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tiamatladyStill not enjoying the things I once loved.
MR was - dull. Maybe due to the lack of people I like. Maybe due to my mood.
I didn't feel like walking around and not as many people to come over to me.
I don't like how I feel there these days. It's not a community anymore.
Maybe I have different priorities.
I almost don't want my adult life anymore.
I COULD go out all nights of the week, but nor with my workload that I hope to have.
Plus, I'm just - uninterested - in drunken, boozing, druggie parties.
Totally not interested. I might drink, but I don't need it to have fun, and being sober at one of those parties is - sobering.
*sighs*
Hopefully I'll feel better in the morning.
I'm off to bed shortly, I'm going to set my alarms for a reasonable hour tomorrow. I want to get up, get dressed and start laundry, and just pick a spot and start. Then, when the unit comes home I'll either go out to meet Howie, or to the storage unit. I'm liking that idea for Saturday - get up and go over there for the day while she's frigging here.
I just need to remember what an energy suck she is. One of the best times of my life was spent away form here and her.
I'm just so tired. And now it's not lack of sleep. *sighs*
The cost is gonna suck, but this trip with D? I need it a lot.
MR was - dull. Maybe due to the lack of people I like. Maybe due to my mood.
I didn't feel like walking around and not as many people to come over to me.
I don't like how I feel there these days. It's not a community anymore.
Maybe I have different priorities.
I almost don't want my adult life anymore.
I COULD go out all nights of the week, but nor with my workload that I hope to have.
Plus, I'm just - uninterested - in drunken, boozing, druggie parties.
Totally not interested. I might drink, but I don't need it to have fun, and being sober at one of those parties is - sobering.
*sighs*
Hopefully I'll feel better in the morning.
I'm off to bed shortly, I'm going to set my alarms for a reasonable hour tomorrow. I want to get up, get dressed and start laundry, and just pick a spot and start. Then, when the unit comes home I'll either go out to meet Howie, or to the storage unit. I'm liking that idea for Saturday - get up and go over there for the day while she's frigging here.
I just need to remember what an energy suck she is. One of the best times of my life was spent away form here and her.
I'm just so tired. And now it's not lack of sleep. *sighs*
The cost is gonna suck, but this trip with D? I need it a lot.
