Today brings
Feb. 22nd, 2004 12:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyme feeling MUCH better.
Maybe it's the lack of stressful work for a couple of days, maybe it was the alone time yesterday. I started feeling better once my boss left the office, and I wrapped up what I was doing and made a phone call. I don't like being watched. Supervised yes, watched no. It's odd how angry I am while at work. I'm resentful, like work it interfering with something. I KNOW this is a tired reaction. it's pretty obvious I need a vacation, something simple, that doesn't cause me tons of stress. I love England, but my last trip wasn't stress free. Between the rush to get there, the intense amount of work I had to do to make it happen, and the activity that went on while there, plus returning to a shitstorm, let's just say I didn't feel refreshed afterwards. *sighs* But, PLEASE don't get me wrong - I wouldn't have traded my week there last year for ANYTHING, no matter what.
I'm starting to think about what will make me happy, after the season. I DO want to do Iceland with Laura, but things are still up in the air. I'm thinking of going to NYC, spending some time alone wandering the city. I have the standing invite from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
staralfurinn and if I split that with some hotel time, I could stay for almost a week without spending too much. I could head out at the same time as A for work, and go to museums, and shows like I've always wanted to. Wandering London alone my first trip was - refreshing. I'm thinking if things quiet down for me before April 15, I could leave right from my afternoon client on Tuesday, and spend the rest of the week, through the weekend in the big City. Come home Sunday or Monday, depending on my early week clients. I could tell peeps, so on Friday I can get a hotel room, and meet some people in the city for a weekend of clubbing, and late night nonsense. I DO want to do some things, like run the club Gauntlet, but that can wait for a bit. I'd love to go to Albany with Ben, back out to Haven to show the kiddies how it's done, and I haven't been to a Contempt, maybe the timing will be just right.
*shrug* I have to ask the parties involved, I have to think about it. But I'm starting to think it's a SMASHING idea. City on the cheap and the down low. Alone, to recoup my equilibrium. Then I can come back, take care of the social engagements I've been dismissing since last April, head to Iceland with D, and maybe be in mental shape for this wedding.
I seriously need to look into Internet Phone service. I already have lots of people over the Pond I want to talk to, and now I canNOT be out of touch with Lou. I realized that it simply wasn't going to be easy to talk to him once he's relocated. And with the idea of going to see him, in Italy or Germany in a bit of an expensive puddle, I need to maintain contact. If I hop the pond again, it'll be back where I'm comfortable - London. (OK MAYBE Cambridge too *evil grin*) I want WGT someday, but not until Lou is there with me, at least partially. I won't go to Germany without him, it's that simple. Maybe it'll work out, but I can't see that from here, since he's on his "business trip" and has bigger fish to fry once he gets home.
I want to go shopping today, but the bank account and the credit cards are SCREAMING no. Maybe I'll still go look at shoes, but a trip to Attleboro is unwise. I've got stuff to do around here, some cleaning, some laundry, some dishes. Hmmm, where can I go besides DSW Warehouse? I'm starting to HATE that place - the one in Boston is out of reach since I'm NOT going into Boston, and the one in Dedham may as well be a ghetto. Seriously, last time I went, some guy was peeing next to the building. In Full View. Not to be a dick (so to speak) not to be naughty, but because it was acceptable to him to pee in public, since he had to go and couldn't walk INTO THE MALL to use the bathroom.
I should go get some leftover Pad Thai from last night and get moving. If I'd known how hurty my bank account was, I'd have gotten Wendy's after all *grins* I need to swing by Borders for a StriFry cookbook, hopefully on sale, for the new stir fry pan the Unit bought. I'm a Leo, I like precise directions. This is why I'm useless at crafty things - when anything is out of whack it drives me NUTS. Maybe I'll make up those curly extensions today. After I clean up my desk, rip some CDs, look at some tax stuff, do some work. WOW - I'm suddenly busy today! *grins*
Maybe it's the lack of stressful work for a couple of days, maybe it was the alone time yesterday. I started feeling better once my boss left the office, and I wrapped up what I was doing and made a phone call. I don't like being watched. Supervised yes, watched no. It's odd how angry I am while at work. I'm resentful, like work it interfering with something. I KNOW this is a tired reaction. it's pretty obvious I need a vacation, something simple, that doesn't cause me tons of stress. I love England, but my last trip wasn't stress free. Between the rush to get there, the intense amount of work I had to do to make it happen, and the activity that went on while there, plus returning to a shitstorm, let's just say I didn't feel refreshed afterwards. *sighs* But, PLEASE don't get me wrong - I wouldn't have traded my week there last year for ANYTHING, no matter what.
I'm starting to think about what will make me happy, after the season. I DO want to do Iceland with Laura, but things are still up in the air. I'm thinking of going to NYC, spending some time alone wandering the city. I have the standing invite from
staralfurinn and if I split that with some hotel time, I could stay for almost a week without spending too much. I could head out at the same time as A for work, and go to museums, and shows like I've always wanted to. Wandering London alone my first trip was - refreshing. I'm thinking if things quiet down for me before April 15, I could leave right from my afternoon client on Tuesday, and spend the rest of the week, through the weekend in the big City. Come home Sunday or Monday, depending on my early week clients. I could tell peeps, so on Friday I can get a hotel room, and meet some people in the city for a weekend of clubbing, and late night nonsense. I DO want to do some things, like run the club Gauntlet, but that can wait for a bit. I'd love to go to Albany with Ben, back out to Haven to show the kiddies how it's done, and I haven't been to a Contempt, maybe the timing will be just right.*shrug* I have to ask the parties involved, I have to think about it. But I'm starting to think it's a SMASHING idea. City on the cheap and the down low. Alone, to recoup my equilibrium. Then I can come back, take care of the social engagements I've been dismissing since last April, head to Iceland with D, and maybe be in mental shape for this wedding.
I seriously need to look into Internet Phone service. I already have lots of people over the Pond I want to talk to, and now I canNOT be out of touch with Lou. I realized that it simply wasn't going to be easy to talk to him once he's relocated. And with the idea of going to see him, in Italy or Germany in a bit of an expensive puddle, I need to maintain contact. If I hop the pond again, it'll be back where I'm comfortable - London. (OK MAYBE Cambridge too *evil grin*) I want WGT someday, but not until Lou is there with me, at least partially. I won't go to Germany without him, it's that simple. Maybe it'll work out, but I can't see that from here, since he's on his "business trip" and has bigger fish to fry once he gets home.
I want to go shopping today, but the bank account and the credit cards are SCREAMING no. Maybe I'll still go look at shoes, but a trip to Attleboro is unwise. I've got stuff to do around here, some cleaning, some laundry, some dishes. Hmmm, where can I go besides DSW Warehouse? I'm starting to HATE that place - the one in Boston is out of reach since I'm NOT going into Boston, and the one in Dedham may as well be a ghetto. Seriously, last time I went, some guy was peeing next to the building. In Full View. Not to be a dick (so to speak) not to be naughty, but because it was acceptable to him to pee in public, since he had to go and couldn't walk INTO THE MALL to use the bathroom.
I should go get some leftover Pad Thai from last night and get moving. If I'd known how hurty my bank account was, I'd have gotten Wendy's after all *grins* I need to swing by Borders for a StriFry cookbook, hopefully on sale, for the new stir fry pan the Unit bought. I'm a Leo, I like precise directions. This is why I'm useless at crafty things - when anything is out of whack it drives me NUTS. Maybe I'll make up those curly extensions today. After I clean up my desk, rip some CDs, look at some tax stuff, do some work. WOW - I'm suddenly busy today! *grins*
