Two streams of emotion
Nov. 16th, 2002 04:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyContent - I had a nice, slightly adjusted dinner with CB, and the newest Harry Potter. We had made plans for one place, which has several locations. He was at one, I was at another. *sighs* And I never knew how pushy normal fancy pantsy bartenders got. No, my drink is fine, no I don't need a menu, no I don't want another one, no I DON'T want a menu! We ended up at the Outback near the Theatre.
He eats his steak like me *sighs* Medium Rare,Filet Mignon. He even likes the Bloomin' Onion, and, although he drank water, he also ordered a chocolate martini. We talked about work, and sucky work, and how much he fears losing his job, in this economy. Sometimes we're polar opposites. I have no fear of losing my job, hell things can only get better, really. He can't fathom not having this job. I can't fathom that. I tried to wrap my head around his family things, but I just don't get it, thanks to my own up bringing. Vacations for him were pleasant, for me were torture, something I refused to do after age 14.
Perhaps that's the reason for my apprehension on the London trip. Vacations were never fun, and here I am taking one. *shudder*
The movie was good, I'm not sure what I was expecting tho. I can't believe all the subtleties she put into the book, that were dropped form the movie. I will always enjoy reading the books, although I am right in my decision to NOT read LOTR until after the 3rd movie. Saw the preview for Two Towers, more Legolas goodness *drools* I'm SO taking the day off to see it, and hang out.
Then I leave him and I am sad *pouts* I'm going to miss the crap outta him, I can't imaging meeting anyone in England I like half as much. Especially since he's HERE. *grins* All in all it was nice, dinner with a pretty boy, sitting in the dark, even tho we watched the movie
And the movie - one thing at the moment, not really a spoiler, but I HATE THAT FREAKING GHOST! I know she's supposed to be whiney, and superior, but DAMN!
Ahem
Then I get home and see the usual bullshit, put out into the universe, as if ANYBODY gives a shit. Seriously, I rant here, I call people names, and I bitch about the scumbags of the universe, but I do NOT force my opinions on others, but posting them in a public forum. I've resisted posting to Netgoth for that exact reason, where my posts will be nothing but "FUCK YOU *insert name here*!" I resisted posting a reply to the current poison, but I did poke about a bit. Color me unsurprised. Look, if I wanted you shit, I'd have squeezed your head, take it back where it's only for you.
And, I'd like to point out, for the record, that I am NOT a scumbag. I am many things, I am a bitch, I'm selfish, occasionally immature, I can NOT get over hating people once my gut tells me they suck, but I do NOT intentionally hurt people, I protect my friends by ANY MEANS necessary, and I will NOT tolerate lies. This makes me harsh, bossy, sometimes annoying, sometimes irritating and a shebeast bitchqueen. But I am NOT a scumbag. Just because I annoy YOU (the general YOU, not any YOU in particular) doesn't make me a bad person. Nor does it make anyone I don't like a bad person. it's actions that do, if you do shitty things, you are shitty, it's a pretty simple concept, almost math-like.
Now, I am much calmer, thanks to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
emilytbm for calming me down (although you're still wrong *snicker*) I'm off to bed, to dream about my vacation, of torturing CB from London, about seeing Jonathan, and about the metric ton of work I have to do before then. Bleh.
*hugs*
He eats his steak like me *sighs* Medium Rare,Filet Mignon. He even likes the Bloomin' Onion, and, although he drank water, he also ordered a chocolate martini. We talked about work, and sucky work, and how much he fears losing his job, in this economy. Sometimes we're polar opposites. I have no fear of losing my job, hell things can only get better, really. He can't fathom not having this job. I can't fathom that. I tried to wrap my head around his family things, but I just don't get it, thanks to my own up bringing. Vacations for him were pleasant, for me were torture, something I refused to do after age 14.
Perhaps that's the reason for my apprehension on the London trip. Vacations were never fun, and here I am taking one. *shudder*
The movie was good, I'm not sure what I was expecting tho. I can't believe all the subtleties she put into the book, that were dropped form the movie. I will always enjoy reading the books, although I am right in my decision to NOT read LOTR until after the 3rd movie. Saw the preview for Two Towers, more Legolas goodness *drools* I'm SO taking the day off to see it, and hang out.
Then I leave him and I am sad *pouts* I'm going to miss the crap outta him, I can't imaging meeting anyone in England I like half as much. Especially since he's HERE. *grins* All in all it was nice, dinner with a pretty boy, sitting in the dark, even tho we watched the movie
And the movie - one thing at the moment, not really a spoiler, but I HATE THAT FREAKING GHOST! I know she's supposed to be whiney, and superior, but DAMN!
Ahem
Then I get home and see the usual bullshit, put out into the universe, as if ANYBODY gives a shit. Seriously, I rant here, I call people names, and I bitch about the scumbags of the universe, but I do NOT force my opinions on others, but posting them in a public forum. I've resisted posting to Netgoth for that exact reason, where my posts will be nothing but "FUCK YOU *insert name here*!" I resisted posting a reply to the current poison, but I did poke about a bit. Color me unsurprised. Look, if I wanted you shit, I'd have squeezed your head, take it back where it's only for you.
And, I'd like to point out, for the record, that I am NOT a scumbag. I am many things, I am a bitch, I'm selfish, occasionally immature, I can NOT get over hating people once my gut tells me they suck, but I do NOT intentionally hurt people, I protect my friends by ANY MEANS necessary, and I will NOT tolerate lies. This makes me harsh, bossy, sometimes annoying, sometimes irritating and a shebeast bitchqueen. But I am NOT a scumbag. Just because I annoy YOU (the general YOU, not any YOU in particular) doesn't make me a bad person. Nor does it make anyone I don't like a bad person. it's actions that do, if you do shitty things, you are shitty, it's a pretty simple concept, almost math-like.
Now, I am much calmer, thanks to
emilytbm for calming me down (although you're still wrong *snicker*) I'm off to bed, to dream about my vacation, of torturing CB from London, about seeing Jonathan, and about the metric ton of work I have to do before then. Bleh.*hugs*
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and you are NOT a scumbag. you are loyal and a very good friend. you are protective of those people and things you care about. also, you know what you like, you know what you want, you know yourself, and you don't budge. people should envy that in you. it's admirable.
:)
hugs!
Thanks
Date: 2002-11-16 10:44 am (UTC)I went through too much with a former set of friends to be fooled by any garbage that gets slung around now. it's odd that the things some people tell me are my best qualities, the things that attract CB, are the same things that make people so pissed off at me. I don't mind earning trust, I'm a hard person to know.
I just read something last night authored by someone, and in it she was slinging crap at someone for behaviours she herself displays. It's odd, really. I can feel something brewing, and I'm VERY GLAD I'm jumping the pond this week.
*much hugs* and love to you and the boi. Can you email me your address again, and his? I'm sending postcards as soon as I land *gigglefit*
Re: Thanks
Date: 2002-11-18 08:59 am (UTC)emailing you addresses right now.
SO glad you're going on this well deserved vacation. i can't wait to hear all about it!