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tiamatladyI wanted to be ready to leave the house now. But, I am not. Dilly-dallying at the computer.
I'm not going to ManRay tonight. Lou is NOT going, and I'm pretty exhausted from my week. I'm going to come home, play with the new cable modem, and do some room cleaning and laundry, since there's a chance that CB will come over and visit this weekend.
Plus, I'm going to be so late for work, I'll probably work late, and I have BRC stuff to do. See, there I said it. Why not *grins*
Last night was - odd. I guess. Things were uncomfortable for a while, and if anyone was expecting me at Diesel, who saw me there, I was meeting Lou, and we had things to talk about. We went from Diesel to Anna's (for MY dinner) to Harvard Square, to Cafe Pamplona, to his car. About 3 hours, and he talked a lot of it. he's - Different. And I guess THAT's what I sense. He's finally thinking AHEAD, instead of, if you'll forgive the euphemism, thinking with his dick. Rites brought him a lot of spiritual stuff, some of which I simply DO NOT understand. I guess that's what's baffling to me, he's spending a lot of time with those who went to Rites, and he's also feeling "off" since he spent a good portion of his time off there, and now has VERY little to spread around. I feel he also has VERY little time for me these days. Or rather, my shit, if you will. It's DIFFERENT on the phone. One has to listen and open up. Well it's a moot point. I'm probably (although there is a slim chance, hence the probably) not seeing him tonight, and he leaves tomorrow afternoon, for the drive back to Georgia.
I think from now on, he's not going to spend as much time at home during his leaves. We talked about his desire to see Germany, and I told him he should go for a week next leave, then come home for his family. I mean it when I say I'm OK if I don't see him. I just HATED it when he made some kind of plans and then fucked with them.
So, now I have to look beyond this weekend. There's a lot on my social calendar for the next month of weekends, and I need to reclaim a semblance of a life. Plus, Chris and Letty want to go to Montreal for Forth of July weekend, and I'm thinking that's a SMASHING idea. And then there's CB, and my desire to spend more time with him. And some friends I feel that I've ignored, or put aside, that I need to make it up to.
And hey - does ANYONE owe me dinner? Because Mr's Ranger-pants so RENEGED on sushi, I never got mine. *pouts* I don't want to pay for it *grins* so someone needs to buy me dinner.
Ok, I'm VERY late, I need to get dressed. More on my boring life later *lol*
I'm not going to ManRay tonight. Lou is NOT going, and I'm pretty exhausted from my week. I'm going to come home, play with the new cable modem, and do some room cleaning and laundry, since there's a chance that CB will come over and visit this weekend.
Plus, I'm going to be so late for work, I'll probably work late, and I have BRC stuff to do. See, there I said it. Why not *grins*
Last night was - odd. I guess. Things were uncomfortable for a while, and if anyone was expecting me at Diesel, who saw me there, I was meeting Lou, and we had things to talk about. We went from Diesel to Anna's (for MY dinner) to Harvard Square, to Cafe Pamplona, to his car. About 3 hours, and he talked a lot of it. he's - Different. And I guess THAT's what I sense. He's finally thinking AHEAD, instead of, if you'll forgive the euphemism, thinking with his dick. Rites brought him a lot of spiritual stuff, some of which I simply DO NOT understand. I guess that's what's baffling to me, he's spending a lot of time with those who went to Rites, and he's also feeling "off" since he spent a good portion of his time off there, and now has VERY little to spread around. I feel he also has VERY little time for me these days. Or rather, my shit, if you will. It's DIFFERENT on the phone. One has to listen and open up. Well it's a moot point. I'm probably (although there is a slim chance, hence the probably) not seeing him tonight, and he leaves tomorrow afternoon, for the drive back to Georgia.
I think from now on, he's not going to spend as much time at home during his leaves. We talked about his desire to see Germany, and I told him he should go for a week next leave, then come home for his family. I mean it when I say I'm OK if I don't see him. I just HATED it when he made some kind of plans and then fucked with them.
So, now I have to look beyond this weekend. There's a lot on my social calendar for the next month of weekends, and I need to reclaim a semblance of a life. Plus, Chris and Letty want to go to Montreal for Forth of July weekend, and I'm thinking that's a SMASHING idea. And then there's CB, and my desire to spend more time with him. And some friends I feel that I've ignored, or put aside, that I need to make it up to.
And hey - does ANYONE owe me dinner? Because Mr's Ranger-pants so RENEGED on sushi, I never got mine. *pouts* I don't want to pay for it *grins* so someone needs to buy me dinner.
Ok, I'm VERY late, I need to get dressed. More on my boring life later *lol*
