Scary.

Almost true. *shiver*

Fri Sep. 7, 2001 by Astrocenter.com
It's a good time for making new friends. Since today's planetary weather favors socializing, go out and apply your charm. It's easy for you to attract attention with your fiery, leonine enthusiasm for life. Approach someone who is a bit shy and sensitive, and involve them in an interesting discussion. This person might appreciate your outgoing nature and will open up to you. Tell some witty jokes and engage in some light flirtation. You could make a pleasant connection, which might even lead to more.
[Uh, YES! I count 4AM as Friday as I hadn't gone to bed yet]

Sat Sep. 8, 2001 by Astrocenter.com
This is a good day for taking stock of what is happening in your personal life. If certain things aren't working for you, it could be time to change them! Do some spring-cleaning and throw out old and outlived concepts. Don't sit around moping and thinking that love will never work out for you. You need to be clearer about what you want, and then go after it! Or if you are already in a relationship, communicate more openly with your partner what it is you like. Talking is sexy!
[Wish I'd read this first. Should have been clearer earlier]

Sun Sep. 9, 2001 by Astrocenter.com
Today you could develop some intense feelings for someone you have casually known for some time. Suddenly you might feel a strong romantic attraction to this person, even though they are very different from you. There could be an age difference, or some contrast in your styles or education. You might be learning about how opposites can attract! Although this person isn't your usual type, you could have a special relationship with them. Explore this further, because you might discover something interesting.
[Welcome to the Leo attitude, play with it til it breaks. Puuuurrrrrrr.]

I'm sorry, but I like him. A lot. Like Lou's Marcus. Instant, intense rapport. We're not talking China patterns, damn it, just actually finding another in less than two weeks, that I like, and respect. From gut feeling alone. It's alarming and intriging. I need to hide this week, and take stock I think.

IN other news - Meeting Natasha for lunch tomorrow. *happy* It's been SOOOO long and we need to catch up. Naughty grrrl she is.

*big hugs* to everyone that's going through some "stuff" especially you and you. And You get better damn it. I've been neglectful and need to reconnect with the peachy keen ones.

*sigh*

Someone deleted their journal. And I don't know who. I hate that.

Finally have a good night's sleep. We left Club Hell just after 12, I started feeling Icky, and waiting for my second wind to kick in, as usual. But, alas, there was none. I'd pushed too far. We both were yawning all the way home. I wanted to go directly to bed, but I had some stuff to do, and a first season XFiles was on. So I think I was in darkness about 2 AM, and set my alarms for 10:30.

Not that I regret any of the sleep dep from the weekend. I'm not even sure how to describe it. I met some very nice people, some very nice guys, one in particular. Hopefully he feels better today. *waves* and can take in some of the sights, or get some of the things he wanted to done. We sat on a love seat all day Saturday and compared notes on the party, and, funny, we agreed with everything. And he likes Godivas. *evil grin*

So I need to go shower, and leave about noon to meet Natasha. I want my car so I need to hunt down parking. I may just eat it and park in a pay lot. I'm going to pack my stuff for Ceremony, because, OH yes I will be out tonight to dance with my Kat, I can't resist Goth 101, and I should bring the CD for LostBoy to listen to and maybe play the new Voltaire remix, but in case I don't make it home before club. *hopeful grin*

Anyway, the shower beckons. I'll be back before I leave.
*hugs*

So

Natasha's going to be late, so I'm not leaving the house just yet.
Dammit, I'm getting hungry!

But, perhaps I should fill in some thoughts, while I'm waiting, on my last two or three weeks.

* The con was great, in it's own way. I'm just not an "alone" kind of girl. I mean, I need some alone time, but I think being alone the whole time depressed me. I had great fun with Spud and Melinda Saturday night, at the show, and of course I had Rogue and the band, and the new girl I met there. Hopefully she'll get a hold of me, because I can't remember her name, although I gave her my email. *shrug* She was cool, but was in the midst of causing some psychodrama, with her boyfriend, she'd be an amusing penpal, for sure. And perhaps the reason leaving Lou depressed me so much was due to my aloneness at that point. I need several people to go with next year, so I can interact and exchange with several people. Lou and his Ranger friends said they want in next year, and I think that's the way I'm going to plan.

* Went to SIN on Friday night, and I actually like the night. It was MORE crowded than usual, and next time I'm wearing the purple corset, I need to get a big frilly skirt (Which Jill told me which one to get, I'm afraid I'll have to copy her, which she's used to I guess, you should have SEEN how many copycats she got last night) It might be because Rigeland her boys and BenRodda were there, and I was entertained. And saw Natasha, so that was cool.

* Last week was long, very long. Too much nephew, too much dealing with my sister's crap. I never want to have to count on anyone again, and people wonder why I'm afraid to get into an apartment I can't afford. I never want to feel that way again. And don't' get me started on kids.

* I feel like there's some people missing. That I've seen an awful lot of some people, and neglected others. And neglected me, I need some down time. Oh and WORKING might be nice. I need to call the temp agency Kat turned me onto. I have to straighten out my resume first.

There are other things I'd love to say. But until I clear it up in my head, it'll be muddled.
Ok I think I'm off now, I want to hit a used CD store for Lords Of Acid. I'm obsessed now.

I'm restless

but at least not hungry.
I was hungry, and, after raiding sister's pizza am now not.
I'm getting ready to go out, but the first hour at Ceremony is SO tedious. I mean it just sucks donkeys. It's like they are punishing you for getting in free. I think I'll try to time it for 9:30.

I want to call and invite someone to come out one more time, but I think I've encroached enough. Doesn't stop the longings. Or the desire. Hence the restlessness. Sometimes I hate being a Leo. Impatient, and restless when things aren't EXACTLY as I envision. I'm ok though.

I should go get ready, but I almost don't want to go out tonight. I went out last night, but Bill might be out. And I need to either see Tyger or email her, she's so sweet and reminded me that we should be getting together. And I must see Tink and Dancer, hopefully for Indian food/Mexican boys and CardCaptor Sakura (as I missed the last episode on the first DVD *evil grin*) in that order. Maybe she will be out to attempt to lighten her spirit. And my Kat and her boy will be there for me to gush about my weekend, and to dance with.

I feel like my hands are tied, and that I'm out of control. I don't like that feeling.