My favorite little jarhead
Mar. 26th, 2001 01:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyJust called me from Worcester! Little bitch came HOME for a week, and decided to surprise me. His grandfather died a bit ago (not a big thing, they weren't really close, but the family as a whole is upheaved) and they're having a memorial service for him on Saturday. So, since he's graduated Basic Ranger, and been placed with a unit and as he said, "we're not doing anything as of now" they gave him til April 2 to come here and attend the service.
The conversation ensued thusly:
me: "Hi what's up, I saw you called but you didn't leave a message."
Lou: "Guess where I am?"
me: "Uh where?"
Lou: "The coffee place in Worcester."
me: "*boggle* I thought you weren't sure you were coming home?!?"
Lou: "Well they said we weren't doing anything, so I could come."
me: "How long have you been in?"
Lou: "Since Friday."
me: "Why didn't you call earlier?"
Lou: "Well, I was thinking about waiting til Wednesday and surprising you, but I figured you'd kick my ass for it."
ROTFLMAO!
I can kick a Ranger's ass! F33R M3!!! *LOL*
That's why I love the boy, even though he has NO taste in women. I let him off the hook because I KNOW he was out with that NASTY piece he had the nerve to bring to ManRay last time. I've been deliberately avoiding the subject of said nasty bit with him because 1) he doesn't get it 2) he's not gonna get it, and 3) he'll get mad at me for it. Boys don't like to be told their girl-whatever is a skank. But let me just say this, I'm bringing a can of Whoop-Ass to MR on Wednesday and if he brings her, you're all invited to an old fashioned ASS kicking.
Hrmph. Tell me I'm a bitch and a drama queen and that I treat him badly in MY house?!!
I SO do not treat him badly!
(I point out that I'm not denying the other two accusations. I AM a drama queen AND a bitch, and I confused the hell out of her when I told her she was right. *HEH* But I'll be damned if some stupid party favor is going to tell me I treat any of my friends badly. Shee-it, I do way TOO much for some people. *cough* *cough cough*)
I want to see him, I feel so bad about not hugging him goodbye last time. We were on "we're not talking about bad things" but I just wasn't comfortable with losing my shit in front of him, so I said goodbye, but didn't get out of the car to hug him, as I would have done. oh, and he has become a little tight ass (in a good way) He was a bit scrawny, with the tinist bit of a beer gut before he left for Basic. And he came back at X-Mas with a nice tight stomach, butt, and a well developed set of biceps (Or as I call them Pythons, thanks to Hulk Hogan) Me-ee-Ooow. *sigh*
I do remember how upset he made me last time, and I can't shake the feeling that the same thing is going to go down this time. He seems to think that if he hangs around me and I'm affectionate (Like hugs and kisses and scratching him on his head (Or is that a scritch? Rigel? Define scritch for me.)) that it turns all his hordes of women off, that he's taken. Now, would that be before or after I do the Naughty Jedi dance on Jedi or whomever else? Or before or after I hit on Cute Boi with the Clue-By-Four? Or maybe he either has his sights set too high, or has REALLY lousy taste (you should have SEEN the nasty creature) Now I'd feel guilty but I've never gotten a clue that he night have a "horde" or even a "bunch" of wimmins chasing after him. His last few encounters with the female of the species were: the Nasty Creature (Please goddess tell me it was JUST sex!!!), his long time GF, yet another Laura of the long pretty hair (of whom I approved) the Scary creature we fought over (thank everything she turned out to be totally crazy. She told Kelley-Anne she and he were dating, when he was telling me how he was getting together with Laura. When I told him and he confronted her, she proved my point, without me arguing with HIM again.) and, well, there was ME. So I'm not sure where he thinks he has fans galore, or that I perhaps get in his way (I believe the term was "getting in his Game"). Of course I know one who would definately sleep with him, but it would really just to be to cause trouble with me, and I'm not inviting THAT particular shit fairy into my life right now. That would fuck up, lets see..... at least 4 people and one relationship, and that's a quick count.
The one thing I can't shake is that he's not honest and open with me. That he can't or won't trust me, even though I've been there for him for, crap, 3 years now. Maybe it's due to the way things went down with his ex, I dunno. Maybe I play "mommy" too well. I feel the need to take care of him. I try to curb it, but it's still there. I want to see him happy, with a good stable gf, and I know that's not me. Perhaps I'm jealous of losing his attention, but I think I handle it pretty well for the most part, that I don't come off as jealous ex-whatever. I think he and I need to talk about my feelings, that he is, hrm...how to put this....That it's less stressful to put up a pretense of friendship, than to tell me his real feelings and deal with the blowup that would ensue. He did it before, when he didn't want to be more than friends with me, but it was easier just to play along, pun INTENDED, than to actually tell me what was going on. It's lucky for him that we went to Pennsic that year, because I saw him fall for his GF, and I got someone else too (Sing it with me..."If you can't get laid at the Pennsic wars, you can't get laid at all." Remind me to write about my erotic adventures with Peter sometime. *sigh* yum yum yum) So after the War it was easier to be "just friends". And I love him dearly, he's always been there when I needed a voice in the dark.
So what do I do if it's all a lie? That he really doesn't consider us friends? I mean he writes and calls, but is that actual " I need to talk to Jen" or is it "I'm bored and alone." The last time he called from Georgia, he said "Well I called everyone else and noone was home, so I called you." Uh. Ok. "Oh I didn't MEAN it like that." Uhhuh, so anyway....
I mean DUH is he stupid, or am I?
