OK Wigged, version 2.0
May. 21st, 2001 01:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyMy little sister called me today.
See, I have a one sister, we shall call her the Most Evil. Selfish. immature, without thought of consequences (she had a baby so something would "love her unconditionally" I advised her to get a dog, but she didn't listen)
My parents are divorced and when I was fifteen, Dad showed up for about 5 seconds, to show us the new wife, and new sister, year old daughter, Alisha.
She's 15 now.
I'm a little wigged. It'll be like that when my nephew turns 10, or ar some point. I mean, I remember a little girl, I saw her once after that, under the age of ten, pre nephew. We went to see the Lion King. She'll be here for 3 weeks in July, turning 16 over that time. That's the age I was when I met her. Well, a little younger. I remember pointing out my soon to be new high school, to that side of the family. But DAMN. This is making me feel very old. Useless. Like my life is over, and hers not barely begun.
*sigh*
I'll get over it. She's rather excited to come up. She told me her mother reads her email, and she just changed all her passwords so Mom couldn't read any more. She likes Start Trek, not Generations, but the first crew, Captain Kirk. Apparently Father got her into it. hrumph. My mother always wondered where I got it, apparently she was right about getting it from THAT side of the family. She wants to talk about my cousins, and grandparent, and I know nothing about them. They shut me out when I was a child, and I have no desire to have anything to do with them now. But it's not Alisha's fault. ANd I know that THE question will come up "Why don't you talk to Dad?" And I'm ready for it, she's old enough to understand, AND keep it to herself. It's a little late for retributions from him. I don't need a 16 year old trying to "make it better".
I think I'll take her shopping, and perhaps to a movie her mom wouldn't let her see, if she was home. Isn't that my job as big sister? To corrupt the youth of America? Still, I don't want to have to advise her, like I did my cousin. Kendall and I were honest with my then 16 year old cousin and her friend, and I thought it was educational to take them to see "Trainspotting" It did do SOME good. Kristin's friend was a little slut, who was well on her way to a nice drug habit. That movie scared some sense into her. Ok, she still did some drugs, but it scared the desire to try heroin right out of her, and she took MUCH more precautions in sex after that. I get the feeling Alisha can't handle something like that, she seems pretty sheltered. Although, right now her favorite movie is "Vampire$", that awful one from a couple of years ago, with James Woods? So that can't be all bad.
I'll bet she's a little Gothling. *sigh* this is all the ammo my mom needs "See I TOLD you your father was a freak. It's in HIS DNA, not mine!" Yikes.
I need to save some money, I know I'm going to spoil her, especially if she's a Gothling.
Work work work this week. Thinking I should skip Ceremony tomorrow, it sounds like not my thing, and I have work I should have done ANYTIME this weekend, and haven't. I want to meet the client on Tuesday, so I suppose I should do it tomorrow.
You know, I just realized that every time I stay in I get someone telling me "Are you going out? *sigh* Why not? DO you HAVE to stay in?" No wonder I want my own place, maybe I'd get more done.
Time to look for a part time job for the steady income. Have too many expenses, need steady paycheck til I get enough clients. Plus I have to get over this "Can't work at home" thing.
*sigh*
See, I have a one sister, we shall call her the Most Evil. Selfish. immature, without thought of consequences (she had a baby so something would "love her unconditionally" I advised her to get a dog, but she didn't listen)
My parents are divorced and when I was fifteen, Dad showed up for about 5 seconds, to show us the new wife, and new sister, year old daughter, Alisha.
She's 15 now.
I'm a little wigged. It'll be like that when my nephew turns 10, or ar some point. I mean, I remember a little girl, I saw her once after that, under the age of ten, pre nephew. We went to see the Lion King. She'll be here for 3 weeks in July, turning 16 over that time. That's the age I was when I met her. Well, a little younger. I remember pointing out my soon to be new high school, to that side of the family. But DAMN. This is making me feel very old. Useless. Like my life is over, and hers not barely begun.
*sigh*
I'll get over it. She's rather excited to come up. She told me her mother reads her email, and she just changed all her passwords so Mom couldn't read any more. She likes Start Trek, not Generations, but the first crew, Captain Kirk. Apparently Father got her into it. hrumph. My mother always wondered where I got it, apparently she was right about getting it from THAT side of the family. She wants to talk about my cousins, and grandparent, and I know nothing about them. They shut me out when I was a child, and I have no desire to have anything to do with them now. But it's not Alisha's fault. ANd I know that THE question will come up "Why don't you talk to Dad?" And I'm ready for it, she's old enough to understand, AND keep it to herself. It's a little late for retributions from him. I don't need a 16 year old trying to "make it better".
I think I'll take her shopping, and perhaps to a movie her mom wouldn't let her see, if she was home. Isn't that my job as big sister? To corrupt the youth of America? Still, I don't want to have to advise her, like I did my cousin. Kendall and I were honest with my then 16 year old cousin and her friend, and I thought it was educational to take them to see "Trainspotting" It did do SOME good. Kristin's friend was a little slut, who was well on her way to a nice drug habit. That movie scared some sense into her. Ok, she still did some drugs, but it scared the desire to try heroin right out of her, and she took MUCH more precautions in sex after that. I get the feeling Alisha can't handle something like that, she seems pretty sheltered. Although, right now her favorite movie is "Vampire$", that awful one from a couple of years ago, with James Woods? So that can't be all bad.
I'll bet she's a little Gothling. *sigh* this is all the ammo my mom needs "See I TOLD you your father was a freak. It's in HIS DNA, not mine!" Yikes.
I need to save some money, I know I'm going to spoil her, especially if she's a Gothling.
Work work work this week. Thinking I should skip Ceremony tomorrow, it sounds like not my thing, and I have work I should have done ANYTIME this weekend, and haven't. I want to meet the client on Tuesday, so I suppose I should do it tomorrow.
You know, I just realized that every time I stay in I get someone telling me "Are you going out? *sigh* Why not? DO you HAVE to stay in?" No wonder I want my own place, maybe I'd get more done.
Time to look for a part time job for the steady income. Have too many expenses, need steady paycheck til I get enough clients. Plus I have to get over this "Can't work at home" thing.
*sigh*
