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I'm feeling decidedly antisocial.
Like Do Not want to deal with the dregs of society antisocial.
Last night was a ton of fun on the bun. I liked seeing people out, especially my little Ranger boy (I Haven't seen him dance in years literally. I just watched him for a while, gave me the warm soft and squishies) But I was getting overwhelmed by the number of people, and it's not just because usually there isn't as many people out, let alone people out I know and want to talk to.

I'm feeling the urge to stay in Friday. I have no desire to go out among the crowds, and there is NOTHING public that's drawing to me. ManRay is NOT appealing this year, it just looks like a pale image of itself. I'm FAR MORE interested in going out Saturday night.

I want to stay in Friday and download stuff, play with my poor overloaded C: drive. I want to clean, and put some of these silly books up on Amazon, maybe some more things on Ebay, and finally send some things to Velvet Garden. I have personal accounting to do, things to prep, and social engagements the rest of the weekend.

I don't feel like going out tomorrow night. And I don't know why I'm having issues with that feeling. Maybe because I feel like I'm letting Bret down, who has places to go and is pretty keen on the idea of going out Saturday. Maybe I feel I'm letting El down, who is throwing ideas at me left and right, and I'm not interested in dealing with people. She desperately wants to go out and do SOMETHING, and I feel like I'm being looked to provide the "entertainment." Anyone keeping score should know how I feel about that, to a point. I'm not happy with being made to be the entertainment. If I'm UP TO IT, if I'm in a great mood and I'm having fun, I have no issues. But I'm tired, and not exactly happy, and to have someone be COUNTING on me to make their life exciting pisses me off. Damnit DO IT YOURSELF! I Have no problem going out alone, or making my own fun.

*sighs*
I guess that's the real issue.

I have to go to the office, and I don't think I'll be at Goffee tonight - I'm not in the mood for ANYONE. I feel crappy bitching about it too. Who complains about being popular? *grins* But I'm just not very friendly today. I'm not in the mood for the hangers on, and people who think I should socialize with them to the point of insistence. And tonight I just might tell them to fuck off.

Heh - I'm in a "mean" mood I guess. *shrugs* I'm just going to come right home, and enjoy the silence of the house, and start my cleaning. It depends on when I get to the office, and how much I have to do. I haven't checked my email, and for all I know should have been there hours ago. *evil grin* Oh well, fire me then. Nyah.

Must set aside cash to order that alarm. Very Not Happy about the length of my sleeping.

Anywhoo, I need a shower and something to eat. And blessed coffee.

Date: 2004-12-30 05:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dionysia.livejournal.com
What's wrong with ending the year on a good, productive note? I think it's a great idea.

Maybe a compromise of "hey, let's meet for dinner" with folks tomorrow night and then you go home and do your shtuff?

Hope to see you Saturday, but don't sweat it if you don't feel up to it.

I loves ya anyway!

Date: 2004-12-30 06:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dionysia.livejournal.com
you must have been out of the room during the naughty sex adventures. I hate it when that happens. ;)

yeah, I can see how it would be annoying to be pressed all the time. And expected to make the decision. How about a "I will be at $RESTAURANT at 6pm for dinner. See you there. After dinner I will be going home."

Date: 2004-12-30 06:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dionysia.livejournal.com
so really, she should bring you chinese food. ;)

Date: 2004-12-31 05:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kalisti23.livejournal.com
What's Goffee? I'm so outa the loop.

deserted Goffee

Date: 2004-12-31 02:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dali-muse.livejournal.com
There were 5 people at Goffee, myself included. Anders came out, and so did Kate, and a couple of people that I don't know. So you didn't miss anything good.

Who's Ranger boy?

Date: 2004-12-31 05:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dali-muse.livejournal.com
Did I miss anything good Wednesday? I was supposed to come out to the club, until my stockroom at work turned into the HMS Titantic. I was almost singing that damned Celine Dion song. "And Miss Gala can not sing to save her life, can she Precious?" "No my loves, she can'ts."

I just might have to make a post about it.

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