*headachy*
Dec. 29th, 2005 08:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyOi.
You know, on Xmas I admit to feeling a bit poopy. I don't have much in the way of blood family, and what I do have are quite Jackal-like.
Tonight I get reminded WHY I don't have anything to do with them, and WHY I'm glad to be alone most of the time:
My sister, the welfare mom, called. Seems my nephew asked Grammy to look up a cheat for a video game on the Intorweeb. Her BF, my "father figure" started SCREAMING about cheating and blah blah. Which escalated into how much we all suck, and suck the life out of him. I don't even need to hear the arguement, I've heard it before.
My sister started this conversation with the statement "Can Mum come live with you?" FUCK YOU very much????
She's worried about my mother staying there. My contention is that there are no children in the way, and Teh Unit CAN AND WILL leave if necessary. Which it won't be. See BF is DRUNK as usual. (if anyone ever had any doubt where I get some of the hangups I have about drunk people, spend a half hour with my family and a half hour with him. The GREATEST turnoff for me is drunken behaviour that resembles his.)
He'll be asleep in less than an hour.
Now, Teh Unit is moving, she's purchased a house in NC, and my sister is trying to get a way to go with that involves her NOT needing any money AND taking FABF with her. Asshead. My sister is feeling abandoned, and taking it out on her kids, specifically my nephew who keeps being made to feel like he's being abandonded.
Nice.
Teh Unit's BF is ALSO feeling abandoned, she's left him before. HIS way of dealing is to get drunk and be an asshead. Mission accomplished.
The arguement is NEVER about what started it. This family is a serious study in dysfunction.
And people wonder why I disassociate myself from them. And why I'd prefer to be alone. These were my tormentors when I was a kid, I had to protect myself.
Personally, yes I'm having separation issues about Teh Unit. I am afraid of flying and falling on my own. But I'm not stupid, and I know as much as I want my own life, so does she. This move represents freedom to her, and I think she should take it.
Weird, I'm handling this far better than anyone else. Perhaps because I DO expect to be not happy, and do the thinking about it without getting drunk or flying off the handle. For once.
Anyway, I'll be damned if I have to co-exist with her unless he flys SERIOUSLY off the handle. I've gotten used to my freedom, and I want it. Technically it is her house tho. Maybe _I_'ll have to find somewhere to stay *lol*
In other news I got some expensive blak nail polish and have cheery black nails. Yay.
You know, on Xmas I admit to feeling a bit poopy. I don't have much in the way of blood family, and what I do have are quite Jackal-like.
Tonight I get reminded WHY I don't have anything to do with them, and WHY I'm glad to be alone most of the time:
My sister, the welfare mom, called. Seems my nephew asked Grammy to look up a cheat for a video game on the Intorweeb. Her BF, my "father figure" started SCREAMING about cheating and blah blah. Which escalated into how much we all suck, and suck the life out of him. I don't even need to hear the arguement, I've heard it before.
My sister started this conversation with the statement "Can Mum come live with you?" FUCK YOU very much????
She's worried about my mother staying there. My contention is that there are no children in the way, and Teh Unit CAN AND WILL leave if necessary. Which it won't be. See BF is DRUNK as usual. (if anyone ever had any doubt where I get some of the hangups I have about drunk people, spend a half hour with my family and a half hour with him. The GREATEST turnoff for me is drunken behaviour that resembles his.)
He'll be asleep in less than an hour.
Now, Teh Unit is moving, she's purchased a house in NC, and my sister is trying to get a way to go with that involves her NOT needing any money AND taking FABF with her. Asshead. My sister is feeling abandoned, and taking it out on her kids, specifically my nephew who keeps being made to feel like he's being abandonded.
Nice.
Teh Unit's BF is ALSO feeling abandoned, she's left him before. HIS way of dealing is to get drunk and be an asshead. Mission accomplished.
The arguement is NEVER about what started it. This family is a serious study in dysfunction.
And people wonder why I disassociate myself from them. And why I'd prefer to be alone. These were my tormentors when I was a kid, I had to protect myself.
Personally, yes I'm having separation issues about Teh Unit. I am afraid of flying and falling on my own. But I'm not stupid, and I know as much as I want my own life, so does she. This move represents freedom to her, and I think she should take it.
Weird, I'm handling this far better than anyone else. Perhaps because I DO expect to be not happy, and do the thinking about it without getting drunk or flying off the handle. For once.
Anyway, I'll be damned if I have to co-exist with her unless he flys SERIOUSLY off the handle. I've gotten used to my freedom, and I want it. Technically it is her house tho. Maybe _I_'ll have to find somewhere to stay *lol*
In other news I got some expensive blak nail polish and have cheery black nails. Yay.
random comment time
Date: 2005-12-30 02:37 am (UTC)Re: random comment time
Date: 2005-12-30 02:44 am (UTC)Which I don't attend by the way. What do I look like, a total geek? *lol* (although i might go this year, for a day, there's a corset company that will be there I'd like to look at)