You know, this isn't the first time
Feb. 22nd, 2002 01:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyEver get an email, or an AIM, and suspect that you're not talking to the person you should be talking to.
And I'm not talking about obvious problems.
And I'm not talking about obviously jealous girl/boyfriends (although this could be the case)
Tonight marks the second time I've felt this way, in the past couple of weeks.
See, I'm not used to that, I assume the person I'm talking to is the person I'm talking to. I pretty much don't talk to strangers online. So it's not like I'm worried I'm talking to a spaz, then the next day dealing with his furious ex.
Tonight I AIMed someone, it's late I know, but they'd been idle, then I noticed they weren't. Hey, say I. It's not like I got a rude response, or anything out of the ordinary. Just a going to bed, talk later reply. But, it WAS odd. OK it could be late. But, just, it didn't seem like them. I mean, wouldn't someone question me if I started talking in Raverspeak, or slamming Britney, or something like that. It just didn't seem right.
And then there was the email from a couple of weeks ago. Nothing out of the ordinary, except, for them, it WAS. Too detailed, too "gee I'm sorry but...." too, not them. Does that make sense? It's a feeling. Like when you're just SURE someone is lying, or that they're being told what to say. Hmmmm. Perhaps that's more like it. But it's nothing concrete, it's just, a feeling.
Yes, I'm aware this sounds paranoid. But, it's odd enough feeling for me that I think it bears mentioning. Like I said, I'm used to talking to the person I'm talking to. AIM conversations tend to parallel RL conversations. Some people type quick, like me, make lots of typos. Some people can't spell, they sound things out. There are some people who, if they started typing perfectly without errors, I'd KNOW it wasn't them.
It's the gut feeling. It's an itch, it's an off feeling. Perhaps I'm wrong, but I think I'm gonna go reread that email. I know I'm paranoid, and I hope I'm wrong. I'm probably wrong, I can't hear inflection or see faces online.
but my gut isn't wrong. *sigh* Not usually anyway.
And I'm not talking about obvious problems.
And I'm not talking about obviously jealous girl/boyfriends (although this could be the case)
Tonight marks the second time I've felt this way, in the past couple of weeks.
See, I'm not used to that, I assume the person I'm talking to is the person I'm talking to. I pretty much don't talk to strangers online. So it's not like I'm worried I'm talking to a spaz, then the next day dealing with his furious ex.
Tonight I AIMed someone, it's late I know, but they'd been idle, then I noticed they weren't. Hey, say I. It's not like I got a rude response, or anything out of the ordinary. Just a going to bed, talk later reply. But, it WAS odd. OK it could be late. But, just, it didn't seem like them. I mean, wouldn't someone question me if I started talking in Raverspeak, or slamming Britney, or something like that. It just didn't seem right.
And then there was the email from a couple of weeks ago. Nothing out of the ordinary, except, for them, it WAS. Too detailed, too "gee I'm sorry but...." too, not them. Does that make sense? It's a feeling. Like when you're just SURE someone is lying, or that they're being told what to say. Hmmmm. Perhaps that's more like it. But it's nothing concrete, it's just, a feeling.
Yes, I'm aware this sounds paranoid. But, it's odd enough feeling for me that I think it bears mentioning. Like I said, I'm used to talking to the person I'm talking to. AIM conversations tend to parallel RL conversations. Some people type quick, like me, make lots of typos. Some people can't spell, they sound things out. There are some people who, if they started typing perfectly without errors, I'd KNOW it wasn't them.
It's the gut feeling. It's an itch, it's an off feeling. Perhaps I'm wrong, but I think I'm gonna go reread that email. I know I'm paranoid, and I hope I'm wrong. I'm probably wrong, I can't hear inflection or see faces online.
but my gut isn't wrong. *sigh* Not usually anyway.
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Date: 2002-02-22 05:07 am (UTC)Sorry about that.
~k
OH DUDE
Date: 2002-02-22 06:55 am (UTC)I didn't mean him.
I'm sorry, I didn't want to get him in trouble.
The coversation went like this:
Hey baby Guess what?
What?
I'm Iming you from BED!
WHOOT!
Did you just fart?
No, that's a Poot.
Heh. This is ****.
I SO didn't mean him, I kinda knew it was him, and he doesn't suck (You know the difference between a Whoot and a Poot. *giggle*)
AND He identified himself pretty much immediately. He didn't try to get secrets outta me, or play along for 10 or 15 minutes.
I had another IM before bed, that was all messed up.
*hugs*