Random musings
Mar. 17th, 2005 12:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladybrought on by NOT wanting to work today. Well only wanting to work ONE client. Gr even.
- I enjoyed going out last night, but it's not worth rushing home from the office. It's for another month. I mean it was D-e-a-d dead. I also wish my schedule had permitted me to go out MONDAY night. But that wasn't happening anyway. *sighs*
- I'm also tired of dealing with the dregs of Gothic Boston society. It's not like we play the ignore game. It's more like 'Let's annoy Tia or make her see the error of her ways." ANYONE with that kind of attitude, and let me be clear, IS NOT WORTH MY TIME. Walk the walk, and maybe I'll think I'm wrong. just bleating at me? stupid.
Heh - there's always the people who think if THEY behave a certain manner in public they make themselves look good/me look bad. Yet they're still Poison underneath. A pretty package doesn't make it any different. I figured that out years ago. *shakes head* What and ever, not my problem until they prance up to me and start shit.
- Read another thing on burnout, and still feel like that's me all over. I mean I don't work HARD yet feel like death warmed over. You know, I used to LIKE my job(s) I don't know where I lost it. It would be much easier for me to handle the schedule if I liked it. And I REMAIN CONVINCED if I lighten my load right now I'd be in a better headspace. This year I am completely withdrawn from everyone and everything that's not work. I hate it.
- Have stuff that needs to be done. A package that needs to go out, another package that I have to bundle UP to go out, errands to run, laundry that needs doing. I need a new pair of sneaks, I need some new clothes, I need to go food shopping for snacky type things so I can come home and eat light rather than a heavy meal right before bed (like last night yeash!) *sighs* I COULD be doing them today, and when I look and say "hey I could do this - late next week...." it makes me - cold. I should get better at scheduling me time.
although I have to admit that I some of time constraint is a social thing I want to do Saturday. But I can't believe that's a bad thing.
Do you know I'm almost out of coffee pods? Mostly because I feel I cannot let myself have the time to go to Target to buy them. Five effing minutes in Target. That's wrong. Lots of wrong.
(OK I ALSO admit I know how I get in Target. 5 minutes could easily turn into an hour and over $100. I'm aiming for a commando raid on Sunday before my work day begins. Cross your fingers, because if I run out of coffee, I might just hurt someone.)
So, after the Season I need to find different places to get my dance and goth out on. Not because I dislike ManRay, but because I dislike it's patrons. I want a REAL club, and if I have to travel, so be it.
Yeah. OK. Need to get dressed and get to hell....work. Via food. I'm hungry again. That happens a lot *grins*
- I enjoyed going out last night, but it's not worth rushing home from the office. It's for another month. I mean it was D-e-a-d dead. I also wish my schedule had permitted me to go out MONDAY night. But that wasn't happening anyway. *sighs*
- I'm also tired of dealing with the dregs of Gothic Boston society. It's not like we play the ignore game. It's more like 'Let's annoy Tia or make her see the error of her ways." ANYONE with that kind of attitude, and let me be clear, IS NOT WORTH MY TIME. Walk the walk, and maybe I'll think I'm wrong. just bleating at me? stupid.
Heh - there's always the people who think if THEY behave a certain manner in public they make themselves look good/me look bad. Yet they're still Poison underneath. A pretty package doesn't make it any different. I figured that out years ago. *shakes head* What and ever, not my problem until they prance up to me and start shit.
- Read another thing on burnout, and still feel like that's me all over. I mean I don't work HARD yet feel like death warmed over. You know, I used to LIKE my job(s) I don't know where I lost it. It would be much easier for me to handle the schedule if I liked it. And I REMAIN CONVINCED if I lighten my load right now I'd be in a better headspace. This year I am completely withdrawn from everyone and everything that's not work. I hate it.
- Have stuff that needs to be done. A package that needs to go out, another package that I have to bundle UP to go out, errands to run, laundry that needs doing. I need a new pair of sneaks, I need some new clothes, I need to go food shopping for snacky type things so I can come home and eat light rather than a heavy meal right before bed (like last night yeash!) *sighs* I COULD be doing them today, and when I look and say "hey I could do this - late next week...." it makes me - cold. I should get better at scheduling me time.
although I have to admit that I some of time constraint is a social thing I want to do Saturday. But I can't believe that's a bad thing.
Do you know I'm almost out of coffee pods? Mostly because I feel I cannot let myself have the time to go to Target to buy them. Five effing minutes in Target. That's wrong. Lots of wrong.
(OK I ALSO admit I know how I get in Target. 5 minutes could easily turn into an hour and over $100. I'm aiming for a commando raid on Sunday before my work day begins. Cross your fingers, because if I run out of coffee, I might just hurt someone.)
So, after the Season I need to find different places to get my dance and goth out on. Not because I dislike ManRay, but because I dislike it's patrons. I want a REAL club, and if I have to travel, so be it.
Yeah. OK. Need to get dressed and get to hell....work. Via food. I'm hungry again. That happens a lot *grins*
