I am Jack's Seething Anger
Sep. 20th, 2004 11:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyAnd no I couldn't bring myself to watch the chopped up version of Fight Club.
I'm just beginning to realize some things, but for once I'm NOT willing to talk to anyone about it. it's regarding interpersonal relationships. Not anyone in particular, instead it's a rolling theme. Not Pleased. Maybe it's time I found a whole new group. One that ISN'T embroiled with people I can't stand.
I'm not going to Ceremony tonight. I want to see the Cruxshadows at Haven tomorrow, I want to go to ManRay on Wednesday, and I want to see the Cruxshadows and![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
midsizebird on Saturday. Money taken out of the factor, I don't have the energy to work the way I have to AND go out every night of the week too. I'm definitely getting old.
I'm definitely not happy with being put into some sort of "line" regarding affections. This is why the poly thing isn't for me in the end. I have to be a kind of "priority" and don't take well to being made to wait, ESPECIALLY behind inferior women. My thought on that is "if you're interested in THAT, I don't need you." This cleared up for me last night. OK I knew it, I just vocalized it. Felt good.
(Note toemarkienna This doesn't mean you - you and I have worked out our rules, I have no intention of changing anything with you. You will be the first to know. That statement is to address some current frustration. And you make me a priority - just as my ego demands *smootchies* *grins*)
Need to get to work. I'm figuring out that right now, my body is demanding 8 hours sleep. I literally do not wake up for 8 hours. Nothing can wake me. On the weekends I'm sleeping a natural 8 hours then waking up refreshed. This unfortunately means I'm sleeping until noon, since I can't get to bed before that. I'm going to make more of an effort to shut down during InuYasha every night, regardless of what I need to do. At least then I'm ready to get up at a more reasonable hour. Maybe I can work it so I only sleep 7, and get up earlier. Let's see if I can't get myself into a schedule first.
*sighs* I just need to concentrate on ME for a while. Get things straightened up around here. I almost don't care about how anyone else feels, and while I acknowledge that's wrong, I'm not capable of being anything but cruel right now. I think staying away from people right now is a good thing. I'll give it another week, see how I feel after I get through a week of working and being busy and getting enough sleep.
Feh, I need to send some emails, get dressed and get to my client.
I'm just beginning to realize some things, but for once I'm NOT willing to talk to anyone about it. it's regarding interpersonal relationships. Not anyone in particular, instead it's a rolling theme. Not Pleased. Maybe it's time I found a whole new group. One that ISN'T embroiled with people I can't stand.
I'm not going to Ceremony tonight. I want to see the Cruxshadows at Haven tomorrow, I want to go to ManRay on Wednesday, and I want to see the Cruxshadows and
midsizebird on Saturday. Money taken out of the factor, I don't have the energy to work the way I have to AND go out every night of the week too. I'm definitely getting old. I'm definitely not happy with being put into some sort of "line" regarding affections. This is why the poly thing isn't for me in the end. I have to be a kind of "priority" and don't take well to being made to wait, ESPECIALLY behind inferior women. My thought on that is "if you're interested in THAT, I don't need you." This cleared up for me last night. OK I knew it, I just vocalized it. Felt good.
(Note to
emarkienna This doesn't mean you - you and I have worked out our rules, I have no intention of changing anything with you. You will be the first to know. That statement is to address some current frustration. And you make me a priority - just as my ego demands *smootchies* *grins*)Need to get to work. I'm figuring out that right now, my body is demanding 8 hours sleep. I literally do not wake up for 8 hours. Nothing can wake me. On the weekends I'm sleeping a natural 8 hours then waking up refreshed. This unfortunately means I'm sleeping until noon, since I can't get to bed before that. I'm going to make more of an effort to shut down during InuYasha every night, regardless of what I need to do. At least then I'm ready to get up at a more reasonable hour. Maybe I can work it so I only sleep 7, and get up earlier. Let's see if I can't get myself into a schedule first.
*sighs* I just need to concentrate on ME for a while. Get things straightened up around here. I almost don't care about how anyone else feels, and while I acknowledge that's wrong, I'm not capable of being anything but cruel right now. I think staying away from people right now is a good thing. I'll give it another week, see how I feel after I get through a week of working and being busy and getting enough sleep.
Feh, I need to send some emails, get dressed and get to my client.
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Hmm
Date: 2004-09-20 08:52 am (UTC)I still have your sunglasses - they are in my purse (have been since the last goffee we went to).
Hope to see you soon!
Re: Hmm
Date: 2004-09-20 09:00 am (UTC)I'm thinking about swinging by Goffee on Thursday, if my mood has significantly improved. I need them rather badly - the pair I've been using suck, and I can't afford a new pair *grins* If not I might make plans to swing by your house to get them I can't drive to and from NYC without them.
I'll let you know one way or the other.
Re: Hmm
Date: 2004-09-20 09:29 am (UTC)Re: Hmm
Date: 2004-09-20 10:00 am (UTC)And burritos - I'm having a serious burrito deficiency :)
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Date: 2004-09-20 12:12 pm (UTC)hang in there for you are a phenomenal woman.
*smootch*