I should stop going to ManRay
May. 17th, 2001 02:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyif all the evil doesn't stop pouring out.
List of the *shudder* evil:
1) I'll start by mentioning that some "old school" people showed up, and I just don't like them. There. Now I've bitched about you. Do you feel happier, satisfied even? Good. It's my job to make sure you feel persecued and used, perhaps I can get on with MY life now, like I have been for, um, quite a while now.
2) The most flopsy of evil. I don't want to go into it, discussing it gives it too much power. I STILL look better and am not a selfish evil bitch, just a bitch. *lol*
3) A boy who's taste in women has declined A LOT given whom I know who he used to date, and that he could have ME and went for a girl who simply can't dance (That's important. I think people without rythm shouldn't breed.)
4) The parking situation. That I CAN'T even describe, maybe later.
5) Kendall. Just when I think she's gone she shows up. It bothers me more that it bothers me at all. *deep breath* I think it bothers me becuase I was getting looked at (Now wait for me to explain it before you jump to conclusions) I'm used to being ignored, which is fine. You don't give someone your heart, and be able to easily deal with it being thrown back at you. I was going into this, and realize that I don't want to write about it, maybe later. I'm not sure if I should/need/want to rehash it again. Let's just say that she, and another friend almost destroyed me one night, for their own selfish pruposes. And then called it my "pschyodrama" Like it was all my fault. (It wasn't, I've been assued of that by others involved) She's the reason I can never trust anyone completly again, and the reason I can't deal with being ignored. She tried to ignore me, like I'd go away. Sorry I'm still here. The problems are still here. STOP IGNORING THEM AND DEAL WITH THEM, DAMMIT.
*sigh*
The good points:
1) Kyle's Birthday - I boughted him a drinkie. From ML. Neato
2) Captain Charming, who, while I feel bad his dad is undergoing some tests, I am a little selfishly glad it brings him home every Wednesday for a month. (PS Liz - when did his taste in women decline?)
3) Hanging with Addam early. Such a cutie. Delivered his taxes last night, and he pays in chain mail. My decision, I want a collar and a headpiece. *boing*
4) Bad dancing - this is always entertaining. *lol*
5) Not actually HAVING to deal with anyone's problems tonight. The evils were noted, but none came near me (DAMN straight. I think there would be an ass kicking in their future.)
I don't know. I think I'll go on Friday to see Ben Rodda, and I may plan on skipping in two weeks. Puck wants ot have dinner and Wednesdays are best.
Coffee I think for me tomorrow, I want to sit and veg and listen to conversation. And be COMFORTED dammit. Ok maybe not comforted, just not pissed off/upon.
Calling Kat- what did the blonde say? I'm feeling the need to take out my "agression" on a cute blonde sub. I don't know if I can wait til NYC.
List of the *shudder* evil:
1) I'll start by mentioning that some "old school" people showed up, and I just don't like them. There. Now I've bitched about you. Do you feel happier, satisfied even? Good. It's my job to make sure you feel persecued and used, perhaps I can get on with MY life now, like I have been for, um, quite a while now.
2) The most flopsy of evil. I don't want to go into it, discussing it gives it too much power. I STILL look better and am not a selfish evil bitch, just a bitch. *lol*
3) A boy who's taste in women has declined A LOT given whom I know who he used to date, and that he could have ME and went for a girl who simply can't dance (That's important. I think people without rythm shouldn't breed.)
4) The parking situation. That I CAN'T even describe, maybe later.
5) Kendall. Just when I think she's gone she shows up. It bothers me more that it bothers me at all. *deep breath* I think it bothers me becuase I was getting looked at (Now wait for me to explain it before you jump to conclusions) I'm used to being ignored, which is fine. You don't give someone your heart, and be able to easily deal with it being thrown back at you. I was going into this, and realize that I don't want to write about it, maybe later. I'm not sure if I should/need/want to rehash it again. Let's just say that she, and another friend almost destroyed me one night, for their own selfish pruposes. And then called it my "pschyodrama" Like it was all my fault. (It wasn't, I've been assued of that by others involved) She's the reason I can never trust anyone completly again, and the reason I can't deal with being ignored. She tried to ignore me, like I'd go away. Sorry I'm still here. The problems are still here. STOP IGNORING THEM AND DEAL WITH THEM, DAMMIT.
