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I'm worried about my lethargy. I can't seem to think of anything as "important" before noon. Even now, they seem unimportant. I'm resentful I have "responsibilit ies" that make me get up. That'a bad. Rather. I'm starting to lack respect for ANYONE. It doesn't help when the bosses reinforce this, by making me feel inept. Or when I feel like I'm not needed or wanted. Like the client I'm TRYING to get moving to. And I'm hungry all the time, which is weird. It seems I'm never NOT hungry. Everything seems not important. I just want to go to work, and work without interaction, and get a warm lunch and dinner, and not worry about outside influences. And that is just wrong.

I'm feeling the need to hide, it's almost violent, and it's starting to scare me. I don't want to lash out at someone who doesn't deserve it, because I have stress. And I'm looking at getting myself involved in a couple of other projects, and THAT is starting to freak me out too.

Gah. I should actually just get away from the Intornyet. If I were bored, I'd have gotten up a long time ago. I need a shower, lunch, and someplace safe to park my car today. Feh.