I knew it would be something small
Sep. 21st, 2002 11:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyHonestly, it's not that I mind having plans cancelled. OK I don't like it. Who does? But I Understand It, better than I used to, better than most.
What I DON'T like is being told "Later" when the actual answer is "No."
I'd rather be FUCKING told NO!
Grrrrrrrrr.
So I didn't feel like going anywhere, I didn't go to ManRay, I didn't do anything and my day flew by. And I was HOPING just to hang out, help him relax.
But he can go FUCK himself now. I knew it would be something small. And the fact is me, and my friendship, mean little to nothing to him. I'm too emotional, want too much. He's just as stubborn as he's supposed to be. It doesn't occur to him that MAYBE I have a reason, and he's already denying me things because I want them
That's the easiest way to make me VERY ANGRY. And to have me dump you on your ass. I no longer care, at the moment, what may happen in the future. He's going to get a taste of that starting now, but I don't really give a fuck. I really don't want to see him right now. I want him to go back to having no life. Since he won't let me in, there's nothing I can do.
*hand* I'm super pissed right now, and not really wanting to deal with anything. I feel like railing at him via e-mail, but all I'll get is "I told you so, a while ago." I don't want to hear that. I want him to ADMIT he's dodging me, I want him to ADMIT the real problems, then I want him OUT OF THE WAY.
And since I'll be getting none of this, I'm going to bed. We'll see how I feel in the morning, maybe I'll feel up to socializing. I doubt it.
What I DON'T like is being told "Later" when the actual answer is "No."
I'd rather be FUCKING told NO!
Grrrrrrrrr.
So I didn't feel like going anywhere, I didn't go to ManRay, I didn't do anything and my day flew by. And I was HOPING just to hang out, help him relax.
But he can go FUCK himself now. I knew it would be something small. And the fact is me, and my friendship, mean little to nothing to him. I'm too emotional, want too much. He's just as stubborn as he's supposed to be. It doesn't occur to him that MAYBE I have a reason, and he's already denying me things because I want them
That's the easiest way to make me VERY ANGRY. And to have me dump you on your ass. I no longer care, at the moment, what may happen in the future. He's going to get a taste of that starting now, but I don't really give a fuck. I really don't want to see him right now. I want him to go back to having no life. Since he won't let me in, there's nothing I can do.
*hand* I'm super pissed right now, and not really wanting to deal with anything. I feel like railing at him via e-mail, but all I'll get is "I told you so, a while ago." I don't want to hear that. I want him to ADMIT he's dodging me, I want him to ADMIT the real problems, then I want him OUT OF THE WAY.
And since I'll be getting none of this, I'm going to bed. We'll see how I feel in the morning, maybe I'll feel up to socializing. I doubt it.
