Hmm, Been silent
Jun. 19th, 2002 10:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tiamatladyAnd it's a good thing.
I'm still not sure if I'm going to be ranting on LJ or not about the last couple of weeks.
Of my anger.
Of my frustration.
Of my bitterness.
And all my good intentions, have pretty much been thrown in my face.
I need out. I seriously need a couple of days where I don't worry about someone else's well being, someone else's feelings, the state of my life physically and emotionally. I'm not talking about running, I'm talking about a break from my reality. for a couple of days. Maybe living like a rock star in NYC, with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
staralfurinn and evoldollboy. Maybe going somewhere I haven't been, like Maine and visit my uncle and go shopping (sort of) in the outlet malls, or maybe even Prince Edward Island, or Montreal, or SOMEWHERE. Anywhere but here.
When work is the GOOD thing, when work is the thing that DOESN'T stress me out, I thing that is a Very Bad Thing.
Although yesterday I learned what stress is. I'm exhausted form sitting on my ass and watching a 5 months old go about her business. I can't believe those who do it every day, it's just too much to fathom.
I figure I can fix everything in myself if given enough time. I just need some things to change, and they will, very soon. Maybe then I'll feel like being social again, capable of going out and working and seeing people who demand my attention.
First on my list - tonight with Bella Morte. I'm not sure if anyone I usually hang with is going tonight, good. More Andy goodness for me *evil grin* Stupid ManRay no camera policy. Understandable, yes. But I would only take picture of the band, but of course they don't know that. Normally I agree with this policy, except when it's inconvenient for ME *lol*
I have to get going, get ready to go to a client for the day *gag* and find somewhere to change tonight, in case I can't make it home. I'd RATHER make it home, but since I had to bail early on this client last week, and I didn't make it to them this past weekend like I said I would try to, I have tons of work waiting for me. And I'm OK with this.
I'm still not sure if I'm going to be ranting on LJ or not about the last couple of weeks.
Of my anger.
Of my frustration.
Of my bitterness.
And all my good intentions, have pretty much been thrown in my face.
I need out. I seriously need a couple of days where I don't worry about someone else's well being, someone else's feelings, the state of my life physically and emotionally. I'm not talking about running, I'm talking about a break from my reality. for a couple of days. Maybe living like a rock star in NYC, with
staralfurinn and evoldollboy. Maybe going somewhere I haven't been, like Maine and visit my uncle and go shopping (sort of) in the outlet malls, or maybe even Prince Edward Island, or Montreal, or SOMEWHERE. Anywhere but here.When work is the GOOD thing, when work is the thing that DOESN'T stress me out, I thing that is a Very Bad Thing.
Although yesterday I learned what stress is. I'm exhausted form sitting on my ass and watching a 5 months old go about her business. I can't believe those who do it every day, it's just too much to fathom.
I figure I can fix everything in myself if given enough time. I just need some things to change, and they will, very soon. Maybe then I'll feel like being social again, capable of going out and working and seeing people who demand my attention.
First on my list - tonight with Bella Morte. I'm not sure if anyone I usually hang with is going tonight, good. More Andy goodness for me *evil grin* Stupid ManRay no camera policy. Understandable, yes. But I would only take picture of the band, but of course they don't know that. Normally I agree with this policy, except when it's inconvenient for ME *lol*
I have to get going, get ready to go to a client for the day *gag* and find somewhere to change tonight, in case I can't make it home. I'd RATHER make it home, but since I had to bail early on this client last week, and I didn't make it to them this past weekend like I said I would try to, I have tons of work waiting for me. And I'm OK with this.
