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Mar. 11th, 2004 01:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladySomething I just want to make clear.
I know I'm whining.
I know I have it DISTURBINGLY easy.
I'm tired.
I'm very very tired.
Imagine walking into an office that's loaded with tension. There's a deadline.
Imagine that every day for THREE MONTHS. Every bit of work you do, there's ten more pieces behind it.
You think you'll never get finished.
On top of that are demands from EVERYWHERE.
Work, home, friends.
But you can't do a damn thing about it for three months.
Now, remember what I said?
That for me, it felt like tax season 2003 never ended.
I never got a break. OK, Went to London. Had to work my ass off to do that and came back to a shit storm. Of epic proportion. I had a week's pause. It wasn't nearly enough.
I desperately need a break. I need to fall on my face and do NOTHING. Not work, not watch TV, to have no demands, no nothing. Maybe then I can get on that "real" schedule everyone else has.
Just imagine not being able to recharge. I know some people reading this know what I'm talking about. I feel for you, since I feel it myself and I don't know if I'm making it til April.
And please know, that right now, I'm in black and white mode. If you're not a solution to the problem, you're part of it. That should explain some of my anger. If I've looked to you for comfort or support, and you've turned me down for whatever reason, no matter how good, you're the problem, and I'm probably very not happy with you right now.
I'm trying to step back, and not say anything fatigue induced, and today pushed me to my limit. If anyone knew how much I DIDN'T snap today, I'd get a medal.
I'm not asking for special treatment, just some slack. Til April, then when I get back from falling on my face you can yell at me all you like.
My Cape boss gives herself a MONTH OFF after the season. That should say something.
in other news, which needs to go to bed with me so I get some decent rest, I can now upgrade my phone, although the ass in the Verizon store said I couldn't. They have expanded the availability online, and they not only have the phone I'd chosen, but an upgraded "slider" phone, for what I consider a good price. After I get paid, I'm getting it.
I need to get Futurama Vol 3, and that's it for the rest of the month. I mean it. I'm going to budget for some things coming out, and preorder them from DVD planet. That won't be March tho.
Gah, I want just two hours to watch a fluffy movie.
I need to go to bed.
G;night Wesley, I'll most likely kill you in the morning.
I know I'm whining.
I know I have it DISTURBINGLY easy.
I'm tired.
I'm very very tired.
Imagine walking into an office that's loaded with tension. There's a deadline.
Imagine that every day for THREE MONTHS. Every bit of work you do, there's ten more pieces behind it.
You think you'll never get finished.
On top of that are demands from EVERYWHERE.
Work, home, friends.
But you can't do a damn thing about it for three months.
Now, remember what I said?
That for me, it felt like tax season 2003 never ended.
I never got a break. OK, Went to London. Had to work my ass off to do that and came back to a shit storm. Of epic proportion. I had a week's pause. It wasn't nearly enough.
I desperately need a break. I need to fall on my face and do NOTHING. Not work, not watch TV, to have no demands, no nothing. Maybe then I can get on that "real" schedule everyone else has.
Just imagine not being able to recharge. I know some people reading this know what I'm talking about. I feel for you, since I feel it myself and I don't know if I'm making it til April.
And please know, that right now, I'm in black and white mode. If you're not a solution to the problem, you're part of it. That should explain some of my anger. If I've looked to you for comfort or support, and you've turned me down for whatever reason, no matter how good, you're the problem, and I'm probably very not happy with you right now.
I'm trying to step back, and not say anything fatigue induced, and today pushed me to my limit. If anyone knew how much I DIDN'T snap today, I'd get a medal.
I'm not asking for special treatment, just some slack. Til April, then when I get back from falling on my face you can yell at me all you like.
My Cape boss gives herself a MONTH OFF after the season. That should say something.
in other news, which needs to go to bed with me so I get some decent rest, I can now upgrade my phone, although the ass in the Verizon store said I couldn't. They have expanded the availability online, and they not only have the phone I'd chosen, but an upgraded "slider" phone, for what I consider a good price. After I get paid, I'm getting it.
I need to get Futurama Vol 3, and that's it for the rest of the month. I mean it. I'm going to budget for some things coming out, and preorder them from DVD planet. That won't be March tho.
Gah, I want just two hours to watch a fluffy movie.
I need to go to bed.
G;night Wesley, I'll most likely kill you in the morning.
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Date: 2004-03-11 03:48 am (UTC)