Don't answer that.
I'm going to contemplate this in bed. I still have to work tomorrow.
I know the answer - I'd be totally devastated. On the floor, unable to cope devastated. How's that one for a thought. *sigh*
The conversation ensued thusly:
me: "Hi what's up, I saw you called but you didn't leave a message."
Lou: "Guess where I am?"
me: "Uh where?"
Lou: "The coffee place in Worcester."
me: "*boggle* I thought you weren't sure you were coming home?!?"
Lou: "Well they said we weren't doing anything, so I could come."
me: "How long have you been in?"
Lou: "Since Friday."
me: "Why didn't you call earlier?"
Lou: "Well, I was thinking about waiting til Wednesday and surprising you, but I figured you'd kick my ass for it."
ROTFLMAO!
I can kick a Ranger's ass! F33R M3!!! *LOL*
That's why I love the boy, even though he has NO taste in women. I let him off the hook because I KNOW he was out with that NASTY piece he had the nerve to bring to ManRay last time. I've been deliberately avoiding the subject of said nasty bit with him because 1) he doesn't get it 2) he's not gonna get it, and 3) he'll get mad at me for it. Boys don't like to be told their girl-whatever is a skank. But let me just say this, I'm bringing a can of Whoop-Ass to MR on Wednesday and if he brings her, you're all invited to an old fashioned ASS kicking.
Hrmph. Tell me I'm a bitch and a drama queen and that I treat him badly in MY house?!!
I SO do not treat him badly!
(I point out that I'm not denying the other two accusations. I AM a drama queen AND a bitch, and I confused the hell out of her when I told her she was right. *HEH* But I'll be damned if some stupid party favor is going to tell me I treat any of my friends badly. Shee-it, I do way TOO much for some people. *cough* *cough cough*)
I want to see him, I feel so bad about not hugging him goodbye last time. We were on "we're not talking about bad things" but I just wasn't comfortable with losing my shit in front of him, so I said goodbye, but didn't get out of the car to hug him, as I would have done. oh, and he has become a little tight ass (in a good way) He was a bit scrawny, with the tinist bit of a beer gut before he left for Basic. And he came back at X-Mas with a nice tight stomach, butt, and a well developed set of biceps (Or as I call them Pythons, thanks to Hulk Hogan) Me-ee-Ooow. *sigh*
I do remember how upset he made me last time, and I can't shake the feeling that the same thing is going to go down this time. He seems to think that if he hangs around me and I'm affectionate (Like hugs and kisses and scratching him on his head (Or is that a scritch? Rigel? Define scritch for me.)) that it turns all his hordes of women off, that he's taken. Now, would that be before or after I do the Naughty Jedi dance on Jedi or whomever else? Or before or after I hit on Cute Boi with the Clue-By-Four? Or maybe he either has his sights set too high, or has REALLY lousy taste (you should have SEEN the nasty creature) Now I'd feel guilty but I've never gotten a clue that he night have a "horde" or even a "bunch" of wimmins chasing after him. His last few encounters with the female of the species were: the Nasty Creature (Please goddess tell me it was JUST sex!!!), his long time GF, yet another Laura of the long pretty hair (of whom I approved) the Scary creature we fought over (thank everything she turned out to be totally crazy. She told Kelley-Anne she and he were dating, when he was telling me how he was getting together with Laura. When I told him and he confronted her, she proved my point, without me arguing with HIM again.) and, well, there was ME. So I'm not sure where he thinks he has fans galore, or that I perhaps get in his way (I believe the term was "getting in his Game"). Of course I know one who would definately sleep with him, but it would really just to be to cause trouble with me, and I'm not inviting THAT particular shit fairy into my life right now. That would fuck up, lets see..... at least 4 people and one relationship, and that's a quick count.
The one thing I can't shake is that he's not honest and open with me. That he can't or won't trust me, even though I've been there for him for, crap, 3 years now. Maybe it's due to the way things went down with his ex, I dunno. Maybe I play "mommy" too well. I feel the need to take care of him. I try to curb it, but it's still there. I want to see him happy, with a good stable gf, and I know that's not me. Perhaps I'm jealous of losing his attention, but I think I handle it pretty well for the most part, that I don't come off as jealous ex-whatever. I think he and I need to talk about my feelings, that he is, hrm...how to put this....That it's less stressful to put up a pretense of friendship, than to tell me his real feelings and deal with the blowup that would ensue. He did it before, when he didn't want to be more than friends with me, but it was easier just to play along, pun INTENDED, than to actually tell me what was going on. It's lucky for him that we went to Pennsic that year, because I saw him fall for his GF, and I got someone else too (Sing it with me..."If you can't get laid at the Pennsic wars, you can't get laid at all." Remind me to write about my erotic adventures with Peter sometime. *sigh* yum yum yum) So after the War it was easier to be "just friends". And I love him dearly, he's always been there when I needed a voice in the dark.
So what do I do if it's all a lie? That he really doesn't consider us friends? I mean he writes and calls, but is that actual " I need to talk to Jen" or is it "I'm bored and alone." The last time he called from Georgia, he said "Well I called everyone else and noone was home, so I called you." Uh. Ok. "Oh I didn't MEAN it like that." Uhhuh, so anyway....
I mean DUH is he stupid, or am I?
Don't answer that.
I'm going to contemplate this in bed. I still have to work tomorrow.
I know the answer - I'd be totally devastated. On the floor, unable to cope devastated. How's that one for a thought. *sigh*
