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tiamatladyI really don't think I'm going to make it.
Don't click this.
I mean, it's not like I have a life at all right now.
Every time I say out loud that I'm taking Friday night to see Wolfsheim I feel, well, stupid.
Like I don't have a right.
But let's not go there right now.
I got a call from Saturday's CPA while I was in the shower. They got an error message that I saw Saturday night, but had figured it was due to what I was doing. The only part of the message the CPA has taken in is "Not saved" She's FREAKING OUT. And, I don't want to call her, since I didn't get done what she wanted, after staying TWO hours longer than I planned, with my head pounding and hungry, and UNABLE to leave. I don't KNOW what the problem is. I don't KNOW how to fix it, and frankly, I don't really want to deal with it, on the days I'm not in her office. I'm NOT DRIVING an hour, to fix her goddess damned computer! While my other clients clamor for attention.
And then there's that. I only have so many hours, and, at this point, so much strength. I will get to things, I just can't predict when. I don't get down time. I Always have something work related to do. I'm having trouble balancing jobs. There's no clear division between assignments. That's why I like going to other people's offices. When I leave, I leave their work behind. I have a couple of clients I need to work on at home, but the way to handle that is to set aside the blocks of time for them, just as if I went to their office. But not when the two CPA's suck my time into their offices and when I say "I have to do *foo*" they look at me as if I'm either lying, or just crazy.
Just thinking about the past week.
- Monday I lost it and stayed in, unable to do anything
- Tuesday 2 clients, then CPA#2 til about 9, I think
- Wednesday Hell client from mid afternoon til after 8 I was supposed to go to CPA #2. I spent about 8 hours working on something at Hell client. SHouldhave taken about 2. My replacement is doing well in politicking, but when it comes to accounting processes she's slow on the uptake. Imanaged to make it to ManRay only to be in an UBER pissy mood, having to deal with Vipers, and stupid newbie boys in my seat. Left early, couldn't sleep tho.
- Thursday CPA #1 From midafternoon since I got up late, til LATE
- Friday morning client I'm finishing today, then another episode. Couldn't do anything.
- Saturday CPA #2 early afternoon til after 10PM
- Sunday CPA #2 til late, then home to my own work.
*looks over schedule*
Ok, I had the two episodes. but I literally stare at the TV. My brain isn't functioning. This is where going from client to client sucks, since I can't just sit and concentrate. Not like the CPA's, who DON"T have to get up and go (CPA#2 does. I'm trying to emulate him)
I have two pairs of undies left, my hair desperately needs a dye job, my room looks like a truck hit it, I can't find anything, and when I say I don't have time to do anything, the MARRIED people preach about how THEY get everything done. And then try to tell me their spouses don't do "much." How about cook and clean and basically take care of your life while you work. One of them tells me HE cooks. for his family. After he works til 8pm???? His 10 year old triplets wait til then to eat? I doubt it.
I'm not saying they don't have their responsibilities taken care of. Just if they ask me, and get an answer, they shouldn't tell me how much worse they have it, when they have help. Mind you - ASKED me. Not unsolicted - I learned my lesson about unsolicited complaints.
I have to go put some cheerful on and return two calls. One is CPA #1 for the discussion about the computer. The other is the replacement at the hell client, for a STUPID question. She called me last week asking about some invoice. An invoice I certainly don't remember, for something I can't even think about. And wants to "pick my brain." I don't have one.
I'm about ready to emotionally break.
I'm not going to make it.
Don't click this.
I mean, it's not like I have a life at all right now.
Every time I say out loud that I'm taking Friday night to see Wolfsheim I feel, well, stupid.
Like I don't have a right.
But let's not go there right now.
I got a call from Saturday's CPA while I was in the shower. They got an error message that I saw Saturday night, but had figured it was due to what I was doing. The only part of the message the CPA has taken in is "Not saved" She's FREAKING OUT. And, I don't want to call her, since I didn't get done what she wanted, after staying TWO hours longer than I planned, with my head pounding and hungry, and UNABLE to leave. I don't KNOW what the problem is. I don't KNOW how to fix it, and frankly, I don't really want to deal with it, on the days I'm not in her office. I'm NOT DRIVING an hour, to fix her goddess damned computer! While my other clients clamor for attention.
