I swear I was a good girl today
May. 10th, 2004 01:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyI decided to go to Ocean State Job Lot, to "browse." I usually go there after something, which it's a crap shot whether or not I find it. But, if you're looking for odds and ends, they usually have something. Today I went to "look." Hell, I almost don't believe me, like the effing stockboy who asked me if he could help me. HE didn't believe I was just looking either. It's odd that after he asked me, and then snorted at me, is when I started "finding things" I was good tho, I liked some stuff I didn't buy, and let myself buy a few small things like a cheap candle that smells surprisingly good, and suspiciously like a lotion I have here somewhere, in the Cucumber Melon variety, I like the glass holder a lot and it has a cover, which is going to come in handy when I pack it for the trip. I know I probably shouldn't, but it's tough glass and it's cheap. Once it's empty, I can put another candle in it. I also bought some chocolate, Ghiraradeli and Hershey's truffles, Some long shoelaces, since they're not easy to find, some glue pens to seal up my cheap also purchased at Ocean State envelopes, with very little glue, a check file caddy for a client (three months late, but hey) and a purdy purple-y lipstick, with glitter in it. I like it so much I might go buy another, but that's getting ahead of ourselves.
I then went to the Bunicula household, to flitch some boots, which DAMN do not fit my calves, but after the trip I might look into adding somewhat to the straps. If not, they go up on Ebay, in my Purging. Had nice Indian food, and chatter, and it was nice to be social. I really have to get out more, since I'm obviously not cleaning. I can't bear this whole setup. I want change, but on a grander scale.
I very much like the idea of owning this place by August. I like the idea of having the place to myself, and being able to possibly be there for someone who has done lots for me, but having an extra room. I have NO money for a down tho, and this vacation is going to dent my ability to earn money. I feel so DOWN, I feel like I can't come out. That every time I start to, something else happens.
I have to stop sitting at this desk, and getting involved in LJ. I stare at this damn thing, I'm I'm tired of that. I SO don't want to work at the CPA's tomorrow, I have work to do for a client and want to get up early to do it. I think I'm going to call him in the morning, and tell him how I wasn't able to get in, thanks to lack of key, and see what he needs. I'm batting it back and forth. I'm just - tired - right now and not up to working on my client. *shrugs*
I'm going to bed, and setting my alarm for 8. I'm going now, let's hope I can sleep.
I wish I didn't feel off kilter. This vacation, although wanted, is causing undue stress. Some I needed to be away from, and feel I'm not. I fear what's going to happen. (Not due to anyone I'd be seeing - just circumstances in general. Lots of stuff rattling around I'm very much looking forward to seeing people I really wasn't sure I'd see again! And I want everyone to jump the pond and come see me. I'm not kidding. If I buy this place, I'll have extra room!)
I want my kilter back. If you've seen it, please return it.
I then went to the Bunicula household, to flitch some boots, which DAMN do not fit my calves, but after the trip I might look into adding somewhat to the straps. If not, they go up on Ebay, in my Purging. Had nice Indian food, and chatter, and it was nice to be social. I really have to get out more, since I'm obviously not cleaning. I can't bear this whole setup. I want change, but on a grander scale.
I very much like the idea of owning this place by August. I like the idea of having the place to myself, and being able to possibly be there for someone who has done lots for me, but having an extra room. I have NO money for a down tho, and this vacation is going to dent my ability to earn money. I feel so DOWN, I feel like I can't come out. That every time I start to, something else happens.
I have to stop sitting at this desk, and getting involved in LJ. I stare at this damn thing, I'm I'm tired of that. I SO don't want to work at the CPA's tomorrow, I have work to do for a client and want to get up early to do it. I think I'm going to call him in the morning, and tell him how I wasn't able to get in, thanks to lack of key, and see what he needs. I'm batting it back and forth. I'm just - tired - right now and not up to working on my client. *shrugs*
I'm going to bed, and setting my alarm for 8. I'm going now, let's hope I can sleep.
I wish I didn't feel off kilter. This vacation, although wanted, is causing undue stress. Some I needed to be away from, and feel I'm not. I fear what's going to happen. (Not due to anyone I'd be seeing - just circumstances in general. Lots of stuff rattling around I'm very much looking forward to seeing people I really wasn't sure I'd see again! And I want everyone to jump the pond and come see me. I'm not kidding. If I buy this place, I'll have extra room!)
I want my kilter back. If you've seen it, please return it.
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Date: 2004-05-09 10:36 pm (UTC)i miss you, too
hang in there...
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Date: 2004-05-09 10:44 pm (UTC)I'm sorry I'm not up to chatting right now - bed is calling.
I just feel like I've been put back into "holding pattern" like NOW it's "Things will right themselves AFTER the vacation."
Hate hate hate. And I know you know that feeling, the "on hold" feeling. If i can make it, so can you.
*HUGS*