Oh I forgot
Oct. 17th, 2002 10:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyLast night, I was pulling my usual passive aggressive "Tell me you like me" bull with CB (the only place I'm passive. I don't really want to offend him or drive him away with unwanted advances. I'm kinda in the pitch black, trying to go down a stairway, put out one foot, feel around, take a step, repeat.) This involves a bunch of "It's not like you actually like me, anyway." So I was teasing him, and offering him my friend's numbers and so forth, to which he kept laughing at me. And trying to point out some guys, I kept telling him that I just wasn't interested, I had my target and I couldn't just dismiss him. That I was willing to wait, even though I knew it more than likely wasn't going to go anywhere.
He says: "You're so sure about that?"
*schmoop!*
It's moments like that, that make me think there's actually something in there. He does tend to flirt with only me, and most girls who try to get his attention, do so by trying to "dance up on him", to quote Britney, and that's a HUGE no-no. He says he "can't" dance with anyone, and for the most part I agree with him. but I can think of a few occasions we're going to have to negotiate that. So when chickies try and get his attention, by doing the one thing that puts him off, well, that just solidifies my status, I know enough not to try to put my hands all over a new guy, on the dance floor. And if for some reason they follow him, he comes over to ME, and there is a look of Death waiting for them. *grins*
Anyway, I'm just kinda in silly mode, I feel like I had a good night, and aren't confused this morning, like I usually am. I need to make more of an attempt to understand some of his quirks, I expect him to gain an understanding of mine.
One foul note - the ex is coming back for another visit, to "look at " colleges. And we had another discussion about "whom hates who" last night. SOmeting about how she stood FAR closer to me than I remember, and how I didn't look up at her, and how OBVIOUSLY I didn't want to meet her. I've been wracking my brain thinking about it, and I honestly don't remember "snubbing" her. I remember not wanting to butt into his discussion with her, I remember waiting for an opening to ask for an introduction, I remember her walking away without me getting that opportunity, and I remember HIM leaving and not returning. Did I mention that I was SICK on top of that, and that I'd come out just to meet her? It was at the beginning of my "Bajorian Death Flu" phase. So he says I'll have an opportunity to "kiss and make up" and my first thought was "uh huh." My second was "I was supposed to look up and beg for an introduction to a stranger, who is competition, in MY HOUSE???" I really think that this could be a problem. I'll make an attempt to be nice, be he has to back me up. He needs to introduce us, and then leave it alone. I think we are bot threatened by each other, and I really believe this move is an attempt to get "something" back, but I won't know for sure until she gets here permanently. If she does *crosses fingers she won't*
OK, seriously, I can totally smell smoke in my hair, I need to get in the shower.
He says: "You're so sure about that?"
*schmoop!*
It's moments like that, that make me think there's actually something in there. He does tend to flirt with only me, and most girls who try to get his attention, do so by trying to "dance up on him", to quote Britney, and that's a HUGE no-no. He says he "can't" dance with anyone, and for the most part I agree with him. but I can think of a few occasions we're going to have to negotiate that. So when chickies try and get his attention, by doing the one thing that puts him off, well, that just solidifies my status, I know enough not to try to put my hands all over a new guy, on the dance floor. And if for some reason they follow him, he comes over to ME, and there is a look of Death waiting for them. *grins*
Anyway, I'm just kinda in silly mode, I feel like I had a good night, and aren't confused this morning, like I usually am. I need to make more of an attempt to understand some of his quirks, I expect him to gain an understanding of mine.
One foul note - the ex is coming back for another visit, to "look at " colleges. And we had another discussion about "whom hates who" last night. SOmeting about how she stood FAR closer to me than I remember, and how I didn't look up at her, and how OBVIOUSLY I didn't want to meet her. I've been wracking my brain thinking about it, and I honestly don't remember "snubbing" her. I remember not wanting to butt into his discussion with her, I remember waiting for an opening to ask for an introduction, I remember her walking away without me getting that opportunity, and I remember HIM leaving and not returning. Did I mention that I was SICK on top of that, and that I'd come out just to meet her? It was at the beginning of my "Bajorian Death Flu" phase. So he says I'll have an opportunity to "kiss and make up" and my first thought was "uh huh." My second was "I was supposed to look up and beg for an introduction to a stranger, who is competition, in MY HOUSE???" I really think that this could be a problem. I'll make an attempt to be nice, be he has to back me up. He needs to introduce us, and then leave it alone. I think we are bot threatened by each other, and I really believe this move is an attempt to get "something" back, but I won't know for sure until she gets here permanently. If she does *crosses fingers she won't*
OK, seriously, I can totally smell smoke in my hair, I need to get in the shower.