*sigh*
The good points:
1) Kyle's Birthday - I boughted him a drinkie. From ML. Neato
2) Captain Charming, who, while I feel bad his dad is undergoing some tests, I am a little selfishly glad it brings him home every Wednesday for a month. (PS Liz - when did his taste in women decline?)
3) Hanging with Addam early. Such a cutie. Delivered his taxes last night, and he pays in chain mail. My decision, I want a collar and a headpiece. *boing*
4) Bad dancing - this is always entertaining. *lol*
5) Not actually HAVING to deal with anyone's problems tonight. The evils were noted, but none came near me (DAMN straight. I think there would be an ass kicking in their future.)
I don't know. I think I'll go on Friday to see Ben Rodda, and I may plan on skipping in two weeks. Puck wants ot have dinner and Wednesdays are best.
Coffee I think for me tomorrow, I want to sit and veg and listen to conversation. And be COMFORTED dammit. Ok maybe not comforted, just not pissed off/upon.
Calling Kat- what did the blonde say? I'm feeling the need to take out my "agression" on a cute blonde sub. I don't know if I can wait til NYC.
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Bad timing
Date: 2001-05-17 10:23 am (UTC)However, this is a courtship he's entering into...I'm sure he'll get horny before he "falls in love." Next time he makes a sexual crack I'll remind him that he has options and to shut up.
Sorry, hon...
Re: Bad timing
Date: 2001-05-17 11:05 am (UTC)I had a feeling I should have done something that night. My bad. I keep promising myself I'll listen to these urges.
I'll find something else, believe me, it's May.
*hugs*
uhoh
Date: 2001-05-18 02:27 pm (UTC)a) you know who the fuck i am
b) if you've ever gauged my dancing abilities
c) realizing that my drunken dancing is not so good as my reg. dancing
d) thinking i am a good dancer, hope there isn't something i missed.
e) no i didnt take this personally or think you were talkin about me - im just curious
Re: uhoh
Date: 2001-05-18 03:55 pm (UTC)I know EXACTLY who you are.
"b) if you've ever gauged my dancing abilities "
I have never seen you dance.
"c) realizing that my drunken dancing is not so good as my reg. dancing"
See (b)
"d) thinking i am a good dancer, hope there isn't something i missed."
I wouldn't know, see (b)
"e) no i didnt take this personally or think you were talkin about me - im just curious"
Honestly, I never thought I'd say this. But you're WAY too arrogant. Let's just ask me next time, K?
Oh, I take that back. I did see you dancing, from Howie to every other man in the club, back to Howie. I just thank the goddess that Kazama wasn't there or you might have broken something.
Re: uhoh
Date: 2001-05-19 08:31 pm (UTC)That just seemed too mean.
I really wasn't being snotty or arrogant and I'm hoping it didn't sound that way. I run around the club and talk to multiple folks (ie men and women) because though it wouldn't seem so I nervous and shy and worry that if I talk overlong to one person I'll annoy them.
Like I said, I didn't think this was about me - it only made me wonder if you formed such opinions about other people as well.
Now what tell me, did I do to instill such hostility in you? To the best of my knowledge I've never done you any harm.
Also I don't understand the breaking something comment...
Moreover don't know if you've talked to Kazama, but he and I are friends. Anyway...
Re: uhoh
Date: 2001-05-19 08:36 pm (UTC)it was a gee lookie me randomly posting in your journal type of comment. not a "who you messin with bitch?" type comment because like i said already i didn't think you were talking about me and simply wondered whether you formed opinions of everyone's dancing - what you thought of mine if so - that is if you'd ever seen me dancing.
i guess if you see someone talking about being critical of dancing it makes you question your own.