Well, it's true

[tiamatlady]

I suck.
I never got out of the house today.
I did it again on Friday.
This is the WORST time for me to be doing it.
But I slept like the undead last night. and woke up stiff as a board.
I'm thinking about heading to bed soon, putting on a movie, and lying in the dark and just drift off. Then, get up super early, go to CPA#2, then to Cambridge client via the Pike or Route 2 (To avoid the mess of 93's revamp on the first day people are using it) then back to CPA#2 for the rest of the evening.

The other thing bugging me is my inability to do anything. I haven't finished ANY of the stuff I wanted to do today. I wanted to make photocopies and all that happy horseshit, and didn't. I'm just - well - FLAKEY - and I HATE it. I feel unable to do a damn thing about it.

*sighs*

Two more weeks. This time next week I'll have an idea of when exactly I'll be free. The worst is yet to come, with the weekend. I'm not doing anything but work. No Chance I'm doing anything else. That really sucks, but I decided I'd live. I need to email the major players that I'm not going to be available. Although one of them, can go fuck himself. I'm decidedly UNthrilled about some things he drops on me casually, kinda like I have NO feelings on the subject. He might get his wish - I'm approaching not giving a fuck. I don't think that's what he has in mind.

I find that I'm pretty bitter about a lot of things. A couple of people I was sure who could be there for me, and help me weather this whole thing have failed me miserably. I feel much more capable of doing the whole "let's be with the people who want me around." thing. My emotions are a bit more controlled, and more focused on being angry, instead of whiney. Angry lets me think with a clear mind.

Gah. Two More Weeks. Two More Weeks.
*sighs*

OK - to go put my sleep early plan into motion.

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