The one where Tia gives up

[tiamatlady]

A thought entered my head last night, while talking to kazama, it's one I've dismissed before, thinking it wasn't an option. But suddenly, it's here.

What if I don't go to Dragoncon?

I WANT to, rather badly. But the money thing worries me. Without a plane ticket the cost out of pocket at the moment is staggering. Perhaps if I hadn't been sick, perhaps if Marc hadn't been left homeless SEVERAL times *grrrrr* I wouldn't have been so stressed, and been better able to concentrate. If I hadn't paid off my insurance, maybe I'd have more money. There are a lot of what if's, but it's my fault entirely But, the fact is, it's almost August, I have 30 days it find enough money to go and I just don't think it's going to happen.

So I'm missing a chance to hang with fieryredhead, a chance to meet naturelevon and a show by the Cruxshadows.

Compared to: NYC with Bret and Laura, paying my bills on time without a break in it, getting my taxes in order (Yup I owe, BIG, and I need to deal with THAT before DC), my sincere dislike of the whole airport process at this point (I have images of them tearing my Versatile corset apart for the boning), the lack of Lou, and the desire to visit him later in the year AND AND AND

*waits*
I had this other thought.
About going to London. To visit Jonathan.

He's been "I miss you guys, I miss America, I like it here, but you should come visit." He's called me a couple of times, and opened his house, saying he and Francesca would LOVE to have me over.

And I'm thinking, why the hell not?

I could plan to go in October, or November
I could start working for REAL and start putting money away. All I'd need is a plane ticket, and spending money. That makes it cheaper than going to Dragoncon. And Bret might want to go too, so I could stay with Jonathan and Francesca for a couple of days, and then in a hotel with Bret for a couple of days, and not feel like I'm wearing out my welcome. Raises my expense, but makes me feel better

I seriously need to think about it. I've been to Atlanta, I can go next year and save more money during tax season this year. I've never been to London.

One thing I need - A volunteer to buy me the Fushigi Yugi DVD Box sets at DC. I can come up with $200 before the Con, that's how much they were last time.

OK I need to go shower, but I should check on my plans for the day first.

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