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Something's got to give
Nov. 17th, 2005 11:31 pmI feel like my life revolves around the office.
An office that annoys and sucks the life out of me.
I check LJ and email almost incessantly, mostly because I am SO scattered. I can't finish one project before someone is bitching at me to do something else. I have a desk littered with half finshed items, and I got an email from a client saying "I THOUGHT this might be of some concern for you, and you'd have emailed me sooner." Um, NO it's not if you didn't tell me something was wrong, or gave me notice you needed something? Did I mention they ignored a direct request from me earlier?
But when I get home, I'm totally lost. I can't talk to anyone without going into it. It's why I'm not calling anyone. I haven't been able to leave work at the office, and I brood about stuff peopel MIGHT say.
I'm good at what I do, but this enviorment is taking it's toll. Things are noisy and I need to be able to concentrate. Doing things distractedly creates problems, which SURPRISE are mine to take the blame for, even when it's not mine.
I'm not sure how much longer I'm going to take it. I NEED some down time, I don't even feel like I can take a DAMN LUNCH hour. because someone might NEED something.
I need something - time to clean my kitchen, and I'm SO painting next weekend. I'm not going to be available socially this weekend. My attitude, yes, definately, but mostly because I have to WORK on Saturday. And I want to do some things for myself before-hand. I pushed everything over to let the installer work, and I want to clean around things, and put stuff back. I also need to take measurements of the washer to post. then get it out of the way to paitn next weekend, after I prep the walls. There's some wallpaper goo that needs off the walls first, and I need to take the cabinet doors off as well. I'm putting off buying any more furniture until after the painting is done.
Yeah, I'm going to bed early. I want to get up early, I'm done with today, it's fired.
An office that annoys and sucks the life out of me.
I check LJ and email almost incessantly, mostly because I am SO scattered. I can't finish one project before someone is bitching at me to do something else. I have a desk littered with half finshed items, and I got an email from a client saying "I THOUGHT this might be of some concern for you, and you'd have emailed me sooner." Um, NO it's not if you didn't tell me something was wrong, or gave me notice you needed something? Did I mention they ignored a direct request from me earlier?
But when I get home, I'm totally lost. I can't talk to anyone without going into it. It's why I'm not calling anyone. I haven't been able to leave work at the office, and I brood about stuff peopel MIGHT say.
I'm good at what I do, but this enviorment is taking it's toll. Things are noisy and I need to be able to concentrate. Doing things distractedly creates problems, which SURPRISE are mine to take the blame for, even when it's not mine.
I'm not sure how much longer I'm going to take it. I NEED some down time, I don't even feel like I can take a DAMN LUNCH hour. because someone might NEED something.
I need something - time to clean my kitchen, and I'm SO painting next weekend. I'm not going to be available socially this weekend. My attitude, yes, definately, but mostly because I have to WORK on Saturday. And I want to do some things for myself before-hand. I pushed everything over to let the installer work, and I want to clean around things, and put stuff back. I also need to take measurements of the washer to post. then get it out of the way to paitn next weekend, after I prep the walls. There's some wallpaper goo that needs off the walls first, and I need to take the cabinet doors off as well. I'm putting off buying any more furniture until after the painting is done.
Yeah, I'm going to bed early. I want to get up early, I'm done with today, it's fired.
