tiamatlady

my intention was to go to work today, to get the crap done that needs to be done, but as it gets later and later, I find myself WITHOUT motivation, and having a LARGE desire for Ben & Jerry's (I blame CB, and what man eats Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough ice cream anyway?? I like From Russia with Buzz, but of course they only make it once in a while. Dammit.) So, I'm going to color my hair, the black/purple I've been saving, surf around on the new connection, do some cleanup on my desktop computer, maybe bring in the cable from the car and measure how much I want, and go get the ice cream, and something for a late dinner tonight, then breakfast tomorrow. Tonight I want to order some tights as well.

I hate this lack of motivation, I hate my lack of energy, I loathe the sitting around, but you know, this is becuase I didn't get a chance to unwind. I make fun of CB but, you know, we BOTH need to slow down. I almost envy his work schedule, since he's on call, he CAN'T do productive things, and when he's not working, it's almost like he's getting paid to goof off.

I need to join that gym, I NEED to start going, I really need to setup a schedule for myself. I have to talk to my sister, as my mother was complaining about her lack of desire to send my nephew to camp for the summer, but if she doesn't I'm afraid he'll turn into an even bigger problem child. So I was thinking about volunteering to drive him to camp every morning. he has to be there at 9, so I'd HAVE to get up earlier. Maybe if HE'S there to wake me up I can reset my schedule to wake up at 8, drop him off at 9, and be to clients between 9:30 and 10, which will work out for everyone, including getting my schedule back on track. I need something drastic.

Ok, I'm drepressing again. Im off to dye my hair, and I feel MUCH better about my desire to sit on my butt today.