I feel like I'm missing some meetings
Apr. 5th, 2004 12:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyor I'm not being invited.
Between my subconscious and my body.
They appear to be in full on rebellion.
I'm assuming such a meeting would go something like this:
SC: So, You must all be wondering why I've called this meeting
B: Um, well yeah I guess.
C: *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
SC: *ahem* yes well, I don't know about YOU but I'm tired of this schedule. All we do is work, when we get home, we work, when we leave the house, we wortk.
B: Yeah, you know, that's a TOTAL bummer dude - I always wanted to learn to surf!
C: *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
SC: Yes, well, anyway, I'm thinking - this needs to stop. Now I only have control when we're asleep. During the day, Consciousness has control. Someone wake up Consciousness.
*Body Pokes Consciousness*
B: No way dude.
SC: All right then, screw her. While we're asleep, I'm going to work HARD at keeping control, and Body I need your help.
B:Me?
SC: Yes, you. When then alarms go off, , the Consciousness will try to wake up. YOU Need to work without direction. Shut off those damn alarms and turn that TV down so low she can't hear when it changes from Buffy to crappy 90210.
B: A'ight
SC: I will keep hold of sleep, until I'm DAMN good and ready to wake up. What do you say
B: COOL!
SC: Oh and when I DO let her wake up, make sure you have aches that make her NOT want to get up.
B: You got it
C: *Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
SC: See, that's what you get when you miss meetings.
There has to be a conspiracy. I can't sleep when I go to bed. I can't wake up on time once I get there. Normal people take vacations when this happens. I really need to start doing that - plan at least a weekend, or a long weekend every quarter where I just RELAX. I need to get back into working 8 hours, then STOPPING, no questions. Those 8 hours don't NEED to be 9 to 5., but they need to be there.
I HATE this, I hate wanting to accomplish something and being UNABLE to. I should have put my damn fool foot down in November, when I got back from England. I shouldn't have been sitting on that bus to Logan CRYING due to all the stress I was under. I should have said "I NEED A BREAK" and just stopped working like I was. Actually I should have done that in September, when I took a week off the Hell client, to rest and relax, only to find myself at other clients all day, every day. he kicker was the Friday, at the client I Have to head to after my shower, SITTING for three hours, because the woman I needed to meet with "needed to have lunch" A THREE HOUR fucking lunch.
I just need to make it through one more week, week and a half tops. WHY is my body and mind still fighting me? I don't choose to stay up, I was IN bed last night and just wasn't tired. At LEAST I wasn't up to 4AM again. I just DON'T understand WHY I'm having trouble with the schedule? It's NOT like I worked yesterday. I don't get that either, that I should have felt relaxed and feel anything but.
I think I need a Mommy for the next week. Someone to wake me up, pick out my outfits, drive me to school/work. All of the things I haven't had since age 8.
Ok - I've goofed off enough, I REALLY need to get moving. My poor boss will be SUPER pissed at me, once I finally get there. I'm going to get stuck in some nasty traffic - I think I'm going to skirt the whole thing on the way home. If I can be there by one, I'm leaving at 3, 3:30 at the latest. I SHOULD cancel and go right to Stoughton. GAH!
Between my subconscious and my body.
They appear to be in full on rebellion.
I'm assuming such a meeting would go something like this:
SC: So, You must all be wondering why I've called this meeting
B: Um, well yeah I guess.
C: *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
SC: *ahem* yes well, I don't know about YOU but I'm tired of this schedule. All we do is work, when we get home, we work, when we leave the house, we wortk.
B: Yeah, you know, that's a TOTAL bummer dude - I always wanted to learn to surf!
C: *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
SC: Yes, well, anyway, I'm thinking - this needs to stop. Now I only have control when we're asleep. During the day, Consciousness has control. Someone wake up Consciousness.
*Body Pokes Consciousness*
B: No way dude.
SC: All right then, screw her. While we're asleep, I'm going to work HARD at keeping control, and Body I need your help.
B:Me?
SC: Yes, you. When then alarms go off, , the Consciousness will try to wake up. YOU Need to work without direction. Shut off those damn alarms and turn that TV down so low she can't hear when it changes from Buffy to crappy 90210.
B: A'ight
SC: I will keep hold of sleep, until I'm DAMN good and ready to wake up. What do you say
B: COOL!
SC: Oh and when I DO let her wake up, make sure you have aches that make her NOT want to get up.
B: You got it
C: *Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
SC: See, that's what you get when you miss meetings.
There has to be a conspiracy. I can't sleep when I go to bed. I can't wake up on time once I get there. Normal people take vacations when this happens. I really need to start doing that - plan at least a weekend, or a long weekend every quarter where I just RELAX. I need to get back into working 8 hours, then STOPPING, no questions. Those 8 hours don't NEED to be 9 to 5., but they need to be there.
I HATE this, I hate wanting to accomplish something and being UNABLE to. I should have put my damn fool foot down in November, when I got back from England. I shouldn't have been sitting on that bus to Logan CRYING due to all the stress I was under. I should have said "I NEED A BREAK" and just stopped working like I was. Actually I should have done that in September, when I took a week off the Hell client, to rest and relax, only to find myself at other clients all day, every day. he kicker was the Friday, at the client I Have to head to after my shower, SITTING for three hours, because the woman I needed to meet with "needed to have lunch" A THREE HOUR fucking lunch.
I just need to make it through one more week, week and a half tops. WHY is my body and mind still fighting me? I don't choose to stay up, I was IN bed last night and just wasn't tired. At LEAST I wasn't up to 4AM again. I just DON'T understand WHY I'm having trouble with the schedule? It's NOT like I worked yesterday. I don't get that either, that I should have felt relaxed and feel anything but.
I think I need a Mommy for the next week. Someone to wake me up, pick out my outfits, drive me to school/work. All of the things I haven't had since age 8.
Ok - I've goofed off enough, I REALLY need to get moving. My poor boss will be SUPER pissed at me, once I finally get there. I'm going to get stuck in some nasty traffic - I think I'm going to skirt the whole thing on the way home. If I can be there by one, I'm leaving at 3, 3:30 at the latest. I SHOULD cancel and go right to Stoughton. GAH!
