Bad bad girl
Apr. 11th, 2004 10:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyI didn't leave the house at all. I never even got dressed.
of course, NOW I'm feeling restless, potentially restless enough to go out.
*looks* 10PM *sighs*
I've been hungry but unwilling to leave JUST for food.
I feel all scrubish, and not up for people today. Any people.
If it were any day but a holiday Sunday, and if I actually had any cash *grins* I'd have called an order in.
Gah, I really HATE this feeling, I do. The inability to FACE the world. To live my damn life! I'm just so tired. Really for the work to just stop. And do what I want, or nothing, whichever. I need my "oomph" back, for lack of a better word. I need my drive, my desire to GO, the way I used to have. I'm not sure what changed - I do know it's in ME, and not due to any outside interference, or actions by anyone (I mean the boys who upset me. Noone else has the ability to control MY destiny...)
I'm waiting again. I wonder what exactly for this time?
I have to get through tomorrow. Then we'll see. I might put my foot down and say "That's it. I'm done." Tuesday I have some not stressful clients, and maybe I'll finally get into Cambridge to work on that rogue client. Wednesday I think is mine, that I'm calling it, and I'm going to go out and - be not at work.
Right, even I'm tired of this. I hope I can just do what I need to. I have clients that are going to start in on their "needs" that MUST be addressed, in some way.
Maybe I should open a window - it's warm in here all of a sudden.
of course, NOW I'm feeling restless, potentially restless enough to go out.
*looks* 10PM *sighs*
I've been hungry but unwilling to leave JUST for food.
I feel all scrubish, and not up for people today. Any people.
If it were any day but a holiday Sunday, and if I actually had any cash *grins* I'd have called an order in.
Gah, I really HATE this feeling, I do. The inability to FACE the world. To live my damn life! I'm just so tired. Really for the work to just stop. And do what I want, or nothing, whichever. I need my "oomph" back, for lack of a better word. I need my drive, my desire to GO, the way I used to have. I'm not sure what changed - I do know it's in ME, and not due to any outside interference, or actions by anyone (I mean the boys who upset me. Noone else has the ability to control MY destiny...)
I'm waiting again. I wonder what exactly for this time?
I have to get through tomorrow. Then we'll see. I might put my foot down and say "That's it. I'm done." Tuesday I have some not stressful clients, and maybe I'll finally get into Cambridge to work on that rogue client. Wednesday I think is mine, that I'm calling it, and I'm going to go out and - be not at work.
Right, even I'm tired of this. I hope I can just do what I need to. I have clients that are going to start in on their "needs" that MUST be addressed, in some way.
Maybe I should open a window - it's warm in here all of a sudden.
