PSA

And this actually isn't directed at anyone in particular. I'm just - done.

If you think you're going to kick me down emotionally, you're quite wrong.
I've HAD QUITE ENOUGH of having my feelings and actions invalidated by a casual "well what about ME?" attitude.

I care about the lot of you, a lot. But lately I've been getting a lot of "Your feelings mean nothing compared to mine." oddly enough I don't feel that way, honestly.

I worry when my friends are upset. I worry even when it puts you at odds with me. but if you're being an asshole, especially to me directly, and your way of dealing with me is to drag out the 20 pound guilt trip, I'm here to warn you I'm not having any of it.

I do my best. If it's not good enough - leave. Don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out.

I need to know I'm wanted. I won't step close if I'm not. The Push/Pull attitude recently will BE STOPPING NOW. I am not a kitchen door, you can't just push me and hope I get out of your way.

Next time someone tries to make me feel that My anger and My resentment and My emotion are invalid because I have somehow slighted you, now matter how small, they're going to be in for an AWFUL surprise, when I verbally lash them into oblivion.

Like the most recent "I know I've been an asshole, and I've treated you badly and lied to you, for weeks. But you forgot my birthday, so YOU should feel guilty and do penance. You suck."

I AM DONE, do we get it???

This is just a warning, I guess, to tread lightly. Everything's coming down the pipe, and I have to handle it one at a time.

So

Someone tell me what crawled up everyone's ass?
I mean, I know I'm out of it, I know I'm in a foul mood right now (with pretty good reason) but I can't even say "hello" without getting snapped at.

*shrugs* maybe it is just me, I'm SO admitting things are bad. But I'm telling people "hey things are bad, can we tread carefully?" and getting ignored then "you yelled at me!" Eh, it's like I said last, I'm not letting anyone lay the heavy guilt on me. I can't do it right now. My load is full.

I think this is a problem indicator - I have no interest in posting.
I have to get to the office anyway. I'm picking up some work, so I don't decimate myself financially. I'm not in the mood to Ebay this week anyway, I need to do things as I get the urge.

I can promise you, I'm going to be spending a lot of time alone. I'm not fit company for the dog right now.

Great

just great.

I just cancelled on a client, because I'm too bitchy and upset to deal with work.

Are we happy now? Honestly?

today, this whole week, from Tuesday on, is SO FUCKING FIRED.

Paging Das Geek Squad

What the frelling hell is an SATA Hard Drive?

Microcenter still has them advertised, although they were out last week I'm thinking a recheck is in order. The 120Gig SATA hard drive is $109.99. the 160Gig hard drive is also 109.99, and it appears to be a "standard" hard drive.

You know, if I'm going to be playing with my system, I really should learn the lingo.
I should probably just order this. It's available online. It's also refurbished, however, and I dunno if I want that hassle. *shrugs*

and the mailman is the best man

What's a way to cheer up a depressed and pouting Leo lady?

Why, produce new shoes for her of course!

I just got my spur of the moment Ebay purchase, of a pair of Demonia shoes from over the weekend. I WUV them! I wuv them long time! One of them is a bit snug, but I'll get over that. I'm not wearing them out now, but I AM wearing them in the wedding! Unless I get vetoed. It looks like I'm bringing about 6 pairs of shoes, unless I end up trying everything on Saturday night.

Hmmm, shoes. But if I wear these, my blue toes won't show!
Hmmm, food for thought - but DAMN are they fine shoes!