Goth dammit!

[tiamatlady]

I was just told "You are exactly the same as the first time I met you." by someone I work with.

Now she means professionally. I agree with that. I've said I'm in a rut, professionally, and I have issues that need to be dealt with, but I don't have time and/or energy til AFTER tax season. Preferably after I've had some time off, too.

But I RESENT the implication of her broad sweeping statement, and I'm absolutely infuriated by it. She doesn't know ME, really, she knows the me I tell her about, which is abbreviated. But this is a song I'm hearing over and over again. That I'm not "growing up" and when AM I anyway? They see some patterns and ASSUME everything is "the same."

This is the very reason things are going to change after tax season. I'm DONE listening to the people who say I'm exactly the same. I have to get AWAY from the influences that MAKE me so (IE CPA #1's whole office. I regress when I walk in there, and I don't need that anymore.)

I CAN'T BELIEVE she actually said that, and LAUGHED. I like my boss, CPA #2, but I'm not taking this from his staff. I might have to leave BOTH jobs, so I can recreate my image. Maybe then I'll stand a chance of growing professionally.

DAMN am I pissed off now. So much so I HAD to sneak in and post - which is a symptom of the problem. *sighs*

Back to work.

Comments

[oscuridad.livejournal.com]

gah. not the nicest thing to hear. I feel like I'm really at a dead end with archaeology because there are so few job opps in the discipline, and even if you can get one, you barely make enough to live on. I suggest that in your case it's not as simple as just being the same, no one lives in a void, we all have other things that influence our lives. Meh. sorry that someone was so insensitive :(