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tiamatladyIt's not the work, or the schedule, really, it's the ups and downs of my mood.
Yesterday I can't even say how many moods I went through. It's disturbing.
It started with me being groggy and annoyed at my asshat client who "required" me to come in in the morning, screwing up my schedule and putting me into a half hour of stop and go traffic. More annoyance as I get there and he's NOT. AND he shows as I'm ready to leave. Then another overage of traffic which puts me at my afternoon client 1 at 1, instead of noon.
Why don't my clients call me when the should, instead of when they shouldn't. If she had told me the person I was working around was working from HOME, I could have arranged things much differently. Instead I get call after call of STUPID questions, from someone whom I need to start charging for it. It's gotten so bad that I've shut my phone off and refuse to turn it back on.
That's another thing, I'm being very petulent about that. I'm refusing to turn the phone on, and I don't want to talk to my stupid client where I need to go.
So I rush around, getting more and more cranky, didn't have time to stop and eat, which is adding to my stress, and, subtracting from my skill level, I made some stupid mistakes because my head wasn't in the game.
THIS is what I'm looking to avoid. Working long hours at one office I can do, rushing around too many clients makes for a jumpy bitchy Tia, and clients who are NOT served the way they should be. I truly felt I ran out on two of them, and the third, because I didn't eat got a half assed job.
Then I got dinner, ate pretty well, Felt much better. Enough to get dressed, to get things done, get my makeup on. Get out to the club in a pretty good mood, which gets even better when Bret arrives. Then I hear one little thing, that I'm NOT SURE wasn't told to me in an attempt to hurt me, that brings my mood straight back down. Now I'm brooding, and I've written an email that could very well be the end of something I want. And I'm just not sure.
I can't take the mood swings. I'm pretty sure I don't need meds, it's not that, I think my diet has the most to do with it. I'm craving red meat, healthy side dishes, and not just fast tasteless crap. And I don't have time. or energy.
Andnow I should get dressed and go. I'm stopping at BJs for things tonight, and I'm making myself a nice dinner and I'm going to bed early - perhaps before InuYasha. I've been up for quite a while and can't get moving. I've been getting up relatively early all week, and I'd like this to continue, but I need more sleep and I need to make arraingments for Thursdays, since I just can't get up that early, but something more like ten, than 7.
Seriously, I'm not dealing with these mood swings. I'd like to have one mood at a time, no more than two a day, please. Thanks.
Yesterday I can't even say how many moods I went through. It's disturbing.
It started with me being groggy and annoyed at my asshat client who "required" me to come in in the morning, screwing up my schedule and putting me into a half hour of stop and go traffic. More annoyance as I get there and he's NOT. AND he shows as I'm ready to leave. Then another overage of traffic which puts me at my afternoon client 1 at 1, instead of noon.
Why don't my clients call me when the should, instead of when they shouldn't. If she had told me the person I was working around was working from HOME, I could have arranged things much differently. Instead I get call after call of STUPID questions, from someone whom I need to start charging for it. It's gotten so bad that I've shut my phone off and refuse to turn it back on.
That's another thing, I'm being very petulent about that. I'm refusing to turn the phone on, and I don't want to talk to my stupid client where I need to go.
So I rush around, getting more and more cranky, didn't have time to stop and eat, which is adding to my stress, and, subtracting from my skill level, I made some stupid mistakes because my head wasn't in the game.
THIS is what I'm looking to avoid. Working long hours at one office I can do, rushing around too many clients makes for a jumpy bitchy Tia, and clients who are NOT served the way they should be. I truly felt I ran out on two of them, and the third, because I didn't eat got a half assed job.
Then I got dinner, ate pretty well, Felt much better. Enough to get dressed, to get things done, get my makeup on. Get out to the club in a pretty good mood, which gets even better when Bret arrives. Then I hear one little thing, that I'm NOT SURE wasn't told to me in an attempt to hurt me, that brings my mood straight back down. Now I'm brooding, and I've written an email that could very well be the end of something I want. And I'm just not sure.
I can't take the mood swings. I'm pretty sure I don't need meds, it's not that, I think my diet has the most to do with it. I'm craving red meat, healthy side dishes, and not just fast tasteless crap. And I don't have time. or energy.
Andnow I should get dressed and go. I'm stopping at BJs for things tonight, and I'm making myself a nice dinner and I'm going to bed early - perhaps before InuYasha. I've been up for quite a while and can't get moving. I've been getting up relatively early all week, and I'd like this to continue, but I need more sleep and I need to make arraingments for Thursdays, since I just can't get up that early, but something more like ten, than 7.
Seriously, I'm not dealing with these mood swings. I'd like to have one mood at a time, no more than two a day, please. Thanks.
