tiamatlady

And this actually isn't directed at anyone in particular. I'm just - done.

If you think you're going to kick me down emotionally, you're quite wrong.
I've HAD QUITE ENOUGH of having my feelings and actions invalidated by a casual "well what about ME?" attitude.

I care about the lot of you, a lot. But lately I've been getting a lot of "Your feelings mean nothing compared to mine." oddly enough I don't feel that way, honestly.

I worry when my friends are upset. I worry even when it puts you at odds with me. but if you're being an asshole, especially to me directly, and your way of dealing with me is to drag out the 20 pound guilt trip, I'm here to warn you I'm not having any of it.

I do my best. If it's not good enough - leave. Don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out.

I need to know I'm wanted. I won't step close if I'm not. The Push/Pull attitude recently will BE STOPPING NOW. I am not a kitchen door, you can't just push me and hope I get out of your way.

Next time someone tries to make me feel that My anger and My resentment and My emotion are invalid because I have somehow slighted you, now matter how small, they're going to be in for an AWFUL surprise, when I verbally lash them into oblivion.

Like the most recent "I know I've been an asshole, and I've treated you badly and lied to you, for weeks. But you forgot my birthday, so YOU should feel guilty and do penance. You suck."

I AM DONE, do we get it???

This is just a warning, I guess, to tread lightly. Everything's coming down the pipe, and I have to handle it one at a time.