Shouldn't be doing this
Sep. 8th, 2004 11:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyPosting from client. But when I have NOTHING OF SUBSTANCE to do?!?
Yeah, well, maybe I'm ADD after all.
Perhaps my mood swings of yesterday had to do with caffiene withdrawal. Or lack of food. My eating habits are seriously Whack after the weekend. I just didn't have any food in my house, nor could I find anything I wanted at B&J's (although i DID drink all the soda. There is much guilt for that, even tho I've been reassured not to worry. I think B needs to tell me what he likes, and I'll bring him some of that. Or maybe more chai.)
I hate going shopping, but I think a trip to BJ's is in order. Just for stuff I can eat on the fly, or when I'm busy. Some instant breakfast stuff, or more oatmeal, or meal bars, or granola bars. I should buy some shakes, but they tend to upset my tummy along with making me less grumpy. I'm just NOT a cook, I haven't cooked JACK since teh Unit has been gone. Reasonings vary. There's no food to cook, some of my stuff (like my desk) was in the kitchen, in the way. Lots of reasons. But the main one is - I'm lazy. And poor. It would just save me money in the long run if I could bring myself to shop. I HATE people, and the people at BJ's - suck. Also Stop & Shop. Maybe I'll take a break tonight after some cleaning, and go shopping, at say, 10. 24 hour S&S right outside the Center.
I dreamed about Lou this morning. I think I was waking up which is why I remembered it. One of us was reassuring the other, and I had his hand. I don't know why. I'm going to try and write him tonight. This enforced silence hurts. He's NOT going to be happy to hear I'm talking to CB. He and Ben got the Full On version of events (and![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
poetman but I GOT sympathy from Lou and Ben *evil grin*) And Lou was NOT at all thrilled about my pain. Or about the statement "*dismissive noise* big deal he's only a Ranger." Um, OK, let's not discuss all the positive changes in Lou since joining up, physically and mentally. There's something about him, I know he's doing the right thing (and it usually takes me a couple of years to agree with him) for him. I have issues with ANYONE who wants to dismiss Lou out of hand. He has been one of the most loyal and dearest, and I will WHAP DECIDEDLY HARD anyone who chooses to diss him. Including CB.
Anyway, I'm concerned now. I'm hoping he was just thinking about me, and that nothing has gone horribly wrong. He's 5 or 6 hours ahead, so there's no real chance he was dreamwalking. When images are that tactile, that REAL, it usually means they are. Yes, it's happened before, with more than just Lou. No I am not crazy.
Another thing, my room cleaning has produced some items I wasn't sure where they'd gone. I've found most of my fans, which also need repair, my belt and bracers, my DragonQueen headpiece, and mybox of magic tricks, I.E. the box full of tarot decks and most of my tarot books, INCLUDING my beloved Aquarian Deck, which I'd been hoping for. OK this stuff wasn't REALLY lost, just tucked WAY under my bed, in a place I couldn't use. NOW, that I'm using the underbed for live storage, it won't get lost again. This box is going to hold a lot of my club accessories, that I've been without. I SHOULD move the club stuff to a different box, but I have a box in mind, currently holding tea, to put my tarot stuff into. Plus I know there's more in the storage unit.
I wish I had a houseboy, and I would sit and direct them to work. I'm SUCH a lazy fuck *grins* I also wish I had a magic wand to just wave and have all the cleaning be done. But, it's NOT going to happen that way, so once I get out of here I need to get cracking. I have all my knick knacks on two shelves and they need to be spread out.
It's not like I have any WORK to do here. Maybe He'll let me out after the mail comes. I should gently remind him to pay bills today too. Feh. Even.
Yeah, well, maybe I'm ADD after all.
Perhaps my mood swings of yesterday had to do with caffiene withdrawal. Or lack of food. My eating habits are seriously Whack after the weekend. I just didn't have any food in my house, nor could I find anything I wanted at B&J's (although i DID drink all the soda. There is much guilt for that, even tho I've been reassured not to worry. I think B needs to tell me what he likes, and I'll bring him some of that. Or maybe more chai.)
I hate going shopping, but I think a trip to BJ's is in order. Just for stuff I can eat on the fly, or when I'm busy. Some instant breakfast stuff, or more oatmeal, or meal bars, or granola bars. I should buy some shakes, but they tend to upset my tummy along with making me less grumpy. I'm just NOT a cook, I haven't cooked JACK since teh Unit has been gone. Reasonings vary. There's no food to cook, some of my stuff (like my desk) was in the kitchen, in the way. Lots of reasons. But the main one is - I'm lazy. And poor. It would just save me money in the long run if I could bring myself to shop. I HATE people, and the people at BJ's - suck. Also Stop & Shop. Maybe I'll take a break tonight after some cleaning, and go shopping, at say, 10. 24 hour S&S right outside the Center.
I dreamed about Lou this morning. I think I was waking up which is why I remembered it. One of us was reassuring the other, and I had his hand. I don't know why. I'm going to try and write him tonight. This enforced silence hurts. He's NOT going to be happy to hear I'm talking to CB. He and Ben got the Full On version of events (and
poetman but I GOT sympathy from Lou and Ben *evil grin*) And Lou was NOT at all thrilled about my pain. Or about the statement "*dismissive noise* big deal he's only a Ranger." Um, OK, let's not discuss all the positive changes in Lou since joining up, physically and mentally. There's something about him, I know he's doing the right thing (and it usually takes me a couple of years to agree with him) for him. I have issues with ANYONE who wants to dismiss Lou out of hand. He has been one of the most loyal and dearest, and I will WHAP DECIDEDLY HARD anyone who chooses to diss him. Including CB.Anyway, I'm concerned now. I'm hoping he was just thinking about me, and that nothing has gone horribly wrong. He's 5 or 6 hours ahead, so there's no real chance he was dreamwalking. When images are that tactile, that REAL, it usually means they are. Yes, it's happened before, with more than just Lou. No I am not crazy.
Another thing, my room cleaning has produced some items I wasn't sure where they'd gone. I've found most of my fans, which also need repair, my belt and bracers, my DragonQueen headpiece, and mybox of magic tricks, I.E. the box full of tarot decks and most of my tarot books, INCLUDING my beloved Aquarian Deck, which I'd been hoping for. OK this stuff wasn't REALLY lost, just tucked WAY under my bed, in a place I couldn't use. NOW, that I'm using the underbed for live storage, it won't get lost again. This box is going to hold a lot of my club accessories, that I've been without. I SHOULD move the club stuff to a different box, but I have a box in mind, currently holding tea, to put my tarot stuff into. Plus I know there's more in the storage unit.
I wish I had a houseboy, and I would sit and direct them to work. I'm SUCH a lazy fuck *grins* I also wish I had a magic wand to just wave and have all the cleaning be done. But, it's NOT going to happen that way, so once I get out of here I need to get cracking. I have all my knick knacks on two shelves and they need to be spread out.
It's not like I have any WORK to do here. Maybe He'll let me out after the mail comes. I should gently remind him to pay bills today too. Feh. Even.
