The main reason I need to live alone
Sep. 19th, 2004 12:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyAbout 10:30, after redoing my hair (which IS NOT turning out the way I want, ever. The Sally's Feria is NOT the Starry Night I buy at CVS. Plus I added some Ultra Violet to it, and it should be deep black not light black with reddish lights. It's better than it was, but I think I'm going to look at the Clairols next time I buy supplies.) I decided to finally get all my computer ducks lined up, and sort out all the electronics. Everything is all good now, and my camera will be ready for the show Tuesday. I can take pictures anytime I want, now that the camera is handy.
But my point - I was active and making lots of noise, up through midnight. This does NOT jive with Teh Unit. She keeps talking about getting out of here, but I can't afford to do anything about it right now. But she'll be more and more impossible to live with the longer this goes on. Her distress at the state of the building is one of her stress factors for screaming at me - she blames me for her choices. Somehow, if my sister does or needs something that affect Teh Unit, it comes back at me. And I won't take it, so the battles begin. The living situation IS my fault to a point, I need to be more self sufficient. I just don't like working the 80 million hours I guess I need to.
See, it's not just me not liking to get up - creating a bad schedule now makes tax season impossible. Then I get stress from everywhere. All jobs, and teh Unit.
She's just full of contradictions. One minute she's begging to move into her boyfriend's house (onto the first floor.) The NEXT minute she's saying "You're MAKING me move into his house!" What? Is it your choice, or am I making you? You want to, or you don't? Make up your freaking mind! (I'm not kidding, she said that to me one night.)
What I'd like, in theory, is to be alone here for the tax season, and use what little spare time I have getting the whole house ready. THEN, get a roomie in April. I can afford this during the season. And then my expenses would be cut in half afterwards. Perhaps she and I should discuss me taking this on in January. I think that's fair, and it'll give her til then to decide what she's doing.
Anyway, I had coffee and I'm wired. I should try and sleep or something, since I've figures out what I'd like to do with my tomorrow. This way I get to see everyone and I get to do some of my stuff to.
But my point - I was active and making lots of noise, up through midnight. This does NOT jive with Teh Unit. She keeps talking about getting out of here, but I can't afford to do anything about it right now. But she'll be more and more impossible to live with the longer this goes on. Her distress at the state of the building is one of her stress factors for screaming at me - she blames me for her choices. Somehow, if my sister does or needs something that affect Teh Unit, it comes back at me. And I won't take it, so the battles begin. The living situation IS my fault to a point, I need to be more self sufficient. I just don't like working the 80 million hours I guess I need to.
See, it's not just me not liking to get up - creating a bad schedule now makes tax season impossible. Then I get stress from everywhere. All jobs, and teh Unit.
She's just full of contradictions. One minute she's begging to move into her boyfriend's house (onto the first floor.) The NEXT minute she's saying "You're MAKING me move into his house!" What? Is it your choice, or am I making you? You want to, or you don't? Make up your freaking mind! (I'm not kidding, she said that to me one night.)
What I'd like, in theory, is to be alone here for the tax season, and use what little spare time I have getting the whole house ready. THEN, get a roomie in April. I can afford this during the season. And then my expenses would be cut in half afterwards. Perhaps she and I should discuss me taking this on in January. I think that's fair, and it'll give her til then to decide what she's doing.
Anyway, I had coffee and I'm wired. I should try and sleep or something, since I've figures out what I'd like to do with my tomorrow. This way I get to see everyone and I get to do some of my stuff to.
