirate, and there will be much slacking, and drinking.
Then it's firmly into tax season, where I get everything paid off. I want to NOT use credit for anything that I can't pay off immediately.
Which includes the hotel in Leipzig. Oh yeah, I AM going, at least am right now. I allow that things might change, hard. I seem to be eating my vacation rapidly, so I might just tack on a few days to this trip to mellow out in Cambridge afterwards. I have time set aside for Black Sun, and won't really have any left to enjoy a Whitby/visit properly.
Right now my goals include getting everything done that needs doing prior to leaving for Vegas, then making sure everyone is all set through the Season. To set aside and save enough money to not worry about costs for WGT, and enough to get hunkered down for fixing some errors that now need addressing.
on a lighter note, I am COMPLETELY ENTHRALLED with Torchwood, the Dr Who spinoff. The acting is over the top, but cute boys snogging other cute boys? Priceless! Plus there's Captain Jack, in his FABULOUS COAT! What is it with me and boys in coats!? Anyway he's teh hotness, depsite the actor being so very gay. I can live with that. I think I want to try and see Cardiff, where Torchwood is set. That could be a nice sidetrip for a vacation.
Anyway, I should get back to it. I'm working at CPA #1's tomorrow, and also Day Job on Sunday, it doesn't pay to take any time off, but I WILL have fun!