And then there's that. I only have so many hours, and, at this point, so much strength. I will get to things, I just can't predict when. I don't get down time. I Always have something work related to do. I'm having trouble balancing jobs. There's no clear division between assignments. That's why I like going to other people's offices. When I leave, I leave their work behind. I have a couple of clients I need to work on at home, but the way to handle that is to set aside the blocks of time for them, just as if I went to their office. But not when the two CPA's suck my time into their offices and when I say "I have to do *foo*" they look at me as if I'm either lying, or just crazy.
Just thinking about the past week.
- Monday I lost it and stayed in, unable to do anything
- Tuesday 2 clients, then CPA#2 til about 9, I think
- Wednesday Hell client from mid afternoon til after 8 I was supposed to go to CPA #2. I spent about 8 hours working on something at Hell client. SHouldhave taken about 2. My replacement is doing well in politicking, but when it comes to accounting processes she's slow on the uptake. Imanaged to make it to ManRay only to be in an UBER pissy mood, having to deal with Vipers, and stupid newbie boys in my seat. Left early, couldn't sleep tho.
- Thursday CPA #1 From midafternoon since I got up late, til LATE
- Friday morning client I'm finishing today, then another episode. Couldn't do anything.
- Saturday CPA #2 early afternoon til after 10PM
- Sunday CPA #2 til late, then home to my own work.
*looks over schedule*
Ok, I had the two episodes. but I literally stare at the TV. My brain isn't functioning. This is where going from client to client sucks, since I can't just sit and concentrate. Not like the CPA's, who DON"T have to get up and go (CPA#2 does. I'm trying to emulate him)
I have two pairs of undies left, my hair desperately needs a dye job, my room looks like a truck hit it, I can't find anything, and when I say I don't have time to do anything, the MARRIED people preach about how THEY get everything done. And then try to tell me their spouses don't do "much." How about cook and clean and basically take care of your life while you work. One of them tells me HE cooks. for his family. After he works til 8pm???? His 10 year old triplets wait til then to eat? I doubt it.
I'm not saying they don't have their responsibilities taken care of. Just if they ask me, and get an answer, they shouldn't tell me how much worse they have it, when they have help. Mind you - ASKED me. Not unsolicted - I learned my lesson about unsolicited complaints.
I have to go put some cheerful on and return two calls. One is CPA #1 for the discussion about the computer. The other is the replacement at the hell client, for a STUPID question. She called me last week asking about some invoice. An invoice I certainly don't remember, for something I can't even think about. And wants to "pick my brain." I don't have one.
I'm about ready to emotionally break.
I'm not going to make it.
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Date: 2004-03-22 09:17 am (UTC)good luck!
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Date: 2004-03-22 09:30 am (UTC)This is what American Taxes are all about *grins*
My schedule is just a bit out of control, and I can't seem to get a handle on it.
After the Season is over (April 15 is when our taxes are due, I'll be free then) I want to email you - I've been worried about you giving up things you want, and don't particularly understand the ciscumstances, but don't want to ask without having the time to devote to opening the can of worms.
So I say *hugs* and thanks for reading my crap - and being concerned. I just had a big giggle, so I'm better for now.
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Date: 2004-03-22 09:40 am (UTC)Hope it all works out - well it will cos april 15th Will arrive no matter what, then it'll all be over! :)
but yes, its the bit before that which is bad - good luck and may computers not go wrong on you!!
re "you giving up things you want"... i'm not sure what you mean... The only thing i can think of is my old violin - which i've got a replacement for, and its got a crack in it, and isn't very good, i just love it and will be sad to loose it... Hopefully will be able to sell the nasty replacement too, and with the profit get a nice one... :)
but maybe you're talking about something else... but no... i'm happy... well bar work i'm failing to do of course!
*hugs*
Take care of yourself n try and treat yourself now n then!
Good luck with it all.
:)
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