*sighs**rubs head*
Jul. 19th, 2006 09:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyToday is not going to work out to be a good day.
- Today's 7AM Buffy episode "The Gift" which isn't the best way to start a morning. SO Looking forward to tomorrow and subsequent days of Buffy digging her own way out of her grave, being a psycho, and that WICKED creepy ep where all the picture faces turn into skulls. That ALWAYS freaks me out.
- Tomorrow's 8AM meeting where it's _MY_ turn to bring stuff, which means ABSOLUTELY having to get up at 6(ish) to be out the door at 7:15 in order to have enough time to get coffee and bagels. I'm going to go to the store tonight and get the rest of the supplies. Some fresh fruit, and yogurt and granola, probably the cream cheese and MAYBE even the bagels, but that makes more sense to get them tomorrow. Yes I get reimbursed, it's done this way so the same person doesn't HAVE to do it all the time. It happens twice a year. And it sucks.
- I forgot to setup coffee, so I decided to stop for it, and actually left a wee bit early to DO just that. Until I get to the sudden unexpected detour, add ten minutes onto my time, get to one DD and find it mobbed, so I go to go to the other on my way just to think It's too late I should go to work. To find everyone who makes me feel like I'm punching a timeclock - not in. Noone would have cared if I'd stopped and added ten more minutes on. *sighs*(The good news on this is that WHEN I go out shortly for a coffee still, noone will care.)
- I never did cancel tonight's client, since I thought about it and figured "Hey you know, it's not their fault I'm pissy, and I'm certain I have stuff to do." I've also figured out that I HATE going in every week. SO hate it. I need to lay down the law with them -if they expect me to be productive then I NEED to have access at home/work so I CAN just come in twice a week. I'm supposed to go there every week (on my defunct ManRay night!) so futz around because I need to get home. I REALLY should be getting stuff done when I'm productive. I have to lay it down, or I have to quit.
- Same thing goes for the other client. I need to lay down a schedule and stick to it. It's the ONLY way I can handle them. I need to lay out the calendar month by month and schedule nights and times when I'm available to work on their stuff. if it's NOT in by then, I do nothing. Then, when we miss a deadline, I can clearly say "it's not me" AND we need to have effing meetings.
- one of my coworkers is having a meltdown, work wise and keeps coming to me for help, when I don't know what's she's doing, she's having issues explaining her problem (due to her stress level) and I'm not articulating properly either. I think that will be solved by liberally applications of Ice and Coffee.
- So I need to go to tonight's client, after stopping by the house to change, and get my laptop. I have to work all day, and I KNOW someone is going to get bitchy with me today, and probably I'll get a 5pm office call "Let's do this NOW, since you are leaving at 6 on the dot." then I drive through the shit, then I WORK another 2.5-3 hours, THEN go to the store for the meeting, THEN TRY and get to bed to be able to get up.
- My one dirty habit right now - Project Runway (OK I have two but I can't watch big Brother, so it's OK that's only when I have time catchup style) And tonight's episode I don't see HOW I'm NOT going to miss. It's on at 10. Then a premiere of some crappy show at 11. If I'm LUCKY there will be a repeat at Midnight. And I REALLY need to be in bed before that. And yes, they will rerun it upteenth times. But it's not the same. It's like Buffy, I WANT to be at home, with a treat and have this one effing hour to myself. And I can't schedule it to save my life. I'm on Someone Else's timetable. at Ten PM, and I don't have kids. Eff that man.
- and I get the feeling there's a disturbance in the force somewhere. As in I write here and people are taking it personally. Unless I mention you by NAME you're not on the stress list. I have stuff I have to get done and I will. It's 50% day job 20% one client 15% other client and the rest is just general *blah* I really don't want to hear "well you SAID you were stressed" If you don't ask me I can't say no (or yes) and I REFUSE to be blamed for my lack of clue in knowing what to do or when to do it.
Anyway, I'm certain there's something I need to be doing.
