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tiamatladyMy meeting went long. And upon arrival at home (AND parking in the space, yay to finally getting the bitch towed) had a huge argument with the Unit.
About how it's my fault that she hasn't sold this place. She talks in half truths. She has NEVER done anything, she waits for me to do something so she can say how bad it is. Seriously considering the bigger storage unit, moving everything into it, including my bedroom furniture, and then just couch surfing. Let her sell it, or whatever.
I just don't feel like moving. I can do LOTS with this place. it's NOT MINE to sell (although it could be to buy) and I can't do a DAMN THING on top of my lack of money flow at the moment. I need a month or two building up a reserve and paying off some bills. I HATE when she does this. She's done it to this level before - I actually was looking into the logistics of quitting college and moving out. I choose to avoid the place, and it went down, and I stayed in school. I did it again when I had my apartment, she was BLOODY AWFUL. I really think if she weren't here things would be MUCH BETTER. I could snipe at the neighbors who piss me off, instead of having to answer to her bad attitude when she doesn't like it. When the neighbor across the hall threw HER SNOW into our space which then didn't get plowed for THREE DAYS her blame - Me, for "not being parked in the space, you're so stupid." Oddly enough I thought it would be EASIER TO PLOW if I wasn't!
Honestly she makes me sound like her and I HATE it, I live for the weekends when she's NOT FREAKING HERE.
Tomorrow, I'm going to tell her I want that rent with option to buy, and I want it in September. And if she doesn't want that, I'm going to inquire about the apartment/house down the street. I just don't have any cash, and many bills to be dealt with first. And is he knows. she ALWAYS does this when I'm cash poor. It's like I threaten her way of life.
I am NOT responsible for the choices of someone 20 years older than me.
I will not take the blame for what she has or has not done.
She tells me it's the stuff "all over" preventing her from selling. What about before I moved the boxes out there? What was it then? The room isn't all that bad, I just have boxes out there. The serious problems are the toys and stuff that don't belong.
I guess what's going to happen is that I'm going to put 2 or 3, maybe 4, boxes into my car nightly, on the nights I go to my new client. On the way home, I will stop by the storage unit and drop them off. I should be able to do this 3 times a week. By the end of the month I should have the living room into my storage units. I probably should also spend an hour cleaning. If I can get myself into that schedule, I stand a chance.
Honestly, what will be next? I obviously need to make better time of my weekends. She doesn't realize she doesn't stay out of my hair. She'll stick her nose in, and I'll have to snap her back. I did it today - she started talking about FABF, and I turned up the TV. She talked louder, I actually waved her out of the room. If she wants to bitch, about stuff that's not MINE, in that tone (like he's MY boyfriend, bitch) I'm NOT listening.
OK, I'm done, and it's taken my mind off things. I seriously need my own space, but I fear trying to do it. I don't want to choose between eating and paying bills or rent. AGAIN.
Anyway I need to be in bed, the client tomorrow is going to suck and I have to work "late." and then run to ANOTHER client where there is a check waiting. Gah, I don't even want to go to the morning client. But, eyes on the goal. At least I'm yawning, which is a good sign for sleeping very soon.
About how it's my fault that she hasn't sold this place. She talks in half truths. She has NEVER done anything, she waits for me to do something so she can say how bad it is. Seriously considering the bigger storage unit, moving everything into it, including my bedroom furniture, and then just couch surfing. Let her sell it, or whatever.
I just don't feel like moving. I can do LOTS with this place. it's NOT MINE to sell (although it could be to buy) and I can't do a DAMN THING on top of my lack of money flow at the moment. I need a month or two building up a reserve and paying off some bills. I HATE when she does this. She's done it to this level before - I actually was looking into the logistics of quitting college and moving out. I choose to avoid the place, and it went down, and I stayed in school. I did it again when I had my apartment, she was BLOODY AWFUL. I really think if she weren't here things would be MUCH BETTER. I could snipe at the neighbors who piss me off, instead of having to answer to her bad attitude when she doesn't like it. When the neighbor across the hall threw HER SNOW into our space which then didn't get plowed for THREE DAYS her blame - Me, for "not being parked in the space, you're so stupid." Oddly enough I thought it would be EASIER TO PLOW if I wasn't!
Honestly she makes me sound like her and I HATE it, I live for the weekends when she's NOT FREAKING HERE.
Tomorrow, I'm going to tell her I want that rent with option to buy, and I want it in September. And if she doesn't want that, I'm going to inquire about the apartment/house down the street. I just don't have any cash, and many bills to be dealt with first. And is he knows. she ALWAYS does this when I'm cash poor. It's like I threaten her way of life.
I am NOT responsible for the choices of someone 20 years older than me.
I will not take the blame for what she has or has not done.
She tells me it's the stuff "all over" preventing her from selling. What about before I moved the boxes out there? What was it then? The room isn't all that bad, I just have boxes out there. The serious problems are the toys and stuff that don't belong.
I guess what's going to happen is that I'm going to put 2 or 3, maybe 4, boxes into my car nightly, on the nights I go to my new client. On the way home, I will stop by the storage unit and drop them off. I should be able to do this 3 times a week. By the end of the month I should have the living room into my storage units. I probably should also spend an hour cleaning. If I can get myself into that schedule, I stand a chance.
Honestly, what will be next? I obviously need to make better time of my weekends. She doesn't realize she doesn't stay out of my hair. She'll stick her nose in, and I'll have to snap her back. I did it today - she started talking about FABF, and I turned up the TV. She talked louder, I actually waved her out of the room. If she wants to bitch, about stuff that's not MINE, in that tone (like he's MY boyfriend, bitch) I'm NOT listening.
OK, I'm done, and it's taken my mind off things. I seriously need my own space, but I fear trying to do it. I don't want to choose between eating and paying bills or rent. AGAIN.
Anyway I need to be in bed, the client tomorrow is going to suck and I have to work "late." and then run to ANOTHER client where there is a check waiting. Gah, I don't even want to go to the morning client. But, eyes on the goal. At least I'm yawning, which is a good sign for sleeping very soon.
