Review in brief

I WUV my new camera. Shot in a low light mode with fast shutter action. I took well over 400 pictures, at the normal/ok level of pictures. A LOT of Jessica, who was right in front of me and doing some interesting faces. Obviously a lot of Rogue, and lot of George, who is just cute as all hell.

(le2pold I got a picture of he and I - if you're interested in seeing what you'd look like if you had a 'hawk and played guitar *evil grin*)

I'll get to them tomorrow, right now I'm about to pass out.

I have thoughts too. I don't know what to do. Let's just say that the recent concert events where I've wanted to enjoy a band have been ruined, mostly by loudmouths who are the SUPER fans, who seem to think that their favorite song is being played just for them. I understand the feeling, and don't really want to ruin a good time, but DAMN I DO NOT need to hear you sing off key into my ear!

Anyway my attitude is concerning me, I'll have to do something about it.

PS - someone tutor me in making moving icons. I'm FAR too lazy to actually LOOK it up!

Also, I saw Terri tonight outside the ME. I miss her. She hugged me. Which confused me but, hey, OK. *grins*

Whoa!

I just read an account of some Genitorturers nonsense that makes me at once GLAD I'm refusing to go to "Gothstock" and feel very very VERY BAD for anyone who is.

Cruxshadows not withstanding. NOT my idea of a good time.

I dunno what to do with myself today. I'm not motivated YET, but I'm thinking there's a cleaning fit in my future. I don't want to go out into the abyss of Saturday errands runners. They really can't drive. I might make a phone call about later plans. OK, several calls, I'm not sure what I want to do yet. I also feel my closet calling me today.

Postus interrptus for another phone call. Looks like I know what I'm doing later, and I'm motivated to get stuff done into he meantime. Steak is cooking, and I'll be opening doors and seeing which way my motivation takes me.

Hopefully I'll have picture later.

You know

I think I've got it.

I find myself having two modes.

"On" and "tired"

Lately, being "on" has taken more out of me than every before.
Last night pushed every button I have. I'm MORE THAN AWARE that stuff that I experienced has happened before, and not with these kinds of consequences. I'm totally aware it's my attitude when it comes to going out that's the problem. I'd much rather be with just a few people, than with crowds.

UNLESS. I'm alone. Last night I was, to a point (Matt, Julia and crypticreign not withstanding) The idea of going to a strange city, going to club and dancing my ass off, or just sitting and watching alone tastes - delicious.

It's harder than ever to be "on" these days. I was in a pretty good mood, until I got a call that made me feel that I was required as "entertainment." Sometimes I'm OK with this. days like today I'm NOT.

And it's been the crux of every time I've had issues with my friends and pulled back. because my "On" boundaries were pushed and stretched.

It's also why I spend so much of my time watching TV. Nothing to stress me there.

I need to do something about it, instead of just talking about it. Some boundaries are in order, for others and for myself.