- Today's 7AM Buffy episode "The Gift" which isn't the best way to start a morning. SO Looking forward to tomorrow and subsequent days of Buffy digging her own way out of her grave, being a psycho, and that WICKED creepy ep where all the picture faces turn into skulls. That ALWAYS freaks me out.
- Tomorrow's 8AM meeting where it's _MY_ turn to bring stuff, which means ABSOLUTELY having to get up at 6(ish) to be out the door at 7:15 in order to have enough time to get coffee and bagels. I'm going to go to the store tonight and get the rest of the supplies. Some fresh fruit, and yogurt and granola, probably the cream cheese and MAYBE even the bagels, but that makes more sense to get them tomorrow. Yes I get reimbursed, it's done this way so the same person doesn't HAVE to do it all the time. It happens twice a year. And it sucks.
- I forgot to setup coffee, so I decided to stop for it, and actually left a wee bit early to DO just that. Until I get to the sudden unexpected detour, add ten minutes onto my time, get to one DD and find it mobbed, so I go to go to the other on my way just to think It's too late I should go to work. To find everyone who makes me feel like I'm punching a timeclock - not in. Noone would have cared if I'd stopped and added ten more minutes on. *sighs*(The good news on this is that WHEN I go out shortly for a coffee still, noone will care.)
- I never did cancel tonight's client, since I thought about it and figured "Hey you know, it's not their fault I'm pissy, and I'm certain I have stuff to do." I've also figured out that I HATE going in every week. SO hate it. I need to lay down the law with them -if they expect me to be productive then I NEED to have access at home/work so I CAN just come in twice a week. I'm supposed to go there every week (on my defunct ManRay night!) so futz around because I need to get home. I REALLY should be getting stuff done when I'm productive. I have to lay it down, or I have to quit.
- Same thing goes for the other client. I need to lay down a schedule and stick to it. It's the ONLY way I can handle them. I need to lay out the calendar month by month and schedule nights and times when I'm available to work on their stuff. if it's NOT in by then, I do nothing. Then, when we miss a deadline, I can clearly say "it's not me" AND we need to have effing meetings.
- one of my coworkers is having a meltdown, work wise and keeps coming to me for help, when I don't know what's she's doing, she's having issues explaining her problem (due to her stress level) and I'm not articulating properly either. I think that will be solved by liberally applications of Ice and Coffee.
- So I need to go to tonight's client, after stopping by the house to change, and get my laptop. I have to work all day, and I KNOW someone is going to get bitchy with me today, and probably I'll get a 5pm office call "Let's do this NOW, since you are leaving at 6 on the dot." then I drive through the shit, then I WORK another 2.5-3 hours, THEN go to the store for the meeting, THEN TRY and get to bed to be able to get up.
- My one dirty habit right now - Project Runway (OK I have two but I can't watch big Brother, so it's OK that's only when I have time catchup style) And tonight's episode I don't see HOW I'm NOT going to miss. It's on at 10. Then a premiere of some crappy show at 11. If I'm LUCKY there will be a repeat at Midnight. And I REALLY need to be in bed before that. And yes, they will rerun it upteenth times. But it's not the same. It's like Buffy, I WANT to be at home, with a treat and have this one effing hour to myself. And I can't schedule it to save my life. I'm on Someone Else's timetable. at Ten PM, and I don't have kids. Eff that man.
- and I get the feeling there's a disturbance in the force somewhere. As in I write here and people are taking it personally. Unless I mention you by NAME you're not on the stress list. I have stuff I have to get done and I will. It's 50% day job 20% one client 15% other client and the rest is just general *blah* I really don't want to hear "well you SAID you were stressed" If you don't ask me I can't say no (or yes) and I REFUSE to be blamed for my lack of clue in knowing what to do or when to do it.
Anyway, I'm certain there's something I need to be doing.
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Date: 2006-07-19 02:28 pm (UTC)