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tiamatlady) wrote2004-04-21 04:07 pm
tiamatlady) wrote2004-04-21 04:07 pm
Something's wrong
I decided lounging was a better way to spend my day than cleaning.
And until a bit ago, I was fine with it.
I think it's because the unit is due home soon.
I don't think it was Howie all of a sudden taking point on something he should have had done months ago.
I don't think it's to his revelation that EVERYONE BUT ME has talked to Lou.
And, although this is upsetting, I also don't think it's due to my realization that I DON'T want to see Lou. I don't really want to go out to Neubauten now. I don't want to ask him to come to Haven. I just want to smile and nod through the wedding, and leave it at that. I think I'm trying to break it off before he does. Our friendship. Just so the "friends" of Sprite's can tell her that's what I said (her words, not mine)
*shrugs*
Seriously, I think my mother's mood has sent me into a tailspin. That and the sheer amount of work I have to do on this room. I haven't an ounce of energy. I suppose, I should just go out to work.
off to finish my soup, and plot out my week, and next.
And until a bit ago, I was fine with it.
I think it's because the unit is due home soon.
I don't think it was Howie all of a sudden taking point on something he should have had done months ago.
I don't think it's to his revelation that EVERYONE BUT ME has talked to Lou.
And, although this is upsetting, I also don't think it's due to my realization that I DON'T want to see Lou. I don't really want to go out to Neubauten now. I don't want to ask him to come to Haven. I just want to smile and nod through the wedding, and leave it at that. I think I'm trying to break it off before he does. Our friendship. Just so the "friends" of Sprite's can tell her that's what I said (her words, not mine)
*shrugs*
Seriously, I think my mother's mood has sent me into a tailspin. That and the sheer amount of work I have to do on this room. I haven't an ounce of energy. I suppose, I should just go out to work.
off to finish my soup, and plot out my week, and next.