Sunnuvabeyatch
Sep. 13th, 2002 03:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatlady"Hey,
Sorry I have been nowhere lately. I am not ignoring you (at least not on purpose) and I am not mad at you for any reason. I'll be fairly scarce for the rest of this month (still doing the studying thing). I hope you have been having more fun than me. Perhaps I will be able to take a manray break next week.
Ok, I now return to my self inflected pain that is my job."
*grumbles* I don't LIKE it I tell you. OK, priorities. Got it. It's coming back to how much I'm willing to bend to be with him, and how much he doesn't care! *sigh* I'm just frustrated. I know what I want and I can see how good it could be. And he's not going with the fucking program!
*sigh* You know, if I had two brain cells that spoke to one another, I'd be dangerous. I'm doing the "beating on a wall" thing, railing at what is unchangeable, in typical arrogant Leo fashion. Damn you wall (or CB) YOU WILL bow to me, or else. Or else what? Hmmm. Or else I'll SHOUT AT YOU again! AHA!
Picture me, a lioness, pacing the walls of a cage, ocaasionally taking swipes at the foolish boy (CB) who is poking me with a (proverbial) stick, hoping he'll get close enough to skewer. That's my current attitude. And it's why I'm ranting, constantly.
Having more fun than him. *snort* Certainly not after what I did to myself last night *shudder* I mean, really, what the hell is the use of an overactive imagination, especially one loaded with erotic thoughts, whe you can't put said thoughts into practice? I swear, if I ever get him into bed, he'd better be prepared to not leave it for a week!
I feel bad for him tho, and seriously, if I knew him better (and can't get to know him without TIME which he isn't giving me) I'd go over there and drag his sorry ass out, throw him into my car and make for the border!
Sorry I have been nowhere lately. I am not ignoring you (at least not on purpose) and I am not mad at you for any reason. I'll be fairly scarce for the rest of this month (still doing the studying thing). I hope you have been having more fun than me. Perhaps I will be able to take a manray break next week.
Ok, I now return to my self inflected pain that is my job."
*grumbles* I don't LIKE it I tell you. OK, priorities. Got it. It's coming back to how much I'm willing to bend to be with him, and how much he doesn't care! *sigh* I'm just frustrated. I know what I want and I can see how good it could be. And he's not going with the fucking program!
*sigh* You know, if I had two brain cells that spoke to one another, I'd be dangerous. I'm doing the "beating on a wall" thing, railing at what is unchangeable, in typical arrogant Leo fashion. Damn you wall (or CB) YOU WILL bow to me, or else. Or else what? Hmmm. Or else I'll SHOUT AT YOU again! AHA!
Picture me, a lioness, pacing the walls of a cage, ocaasionally taking swipes at the foolish boy (CB) who is poking me with a (proverbial) stick, hoping he'll get close enough to skewer. That's my current attitude. And it's why I'm ranting, constantly.
Having more fun than him. *snort* Certainly not after what I did to myself last night *shudder* I mean, really, what the hell is the use of an overactive imagination, especially one loaded with erotic thoughts, whe you can't put said thoughts into practice? I swear, if I ever get him into bed, he'd better be prepared to not leave it for a week!
I feel bad for him tho, and seriously, if I knew him better (and can't get to know him without TIME which he isn't giving me) I'd go over there and drag his sorry ass out, throw him into my car and make for the border!
