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Today has been a wash
May. 14th, 2005 07:01 pmtopped off with Teh Unit "cleaning and moving" which is JUST LIKE the way I do it, stand aroudn staring and cursing, getting overwhelmed, having an emotional breakdown, threaten to throw everything out, and breaking something. The "handyman" she hired to put on the doors of her closet effed up and both sets have now come off the tracks. They ARE NOT hard to deal with but she's having a nervous breakdown over it. I looked and said "huh, maybe I'll leave them off, I like the open space." and she FREAKED about how it "sucked." well SHE won't have to deal with it. Thanks. I have it in my head to move my bed, and she's driving me UP THE WALL with her talk of what she's going to do, instead of JUST doing it. I can't move ANYTHING til she gets out. I want to empty the living room of stuff so the carpet can be dealt with (it needs cleaning and stretching) and I can paint. I said once she moves her bed, I'll be moving boxes into the bedroom. She said "YOU can't DO that - _I_ need room to sort!" Well MAYBE I can light a fire under her by reminding her that I REFUSE to pay rent until she's OUT. if I'm paying I get use of every space, which I do not have now.
There's just something about her that sucks the very life essence from me. I forsee a great change of life quality once we're away from each other. I can see where I get every single one of my neuroses. She does ALL of them. it drives me to drink, seriously. She can't get a gdamn thing done in short order it's ALL a drama. It's all "Save this we can use it" and "but throw that out since we don't" she's WEIRD. And _I_ want to finally spread out. I want my entertainment center setup. I want my bookcases in a different room, I want my bed in a different position to get it away from my closet and get me some desperately needed room in here. I have a WHOLE APARTMENT full of stuff, and ideas, and damned if she isn't in the way.
Now, I hear what you're saying "So get your own space already!" And believe me I thought of it, but I have packing and moving issues myself, and this IS my space, it will be mine once she leaves and mine in fact once I buy it. I like the idea of spreading out, finding what I really like and don't like, what I need and don't need. To sell or donate to others who can use things. to have a CLEAN and ORDERLY house, so I can be a bit sloppy without it being a total issue! Oh, and every time I suggest I get my own place I get "Why, you can have this one?" ARGH!
Feh.
I'm feeling a bit socialed out. GOing out late last night took it's toll. Although S is right - those steak tip subs are the perfect post ManRay choice, even tho I love meatball. The sauce at that time of night makes me just not a happy camper. I was planning on the show tonight, but I'm going to the show for Chris tomorrow, and I just have stuff to do. So I'm staying in.
Well not quite. I'm going out to *STORE* to return some things, and look at others. I WILL NOT speak it's name, I refuse to acknowledge that I've even looked in there. NO. DIDN'T HAPPEN. And I'm going to run to the storage unit for my other plates and my goblets.
Must be off now. Laters.
There's just something about her that sucks the very life essence from me. I forsee a great change of life quality once we're away from each other. I can see where I get every single one of my neuroses. She does ALL of them. it drives me to drink, seriously. She can't get a gdamn thing done in short order it's ALL a drama. It's all "Save this we can use it" and "but throw that out since we don't" she's WEIRD. And _I_ want to finally spread out. I want my entertainment center setup. I want my bookcases in a different room, I want my bed in a different position to get it away from my closet and get me some desperately needed room in here. I have a WHOLE APARTMENT full of stuff, and ideas, and damned if she isn't in the way.
Now, I hear what you're saying "So get your own space already!" And believe me I thought of it, but I have packing and moving issues myself, and this IS my space, it will be mine once she leaves and mine in fact once I buy it. I like the idea of spreading out, finding what I really like and don't like, what I need and don't need. To sell or donate to others who can use things. to have a CLEAN and ORDERLY house, so I can be a bit sloppy without it being a total issue! Oh, and every time I suggest I get my own place I get "Why, you can have this one?" ARGH!
Feh.
I'm feeling a bit socialed out. GOing out late last night took it's toll. Although S is right - those steak tip subs are the perfect post ManRay choice, even tho I love meatball. The sauce at that time of night makes me just not a happy camper. I was planning on the show tonight, but I'm going to the show for Chris tomorrow, and I just have stuff to do. So I'm staying in.
Well not quite. I'm going out to *STORE* to return some things, and look at others. I WILL NOT speak it's name, I refuse to acknowledge that I've even looked in there. NO. DIDN'T HAPPEN. And I'm going to run to the storage unit for my other plates and my goblets.
Must be off now. Laters.
