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tiamatladyI dunno, what do you think?
Spend the night hanging out with AND sleeping with the boy who is currently my target.
And not lay ONE FINGER on him.
Not one.
Not a touch.
Not a bite.
Not a nibble.
Nothing.
OK, I snuck in a kiss to his shoulder at 4:30 AM after I startled him awake to get to the bathroom. Through my blanket. I was tired I couldn't help myself, I assume he was asleep or pretending to.
I was good, dammit, and demanded, and got, mad props for being good.
It's just this simple - He's not into casual, and isn't looking for a girlfriends right now, given his first taste of freedom in quite a while, plus a badass work schedule, and a not so conductive to loud nasty sex living situation. If I EVER want that particular job, I MUST respect his wishes right now. I can bitch about it, I can flirt with him, I can hit on him with a two by four. But I CAN'T push him into a situation he doesn't want to be in.
*sigh* This kinda sucks, I'm used to getting what I want, when I want it. I mean actually Respecting someone's wishes? *sigh*
I had a really good time last night, and we didn't even do anything. He's very easy to get along with. He answered all my questions. asked about me, listened to my stories, told me some of his own. And all we did was watch movies, and have dinner.
So, crossing my fingers he shows up tonight at Communion. I'm probably going to start getting ready in an hour or two (Yes, to leave at 8:30-45, I'm pathetic)
I have to go email him directions, and also check on how you text message me, since we had some mixup last night, since I wasn't waiting for him (I popped out two seconds after he went back to his car) and he wasn't exactly sure where I meant to meet him.
Then I'm going to have some Ramen, and maybe shower, I haven't decided if I should bother, since I'm going to then spray myself down with hairspray for my ponyfalls. Hmmm Big Hair.
Spend the night hanging out with AND sleeping with the boy who is currently my target.
And not lay ONE FINGER on him.
Not one.
Not a touch.
Not a bite.
Not a nibble.
Nothing.
OK, I snuck in a kiss to his shoulder at 4:30 AM after I startled him awake to get to the bathroom. Through my blanket. I was tired I couldn't help myself, I assume he was asleep or pretending to.
I was good, dammit, and demanded, and got, mad props for being good.
It's just this simple - He's not into casual, and isn't looking for a girlfriends right now, given his first taste of freedom in quite a while, plus a badass work schedule, and a not so conductive to loud nasty sex living situation. If I EVER want that particular job, I MUST respect his wishes right now. I can bitch about it, I can flirt with him, I can hit on him with a two by four. But I CAN'T push him into a situation he doesn't want to be in.
*sigh* This kinda sucks, I'm used to getting what I want, when I want it. I mean actually Respecting someone's wishes? *sigh*
I had a really good time last night, and we didn't even do anything. He's very easy to get along with. He answered all my questions. asked about me, listened to my stories, told me some of his own. And all we did was watch movies, and have dinner.
So, crossing my fingers he shows up tonight at Communion. I'm probably going to start getting ready in an hour or two (Yes, to leave at 8:30-45, I'm pathetic)
I have to go email him directions, and also check on how you text message me, since we had some mixup last night, since I wasn't waiting for him (I popped out two seconds after he went back to his car) and he wasn't exactly sure where I meant to meet him.
Then I'm going to have some Ramen, and maybe shower, I haven't decided if I should bother, since I'm going to then spray myself down with hairspray for my ponyfalls. Hmmm Big Hair.
