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tiamatladyI wonder if I had a "real" job with permissible Internet access, if I'd be sitting here checking email and LJ before work. This is my time waster, but I need to at least check email before leaving, and today I'm waiting for an email from CB. Then there's my LJ addiction.
Maybe if I hadn't been up reading OoTP til 3 (finished, still bitter, need to reread the final battle pages again to decide what happened for myself) I'm up til 3 or 4 regardless I just can't sleep. I find myself with boundless energy after 1AM (conveniently when everything is closed!) This is the times I want to clean, I want to move I want to pull everything apart and revamp everything. And I can't. I need my own apartment, I'm tired of this.
I'm also tired of my sister's effups invading my life. I resent losing sleep, I get angry and the one who causes me to lose sleep is usually my nephew so I take it out on him, and that's not right. This morning I thought _I_ was driving him to my mother's bf for the day, while my sister deals with her scumbag bf and his scumbag ex and sister *grrrrr* but no, I get woken at 6AM to be told stay asleep. Hi, write me a note, for eff's sake!
*sighs* I need a shower. I want my new conditioner, but the old was expensive too, so I feel obligated to finish the bottle first. *sighs* Shouldn't be too long, and I need a haircut first anyway.
This week looks to be long, maybe I'll be able to reset my schedule. Can't help but wonder when _I_ get that much needed vacation.
Maybe if I hadn't been up reading OoTP til 3 (finished, still bitter, need to reread the final battle pages again to decide what happened for myself) I'm up til 3 or 4 regardless I just can't sleep. I find myself with boundless energy after 1AM (conveniently when everything is closed!) This is the times I want to clean, I want to move I want to pull everything apart and revamp everything. And I can't. I need my own apartment, I'm tired of this.
I'm also tired of my sister's effups invading my life. I resent losing sleep, I get angry and the one who causes me to lose sleep is usually my nephew so I take it out on him, and that's not right. This morning I thought _I_ was driving him to my mother's bf for the day, while my sister deals with her scumbag bf and his scumbag ex and sister *grrrrr* but no, I get woken at 6AM to be told stay asleep. Hi, write me a note, for eff's sake!
*sighs* I need a shower. I want my new conditioner, but the old was expensive too, so I feel obligated to finish the bottle first. *sighs* Shouldn't be too long, and I need a haircut first anyway.
This week looks to be long, maybe I'll be able to reset my schedule. Can't help but wonder when _I_ get that much needed vacation.
